What everyone should know

What’s something you believe everyone should know.

Everyone should know that everything you wish for, you probably won’t get. Everything you work hard for, you probably will never have. Everything you sacrificed for, probably won’t bring you happiness. Everything you lost in the process is going to make you stronger. Every time you fail, you will be more determined to succeed. Every single time you fall, you will get back up. Because life isn’t easy so keep going no matter how difficult. In the end only the strong survive the journey.

Child like views

What does it mean to be a kid at heart?

To view the world in a way a child would. Maybe a little bit naive, maybe a little bit more of a delusional happier way of seeing the world view. That doesn’t mean not seeing the darkness or evil in the world. But also keeping hope that things will change in a more positive direction or eventually workout to a better place than before. Yesterday I was asked if I was granted 3 wishes, I think having said the 3 things I would wish for are very childlike at heart. It probably makes me more naive than others but I have seen enough darkness in my own life that I would rather try to see some beauty or see the world the way a child does which is with endless possibilities.

3 Wishes

You have three magic genie wishes, what are you asking for?

World peace, for Jesus Christ to come already, and last but not least that everyone gets to make it to heaven. I know to some that might sound silly but there is reason to my madness. One money will not matter if we are always in wars and fighting each other. Eventually we all be poor trying to survive in a world filled with hate. I want Jesus Christ to come back because He promised He would. I don’t see a positive future much longer. I would like Him to come soon. Last but not least I would like everyone to make to heaven. I know it’s possible technically, but I also know it is written in the Word of God that one must believe in God and accept Jesus Christ. I do hope everyone takes that chance. It might sound ridiculous and extremely naive but I would rather see the ugliness in the world with sunshine and lots of rainbows. For after every storm there is always a rainbow even if you can’t see it.

It’s hard

What do you do when you are searching for yourself? Trying to become the best version of yourself. Meanwhile trying to find who that person truly is. I became lost long ago. Years went by and now finally I am becoming a better version of myself. Disciplining myself, finding ways to become more independent and more confident in everything I do. For so long, I realized I could not truly be in a relationship as an adult, because I still acted like a child. It’s only through the last few years and especially the last few months that I realize that in order to become a better version of myself, I needed to set goals. I needed to discipline myself. I needed to learn or should I say relearn better coping skills, how to be able to communicate properly with others and not try to fall into old patterns. Patterns that were not healthy but instead create new healthier habits. Create healthier coping skills. Learning to communicate my own feelings, my own thoughts, without getting angry or hurt. While also taking into consideration that not everything will go my way. There are just some things that I just need to let go and learn to accept them as nothing more than fleeting memories, fleeting moments, with fleeting people. Friendships live and friendships die. Time will tell but in the end it is I that will be stronger. Which makes all the pain worth all the lessons I needed to learn to grow. It’s hard I won’t pretend it will be easy. Nothing worth having is ever easy.

Walking

What is your favorite form of physical exercise?

I love speed walking while listening to jams. It’s probably my favorite because you are outside in the outdoors, listening to music and just not thinking of anything but being inside the moment. Not to mention when you are outside you just feel good especially in the fall and spring, I even love the winter season. But that’s just me maybe not for everyone else.

Drive by The Cars

Who’s gonna tell you when
It’s too late?

Who’s gonna tell you things
Aren’t so great?

You can’t go on, thinking
Nothing’s wrong, oh no
Who’s gonna drive you home
Tonight?

Who’s gonna pick you up
When you fall?

Who’s gonna hang it up
When you call?

Who’s gonna pay attention
To your dreams?

Yeah who’s gonna plug their ears
When you scream?

You can’t go on, thinking
Nothing’s wrong, oh no
Who’s gonna drive you home
Tonight?

(Bye, bye, bye)

(Bye, bye, bye)
(Bye, bye, bye)
(Bye, bye, bye)

Who’s gonna hold you down
When you shake?

Who’s gonna come around
When you break?

You can’t go on, thinking
Nothing’s wrong, oh no
Who’s gonna drive you home
Tonight?

Oh, you know you can’t go on, thinking
Nothing’s wrong
Who’s gonna drive you home
Tonight?

Becoming the best version of myself

What have you been working on?

I have been working on myself. Trying to learn from my mistakes. Trying to live a healthy lifestyle. Trying to learn how to communicate better. Trying to push myself out of own comfort zones. Learning new coping techniques to try and not keep myself back. Always trying to keep growing to become a version of myself than I was yesterday. Sounds silly I know but it’s the truth. The only way I can find my place in this life is to find myself. For so long I had no idea who I was and I think finally, I am coming to understand who I am and who I want to be. Because there is a difference, I don’t just want to be myself I want to be the best version of myself.

Living blissfully

What’s something most people don’t know about you?

What I really am facing each and every single day. They think they know they think they understand but the truth is they have no idea. I won’t share it because it’s pointless because they will never understand nor would they ever truly care to understand. I have family that think they know what I go through they think that. Truth is they don’t and I won’t shatter the illusion they have of me. Let them think what they want. Let them believe what they want. No matter what I do I will never live up to the expectations they have of me. So it’s better to let them live in ignorance because ignorance is bliss and they would rather live there than in reality.