I feel so stupid when we talk. Not because I can’t talk to you but because you make me feel dumb. You say I spin in circles and you are right. I try so hard not to but I am trying to fix that and make it right. I hate the feeling of disappointment I hear in your voice. I hate feeling like no matter what I do you I will never be your choice. I hate that I care. I hate that I become jealous for reasons I can’t explain. I hate that when I talk to you I feel safe. I hate that when I say something you get so mad. I especially hate when you make me laugh. I want to stay mad but can’t. I want to hate you but I can’t. I hate to care and think of you all the time. I know you don’t have feelings but that doesn’t change mine. Lost in the deep sea of reflection. Darkness consuming my mind. Trying to escape in the incoming flood. Lost in the sea of your non existent callous heart. ~Emma~
Tag: words
Memories
What would you do if you lost all your possessions?
It’s nice to keep your most treasured possessions, but nothing lasts. In a world where we will all face death one day, our only true possession is our memories. The love we have and the love we shared with others. So for myself the only thing I would hate to lose is my memories.
What do I value?
What’s the trait you value most about yourself?
I am myself all the time, I think it’s the most valuable trait. It also comes with a downside. Everyone always talks about how they want someone who is themselves and not trying to be anyone else. But the cold hard truth is men like to buy the lie. Girls that are lying to them, using them, girls that will have sex with them on the first night. They say they have standards but the truth is they don’t. A pretty face with a hot body and that’s it, they are all after you. Five month later they wonder why the relationship didn’t work. Turns out she was a nasty bit*h that was only using you for whatever she wanted. I am who I am and only grow to be a better version of myself. I am completely unpredictable, and even chaotic at times but always myself.
Best brand I associate with.
What brands do you associate with?
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Energy
What things give you energy?
Working out gives me energy, going through one of my bipolar highs gives me a lot of energy. Maybe sometimes a little too much energy it can be overwhelming for others. But two things that give me a lot of energy.
Imposible Task
What’s your all-time favorite album?
There is so much music I love I could never just choose one album as my all-time favorite. That is like picking your all-time favorite food. It is extremely hard to just choose one.
Annoying things
One of the most annoying things is when someone ask you a question and you answer them. Immediately they turn into a “well you don’t want to teach me…
Annoying things
Mom
Mom you are the light in my world You are the stone that keeps me grounded You are my lighthouse on a stormy night on the sea You are stars and moon …
Mom
Be careful what you throw away…
Don’t throw away something you will miss. Once it realizes it’s no longer needed, it will never belong to you again.
Playing and writing
Which activities make you lose track of time?
When I write my poems or short stories I completely get lost. In those moments I truly find peace. Even though I maybe lost in a thought, it feels good to get lost and turn my feelings into words. the only other time I find that comfort is when I am farming. In one of the games I play, farming just helps to take away the thoughts. So when I feel overwhelmed with emotions or thoughts I farm. Time slips away as so do the things that worried me.
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