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Not really

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Describe a man who has positively impacted your life.

Well if it has to be someone that I have never met per as without a spiritual connection it would have to be Jesus Christ. He gives me the direction I must go. Fills my heart when I am sad and hopeless. He gives me hope that no matter how dark times maybe He will always be by my side. As for a man not counting Jesus Christ, a few have come and gone that have left impressions and lessons I have learned from them. But to be honest I have never met anyone other than Jesus that has positively influenced my life. Again don’t get me wrong few have come and helped me to grow into a better person. But if I weigh that against how they made me feel or the way the spoke to me or treated me, it would be a hard not enough to justify them being in my life at all.

Happy Thanksgiving

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Happy Thanksgiving. Remember to be grateful for everything in your life even the hard times. Everything has a season and a grateful heart is one filled with joy and the love of God. Hope you all have a blessed one.

Proudest moment

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What are you most proud of in your life?

The day I got baptized and gave my soul to God. It was the best thing I have ever done and the only thing that made me feel absolutely powerful. He not only helped me that day, He also has given me the strength to keep going every single day. No matter the struggle He gives me the strength.

Quiet Friday

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This week has not been a good week. With the loss of my uncle at the start of the week to just a lot going on my mind. Its just been everywhere is pretty hard to explain. It’s hard to find anything positive when we look at our world. So tonight I ask for you to take time for some self care. I don’t care if it’s sitting in a room reading a book, listening to some peaceful music while playing games, just simply take time to calm your mind. It can be extremely easy to fall into bad habits when we lose focus on our goals. It’s easy to become super depressed when there is a loss. You question how fragile life is and why do we have to endure such pain? These are questions we might never find answers to but try to find some sort of peace in this moment. For tomorrow we are not guaranteed to wake up and tell the ones we love that we did love them. So tell them you love them and look in the mirror and say you are loved. You might not believe it, you might find you will never find love. But we can change our mind the more you repeat it, you will change your perspective. Have a beautiful Friday night. May the peace of God fill your hearts. I know it’s not easy but life was never supposed to be easy. Be grateful for this moment and for even being able to read this post. Many blessings to you all. ~Emma~

Till we meet again

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Today my uncle passed away surrounded by his loved ones. He was not a perfect man, did many wrong things but the man loved God. His passion for loving The Lord was extraordinary. I didn’t always agree in a lot of his ways, but there is no doubt He loved God and that I respected. He will be missed by all of us. But one day we all be in heaven together again. Laughing and embracing each other reminiscing of a time that past. Though tears sting my eyes my heart is filled with joy. For the pain will subside but the love will be there forever with us. Till we meet again, may God be with you till we meet again. ~Emma~

I am the chaos and the chaos is me….

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How does one ever truly learn to treat others than not by the people around them? How can a girl learn how a man is to treat her if the men around her weren’t strong or a good example? How can she learn what love looks like when she doesn’t know? Questions I have asked myself a dozen times. I have never truly found love or been loved by a man because I don’t know what that feels like. Though I might not have the love of a father that showed me how to love and be loved, my mother showed me a different kind of love. It’s weird because my father has always provided for us but has never truly been there, if that makes any sense. I guess it’s why I have never truly found a man to love me. It’s because I have never seen a strong relationship around me. With that said my mother has shown me love beyond words. But I will save that for Mother’s Day. But today my blog is about not having a strong man to show me how love is suppose to be like. Am I doomed to never know what love is? I have given my heart to men that have never deserved my heart. But was I truly in love if I have never known what love was? Love is more than butterflies in your stomach or feeling happy to see someone. It’s a connection, more than just a connection it’s respect, it’s unconditional, and it’s something worth fighting for I assume. Maybe not knowing how to love is a good thing. A chaotic soul as myself will surely find it easier being alone when you feel no one can truly hold you down. It’s easy to fall in and out of love with men I will never truly give my heart to. It’s easy to love someone far away like on the other side of the country because you will never be with them. Falling in love with their soul is easy but it’s truly never real. It’s easy to feel like it is real for the time because it does feel real but as time moves you know it is not real. In the end you learn it was just a connection you had with someone but never truly loved them. So on this Friday night I wonder will I ever fall in love or learn what that feels like. I guess only time will tell for as the night passes, my mind wanders into the chaos of stars in the sky. As the warm temperatures are high I know one day all my questions will be answered. But on this day, this night I sit in the quiet peace of the chaotic soothing sound of silence. Have a blessed weekend my friends. ~Emma~

Christmas

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What is your favorite holiday? Why is it your favorite?

Christmas is my favorite holiday. I know it’s not the birth day of his actual birth but just the fact that each year we get to celebrate his birth makes me happy. To sit back and remember that the King of kings came to be with His people. It’s such a beautiful reason to be happy. In a world filled with such darkness I hold onto that. A king giving himself for everyone. Maybe if more ppl believed that maybe our world wouldn’t look so dark. it’s why I love celebrating the Christmas season because it’s the birth of Jesus Christ My King.

Never lose hope

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As each day goes by, I am reminded that people are not good. I try to think the good will eventually win I mean I believe in God, so I do believe that good will eventually win. But I also see the darkness that is spreading around. I see it seeping into the souls of people, pettiness, the evil thoughts that they just become. I don’t doubt God I don’t doubt that one day this will all end. It’s impossible for us to continue to walk in this darkness. I do have to say that I am disheartened by the reality of the people that I see in the world. It breaks my heart to see a generation growing up, looking at this future that is just so grim. I do hope that the future is better. I do hope tomorrow is better. I do hope and I will continue to hope that each day gets better. It’s weird when I was young I used to not think so much. As an adult, you’re constantly thinking of everything, thinking of life, thinking the choices you’ve made, thinking of just every single thing. I was once called a romantic because I believe in happy endings. I guess I am the kind of person that does believe that good does prevail at the end of the day, even if that’s not what happens in reality. I think if we lose that hope the grim reality of darkness takes a hold of us and we become the monsters that are running the earth now. I hope tomorrow is a beautiful day not just for you, but also for me. I hope each new day gets better for all of us, and I hope we never lose that hope. Have a blessed night. ~Emma~

Silver Lining

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I have been in such a bad mood. I have tried to get out of it unfortunately it’s been holding on to me. I went for my usual long walk with my sister to see if I could shake it. 2miles later still felt like crap. It does seem to happen around a certain time of the month which I am sure that ties into it. I try to be a positive force for others that might be going through the same but unfortunately even I can’t be that positive force all the time. I just wanted to share that even though I cannot be that positive force all the time there are people around me that try to be when they know I am not in a good place. So even though I am still in a very negative mood. I hope your day is filled with people that help you get into a better mind set. It’s not easy nothing in life is but never give up. Not every day is filled with sunshine and rainbows but each day of life is a new day to find hope and a silver lining. May your day be filled with both. ~Emma~

Life lessons

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This week has been extremely hard and long. Super busy working and still somehow getting sucked into drama that just shouldn’t include me. As I sit on this Sabbath in a state of rest reminding myself that God only allows what we can handle. We forget that we are made stronger by each and every single event in our life. I know it might seem like a struggle, it sure as hell does feel that way for me. But we must never give up. We must keep fighting. So today I ask you to take time for yourself. Take time to reflect, to mediate, to pray, to speak to God, be one with yourself. Allow healing to come into you and allow God’s power to strengthen you to keep fighting. Because you are loved and you are not alone. Have a beautiful blessed day. ~Emma~