Life is but a dream

Ever wonder why we all feel the chaos is beyond us? I have and for a long time I questioned why.

The helpless feeling of not being able to even change one thing annoyed me. But I soon realized I could change something, I could change myself.

It was all about changing my mindset. I prayed over and over and soon found what I was looking for. The answer to my question I can’t change the chaos around me or even the world. But I could change myself and how reacted to it.

As each day goes by I get stronger and wiser learning that many things are out of my control. But learning to let things go and keep myself in control is something I must never stop doing. Self control is something you must practice till it becomes second nature.

God gave me the insight to follow Him even through the storm. Never to let go of His Hand instead to allow Him to lead me through the darkness.

I have chosen to follow Him. I hope today you all have a wonderful day. ~Emma~

That’s why

Is there an age or year of your life you would re-live?

I’m at the age where I realize I am grateful for the life I have lived. It wasn’t what I set out in my life. Many things happened that took me off the path I wanted to be on. But ultimately it was God that made this path I walk on. For His Will and His Purpose I walk it willingly. I don’t know why but His Purpose is what I live for. So no there is no age or year of my life I would re-live.

Everything happens for a reason learning to accept that is hard. But knowing the path you walk is with God makes it much easier to walk.

Life Update and Advice

Life is good I am extremely blessed. Grateful that God gives me the strength I need to keep going.

I have disconnected from many in my past and let them go. No hard feelings simply moving on.

Sometimes we forget not everyone is meant to be in our life. They are just tiny lines or a chapter in our book of life. But they aren’t meant to play big roles.

Once you have learned this life lesson it becomes so easy to simply let them go. Don’t ever ask anyone to stay that has chosen to leave your life. Take them as side characters or NPCs in your story.

They have a role to play but that’s it nothing more. So be grateful for the life you have and the lessons you learn.

God is good all the time. Have a blessed week. ~Emma~

Summertime

My summer has been good extremely busy season. The dogs are roaring in and out so very busy time for me. Though it is a busy time I do get to enjoy the beauty of summer, then bbqs, the flies that are everywhere, the lantern flies that seem to grow bigger each year. The flowers, the birds, the ants that want invade Luna’s living area. The heatwave, the air conditioning that I sleep so well in, my room is like a freezer.

There are so many good things and bad things but most of all I am grateful. Regardless of the bugs and the heat the summer is beautiful. It reminds us that nothing last forever and the season will become cold and dark again. So enjoy the moment or season you are in now. It won’t last but make the best of the season and be grateful for it.

You never know what is around the corner of life. So take time out today to thank God for this beautiful day. As they say time doesn’t stop and is completely unforgiving to anyone. So take time to be in the moment and sit in gratitude. ~~always, Emma~~

Life update

It’s been a really busy week. A good time of the year because we’re extremely busy, but my allergies have been making my life hard. I am still grateful for each and every single day that I get to wake up in the morning. I thank God every single day for each and every single moment that I get to spend with my mom, my dad, my sister the dog, working out, eating healthy, and and not trying to spend too much time watching C dramas

I have spent more time this week, not being on TikTok, YouTube, or any other social media platform. Mainly because there’s a lot of reasons for you to get angry and I don’t like to get angry. So for my own peace of mind, I have decided to take some time off of the social media platforms.

I am more focused on my relationship with God than I am about other people and their drama and bringing that person down and all the stuff that’s so unnecessary right now. Life is difficult enough. We don’t really need to be fighting for every single thing. I am trying to get my mom to work out more because she’s elderly and I’m trying to prepare her for the cruise next year.

So I spend a lot of time working out with her to get her into shape that makes her more flexible. Not just flexible, but also stronger so that she could have more stamina when we’re walking around. I don’t think people realize how hard it is to take care of your parents as they get older. It’s like dealing with toddlers. Except for toddlers, you can put your foot down but with your parents, they’re adults and you don’t want to belittle them. They’ve worked hard all their lives, and they do deserve to kind of like sit back. Even if I disagree with all the time that they sit back and take naps.

But I am in a really good headspace right now and I think that is the best part of my life right now. I am becoming more disciplined, focusing more on getting stronger building a foundation and spending time with my family and God.

I hope you are all doing well and I hope you have a wonderful beautiful weekend. Stay blessed.~~ Emma~~

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Wondering how long you have waited for me. I know you look for me. I know you refuse to let me know that you’re watching me. You watch my every move wondering what I will do next. You can’t help it, it consumes you. You want to walk away and never look back but you can’t. Don’t worry darling your secret is safe with me.

Names

Today and gone tomorrow will you remember my name.

Will you whisper it to the wind?

Will you shout it from the rooftop?

Will you know what it meant?

Will you remember how I felt?

Will it ever make you mad?

Or will you just be sad?

Time will know the pain but darling will you remember my name?

~Emmanuelle-Rose Grace~

To the One with No Name

I don’t think about you anymore. I know it’s hard for you to comprehend. I no longer care to have the same worthless conversations about my flaws and shortcomings. I am not perfect never pretended to be anything other than myself.

You are the one that pretended to be someone you aren’t. So I go to bed with my conscience completely clear. I don’t pretend to be something I am not.

I am a difficult person to love and even more difficult to understand. I am fiercely loyal and willing to move mountains for those whom I love. I am upfront and don’t lie about my feelings. I am not fake and will never try to fit into a role because someone else thinks I should. I have my own personal opinions about politics. Jesus Christ is my Lord and Saviour, I will never apologize for that.

I am completely confident in myself. I know I am constantly growing and learning from my mistakes and experiences in life. I can’t apologize for the past because it doesn’t exist for me. I know you can’t understand that and I won’t try to explain it.

I used to think maybe one day you would realize that. That I would always be there for you even in the darkest times of life. But I have mourned our relationship and have buried it.

Just as the dead cannot speak, we move on. The future is before us, will our paths cross again maybe, maybe not. Either way I hold no grudges towards you. You are in very long list of memories or times I no longer visit. Tucked away like a bookmark in a page of a book I will never read again. Always~Emma~

Surrounded

Even while sitting by people whom you love doesn’t change the fact they don’t see you. Doesn’t matter how many times you have spoken to them you are still invisible.

I am used to people being this way around me. Doesn’t change how much it still hurts. While also making me stronger for each and every single encounter that comes along.

People surround themselves with people just to stop the silence. But I find in the silence I am more comfortable. Is that good thing? I don’t really have the answer for that. I do it makes me more comfortable in who I am and not whom others expect me to be.

It’s extremely important to learn about yourself while also learning to be comfortable around others. Life is never going to go your way. So it’s best to learn how much you care and how much you don’t.

That doesn’t mean closing everyone off. We need people in our lives. We are built for community. So learning to be alone and learning to be comfortable around others in silence is also good.

One must learn that sometimes just being there can be a blessing. Never stop being the person God made you. Never stop growing and learning from the life He has given you. Smile and filled with gratitude always. ~Emma~