Moody girl

I woke up this morning in such a mood. As I went through the day I felt it was just progressively getting worse. As I sit here at 4:15 pm in the afternoon I can honestly say it’s gotten a lot better. Even earlier when I made my video for the day I said I wasn’t in a good mood. It was just one of those moody days.

I still woke up grateful and thanked God for the new day. Even after slamming my wrist into a window causing my wrist to swell up and see stars. I was able to get the internet to finally work with the help of the technician that came to the house. He helped me with hooking up my Mac book and everything. It was such a help on a day that was just not going well.

Even just chatting with the guy was helpful we spoke about Japan and how I should definitely go visit. 😂

So I say again just because your day might start out moody or crappy, be grateful. It is through the grateful heart that God changed my day.

I even was yelling at God this afternoon, after slamming my wrist. I was like oh it’s pick on Emma today. lol it was a joke and I really didn’t think it was going to change anything and yet here I am grateful for the better mood.

I think sometimes letting out your frustrations out to God as if He is there with you, even if you think He might not be listening, you find out soon enough He is always listening. So have a little faith and just chat with Him. Tell Him your frustrations, tell Him how you feel, let Him know everything and you might be surprised when He does answer.

I hope everyone has a beautiful blessed day.

What do I value?

What’s the trait you value most about yourself?

I am myself all the time, I think it’s the most valuable trait. It also comes with a downside. Everyone always talks about how they want someone who is themselves and not trying to be anyone else. But the cold hard truth is men like to buy the lie. Girls that are lying to them, using them, girls that will have sex with them on the first night. They say they have standards but the truth is they don’t. A pretty face with a hot body and that’s it, they are all after you. Five month later they wonder why the relationship didn’t work. Turns out she was a nasty bit*h that was only using you for whatever she wanted. I am who I am and only grow to be a better version of myself. I am completely unpredictable, and even chaotic at times but always myself.

Broken Trust : written by Emmanuelle-Rose Grace

Black arrows go piercing through the night

Screaming in agony as blood pours out her mouth

The shots piercing close to the heart

Hiding in the shadows she tries to run

He points the arrows to hit again

With disgust in his eyes

Tears fall as she cries

Pleading and begging for her life

He leans back with his bow

Shoots her right through the leg

She falls to the ground

No expression as he walks down

The death of her merely an inconvenience he tries to say

Abandoned and laying in a pool of blood

Her eyes filled with suffering the unbearable pain

She looks to the star filled sky as her breathing starts to fade

Looking down at her

He bends down to whisper words for her to hear

“You were never worthy of being here with me”

He reaches and grabs one more arrow

His hand sweeps her tear filled face

He sticks the arrow deep within her heart

Tear stained cheeks as life leaves her behind

With pity he looks back his head facing down

Sorry for the chaos of putting her down

Sorrow sweeps into his heart

The smell of her scent

The way she smiled

The way she laughed

The way she felt in his arms

The memories rush to him like hitting a brick wall

But as cold as ice he simply pushes them away

He no longer can afford to care

No one will get that close he vows to the sky

She is the last one to ever make him feel alive

Consumed by death he walks away

Never to return to the way of light

He walks in the darkness never to see the day

For the light he once held is gone and dead

No longer left to shine in his world

Walking back he tries to forget her face

But he looks back one more time and turns away.