I am going to get my nails done today. I am attending a costume party later in the week. Today I woke up knowing I was just in one of my moods. I am grateful to God that today I get to get up, but it doesn’t change the feeling of being in one of those moods. I won’t dwell in the feeling and I will still force myself to go get my nails done. But I hate the days I wake up this moody. Just one of those days. 🤷♀️
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When you are surrounded by people that are constantly shutting you down maybe you need space from them. If they can’t accept you the way you are, they don’t deserve you. Walk away for your own mental health. Staying positive and having negative experiences isn’t good. So just walk away from them. Even if they are family. Simply learn to keep space and learn to not engage. Hopefully the situation will get better with you learning to just walk away from them.
You’re Not Alone
Sang by: Meredith Andrews
I searched for love when the night came and it closed in
I was alone, but You found me where I was hiding
And now I’ll never ever be the same
It was the sweetest voice that called my name, saying
You’re not alone for I am here
Let me wipe away your every fear
My love, I’ve never left your side
I have seen you through the darkest night
And I’m the One who’s loved you all your life
All your life
You cry yourself to sleep
‘Cause the hurt is real and the pain cuts deep
All hope seems lost with heartache your closest friend
And everyone else long gone
You’ve had to face the music on your own
But there is a sweeter song that calls you home, saying
You’re not alone for I am here
Let me wipe away your every tear
My love, I’ve never left your side
I have seen you through the darkest night
And I’m the One who’s loved you all your life
All your life
Faithful and true forever
My love will carry you
You’re not alone for I, I am here
Let me wipe away your every fear
My love, I’ve never left your side
I have seen you through the darkest night
Your darkest night
And I’m the One who’s loved you all your life
All your life
Foot check?!?
So today I went to doctor to get my foot checked. Not only is there a tear in a ligament but I also have a deep sprain in one of the ligaments that are “strongest” ones in the foot. I am going to have to do therapy and walk with the stupid foot corset till it gets better.
It’s funny since I was young I have always been accident prone. I have always blamed Satan 🤣. I always would say “damn Satan is really trying to take me out” not just take me out but with walls, floors, kitchen island, chairs, stairs, doors, sidewalks, my cat. It’s endless the ways he has tried.
I laugh about it now but in reality I have always felt that way. Still I am grateful that regardless of all the “accidents” I have had I am still alive to write this blog. Not only alive but grateful for each and every scar that I have gotten on this journey called life.
We must always be grateful for the good and bad moments in life. It’s through the bad moments we learn to cherish the good moments even more. So even though I will end up in therapy for my foot, hopefully I will learn to tolerate the pain and get through each moment smiling.
For each day we wake up is a good day. ~Emma~
Time with God
What could you do more of?
I need to spend more time fasting and praying. I know it’s something I have kind of have been thinking of doing but have put to the side. Fasting and praying is one of the best ways to feed your mind and soul of God’s grace. It gives you clarity and absolute peace. It’s like entering in the most holy place with the Creator of the universe. It’s personal and it’s time you spend with just you and God. It’s so powerful and I need to do that more.
Goodness of God: sang by CeCe Winans
I love You, Lord
Oh, Your mercy never fails me
All my days, I've been held in Your hands
From the moment that I wake up
Until I lay my head
Oh, I will sing of the goodness of God
And all my life You have been faithful
And all my life You have been so, so good
With every breath that I am able
Oh, I will sing of the goodness of God
I love Your voice
You have led me through the fire
And in darkest night You are close like no other
I've known You as a Father
I've known You as a Friend
And I have lived in the goodness of God, yeah
And all my life You have been faithful, oh
And all my life You have been so, so good
With every breath that I am able
Oh, I will sing of the goodness of God, yeah
'Cause Your goodness is running after, it's running after me
Your goodness is running after, it's running after me
With my life laid down, I'm surrendered now
I give You everything
'Cause Your goodness is running after, it's running after me, oh-oh
'Cause Your goodness is running after, it's running after me
Your goodness is running after, it's running after me
With my life laid down, I'm surrendered now
I give You everything
'Cause Your goodness is running after, it keeps running after me
And all my life You have been faithful
And all my life You have been so, so good
With every breath that I am able
Oh, I'm gonna sing of the goodness of God
I'm gonna sing, I'm gonna sing
Oh, 'cause
'Cause all my life You have been faithful
And all my life You have been so, so good
With every breath that I am able
Oh, I'm gonna sing of the goodness of God
Oh, I'm gonna sing of the goodness of God
Christmas
How do you celebrate holidays?
We usually celebrate the holidays by going all out. For Christmas I will say we start the outside decorations in the last week of September or first week of October. It’s due mainly because it starts to get cold by me very fast. Some times the fall weather can last longer but sometimes winter just blasts in. So for us starting the decorations especially hanging of lights and stuff is just better earlier. We love to making the house all colorful and filled with Christmas cheer. I know most think it’s silly but for me especially Christmas is very magical. I know it’s not the actual date of Jesus Christ birth but celebrating like it’s His birthday makes it so much more special.
Talking to God
How do you relax?
I spend each night talking to God. It helps me feel better and unburdened. I can tell Him anything, give him my worries and not be afraid. I don’t feel like I have to pretend to be someone I’m not. I don’t feel like I have to censor myself. I can just be me in front of him and he still loves me. The most relaxing thing you can find, is a place that you find peace in. My peace is found talking to God. I find that is the only time I am truly relaxed and can be my complete self. This is why it’s the last thing I do before I go to bed. I like to fall asleep feeling at peace.
Always learning
Talking to a young boy I found he was cold. Maybe smart but not very nice. Very dismissive but I can blame myself. I tend to talk too much and share too much of myself when talking to people. It’s a very big flaw I know and I am working at it. I do find that sometimes being that way helps me to not hide who I am. I am not ashamed of being myself but I do forget others don’t like talking to other people and feel it might waste their time. So in that sense I was wrong to have wasted his time. I guess we all try to think we are speaking to people but we aren’t. In the digital age we are nothing more than avatars exchanging bits of information. So in that aspect you really never actually speak to the person like if you were to speak to them in real life. It was an interesting experience and it’s not his fault, it’s no one’s fault. We have become so separated yet are so close just by the tap of the screen but still worlds away from one another. Another day still grateful for another lesson learned.
Who Am I to Stand in Your Way
Song by: Chester See
Forgive me
I may have said things
That aren’t exactly
The way that I feel
I told you I’d be strong
I said that I’d moved on
But it doesn’t take long
To realize
That I’m not over you
But if there is somebody that makes you feel happy
Tends to your heart in the ways I’d been lacking
Then who am I who am I to stand in your way…
To stand in your way…
To stand in your way…
I won’t stand in your way…
I know it sounds crazy
But I need you to trust me
If it’s how it must be
Then I’ll fade away
When it finally feels true
Then do what you have to
‘Cause I’ll never blame you
For not choosing me
But I’m not over you
But If there is somebody that makes you feel happy
Tends to your heart in the ways I’d been lacking
Then who am I who am I to stand in your way
That I feel is no longer your burden
If there is someone that can make you feel perfect
Then who am I who am I to stand in your way…
To stand in your way…
To stand in your way…
I won’t stand in your way…
Down the road someone will ask me if I know you
I’ll pause for a moment I’ll smile and say that I used… to
If there is somebody that makes you feel happy
Tends to your heart in the ways I’d been lacking
Then who am I who am I to stand in your way
That I feel is no longer your burden
If there is someone that can make you feel perfect
Then who am I who am I to stand in your way…
To stand in your way…
To stand in your way…
I won’t stand in your way…
I won’t stand in your way
I won’t stand in your way
Emma the Mizfit 