David

If you could meet a historical figure, who would it be and why?

There’s so many people like that are historical figures that I would love to meet of course Jesus Christ, King David, King Solomon, Moses. But if I was to look outside of the Bible maybe it would be Cleopatra, William Shakespeare, Beethoven, maybe even Monet. Also, I would love to have met Elvis Presley. So out of that list who would it be and why, I think I would go king David.

King David was obviously a king that suffered and struggled with his love for God. His love for God was so deep that it was ingrained in him and he fought to be a good king, but also fell into doing bad things. But it never changed his admiration and love for God.

As a fellow Christian and fellow sinner, I find David as the most interesting and relatable person in the whole Bible. He represents something that’s bigger than what we understand and it’s something I can relate to in my own life.

I love God. God is my center. He is my foundation without him, I am nothing and though I am a flawed individual. God has given me this love in me that I just surrender everything. I am to him it’s beautiful and that is why I would choose David. Because again, even though David is flawed, he loved God so much that Jesus Christ refers to him as the one after my own heart in the New Testament. That is something that I strive for to be the one after Jesus Christ’s own heart.

When you used to…

I asked last year around September for guidance from God. My prayer is what one of the books I read would be called “dangerous prayers”.

It’s not dangerous prayers that cause any danger. But it’s more along the line praying for something and not knowing how much time it will take or what you will lose in the process. Learning that it’s not going to be given in your time nor the way you want it.

A lot of Christians don’t really believe in dangerous prayers I am one of the ones that has seen dangerous prayers answered over and over again..

Again, dangerous prayers are not causing danger or even asking for some sort of dangerous activity to happen. I guess you can say it’s more of be careful what you’re praying for because you might actually get what you prayed for.

So like I said last September 2023 I prayed for God to guide me closer to him no matter what. In the prayer, I asked God if there is anything in my life that is distracting me or pulling me away from you I want it removed. I don’t care what I lose or the pain caused I want to be closer to You oh Lord.

So a couple months go by and I started seeing people that I was close to just kind of like disappear. So it started with a person I was close to. We spoke daily a lot and as time went on, I started to see a shift and at first I wanted to ignore it pretend like that’s not what’s going on, but then I started to see the distance and it was clear.

After we stop speaking and months went by earlier this year, I started to realize it was God pulling that person out of my life. The reason that God pulled that person out of my life was because that person was a distraction. Someone might say that that’s cruel to say. But for me, my goal has always been to get closer to God. My life mission has always been to be one of God‘s Warriors.

So here we are in November 2024, a year has passed and I haven’t spoken to this person in a good 10 or 11 months. Do I miss the person? Yeah sometimes. But I have also learned to mourn the relationship and move on.

Just today another thing that I loved doing became meh. I wasn’t excited I wasn’t thrilled to be doing it. I just felt nothing. One must be prepared that when you ask for something and you ask obstacles or anything to be removed, they will be removed. Your love for them will be taken away. Your desire to be filled with them will be destroyed if that’s what you asked for.

There are other things that have changed. My love for a lot of things have changed. I spend more time in prayer, more time writing, more time in self-reflection, learning more about myself, and learning to grow from my past mistakes.

It is in this waiting season that I have learned that God has stripped away a lot of distractions from my life. Things that I held onto that I didn’t even think were distractions, but they were. They were distractions from me, developing a relationship with God and for me developing into a better individual for myself, for my family, for society, and for God.

It is in this waiting season that I have learned to let go of things that don’t matter. I have learned to forgive those that hurt me in the past. I have learned that the most important thing in life is to cherish each and every single moment you are alive.

I have learned to embrace each and every single moment. Whether it’s spending a Sunday cleaning with my niece, nephew, my sister, my mom, my dad and my brother, in the garage hanging up Christmas lights. Whether it’s spending Sabbath with my family and drinking cappuccinos with the new Nespresso machine. It’s in those little moments that we’re making memories that will last a lifetime. It’s in those moments that we are truly living life.

I don’t know what tomorrow might bring but I definitely know. I trust God to bring me through tomorrow.

So has God answered my dangerous prayer? The answer to that is yes and no. He is definitely answering the prayer. I just haven’t gotten to the end yet.

I did ask for more than just becoming closer to God. That was my main prayer and still my main objective. But there’s one little part of that prayer that I’m waiting for. I have constantly waited, and God has referred to this moment as the waiting season.

Sometimes we become impatient during the waiting season, but we have to remember that when you ask for something from God he’s going to deliver. Whether it’s through a dangerous prayer like I said before or just a prayer he will answer.

I know a lot of people don’t believe in dangerous prayers. But I can tell you based on my own history dangerous prayers are real just be careful and be ready for the consequences of asking such prayers. It’s all about trust baby. It’s all about trust and having faith in Jesus Christ to answer your prayer.

Remember, God always answers in his time not our own. 

I hope this is a lesson for you to learn and I hope you have a wonderful, beautiful blessed week. Love always, Emma. 

Absolutely!!!

Do you trust your instincts?

I absolutely trust my instincts without a doubt. I was one that used to doubt myself and my own instincts. But as I got older and more aware of how people behave it became extremely clear.

We all meet people the kind of people that don’t sit right with us. It’s not judging them without knowing them or anything like that. It’s more like something inside you is telling you, something about this person gives off this strange vibe.

We write it off as being paranoid or just thinking about it too much. Later on we find out boom the person wasn’t trust worthy, and completely backstabbed you.

I used to a be a firm believer give everyone a chance. If I am kind and loving they will be the same. Instead I lost a lot of time on people that didn’t deserve to be in my life. I even lost myself for a time, chasing after a bunch of losers I thought were friends. They weren’t friends, they were users.

You know the kind of people that use you for a time and then turn their back on you like if you meant nothing.

That is because you meant nothing to them. You were replaced with someone else. People like this don’t deserve to be in your life. Even if they have changed and you meet again wish them luck and move on.

I feel strongly that our basic instincts are God given and Him speaking to us. But we are so used to thinking that can’t be true. I strongly believe and feel that your instincts turn out right because it was God warning you. So instead of not listening to our instincts we need to learn to trust them. Because there is a reason God gave us this gift. Learn to use it to protect yourself.

I have learned many lessons the older I got and the first lesson was always trust my instincts. Because every single time it has been right. Hope you all have a beautiful day.

The Twins

The twins came by, being around them always makes me happy. I will never understand how women can say they will be happy without having kids. I mean I know I have no choice in the matter and many women face that reality every day. But for those that actively seek to not have kids I will never understand.

I remember when the twins were born what it was like holding them. Having them napping on top of me was the best feeling in the world. Even watching them grow up is a joy. When they took their first steps to talking, they are some of the best memories I have.

For me it’s even better because I don’t remember my past. So when the twins were born it was like the first time I got to hold my niece or nephew. Now that isn’t true because I have an older niece but the truth is I don’t remember the memories with her.

Though I don’t remember them I know she was extremely important to me. I have heard stories of how close we were but the illness took that all from me.

Being with the twins even for an hour or two reminds me each day is precious. We may never get another chance to enjoy being around the ones we love. Life is extremely short and goes by so fast. The best moments are just being able to enjoy sharing silly moments with each other.

Even if that’s trying on different wigs or playing GTA, for me those are the best moments. ~Emma~

I am good!

What alternative career paths have you considered or are interested in?

I am a writer, dog sitter and content creator. So I think I have chosen my alternative career. I once worked in the business world and now I get to do what I want. I don’t think there is anything better than that.

One of those days

I am going to get my nails done today. I am attending a costume party later in the week. Today I woke up knowing I was just in one of my moods. I am grateful to God that today I get to get up, but it doesn’t change the feeling of being in one of those moods. I won’t dwell in the feeling and I will still force myself to go get my nails done. But I hate the days I wake up this moody. Just one of those days. 🤷‍♀️

You’re Not Alone

Sang by: Meredith Andrews

I searched for love when the night came and it closed in

I was alone, but You found me where I was hiding

And now I’ll never ever be the same

It was the sweetest voice that called my name, saying

You’re not alone for I am here

Let me wipe away your every fear

My love, I’ve never left your side

I have seen you through the darkest night

And I’m the One who’s loved you all your life

All your life

You cry yourself to sleep

‘Cause the hurt is real and the pain cuts deep

All hope seems lost with heartache your closest friend

And everyone else long gone

You’ve had to face the music on your own

But there is a sweeter song that calls you home, saying

You’re not alone for I am here

Let me wipe away your every tear

My love, I’ve never left your side

I have seen you through the darkest night

And I’m the One who’s loved you all your life

All your life

Faithful and true forever

My love will carry you

You’re not alone for I, I am here

Let me wipe away your every fear

My love, I’ve never left your side

I have seen you through the darkest night

Your darkest night

And I’m the One who’s loved you all your life

All your life

Foot check?!?

So today I went to doctor to get my foot checked. Not only is there a tear in a ligament but I also have a deep sprain in one of the ligaments that are “strongest” ones in the foot. I am going to have to do therapy and walk with the stupid foot corset till it gets better. 

It’s funny since I was young I have always been accident prone. I have always blamed Satan 🤣. I always would say “damn Satan is really trying to take me out” not just take me out but with walls, floors, kitchen island, chairs, stairs, doors, sidewalks, my cat. It’s endless the ways he has tried. 

I laugh about it now but in reality I have always felt that way. Still I am grateful that regardless of all the “accidents” I have had I am still alive to write this blog. Not only alive but grateful for each and every scar that I have gotten on this journey called life. 

We must always be grateful for the good and bad moments in life. It’s through the bad moments we learn to cherish the good moments even more. So even though I will end up in therapy for my foot, hopefully I will learn to tolerate the pain and get through each moment smiling. 

For each day we wake up is a good day.  ~Emma~ 

Goodness of God: sang by CeCe Winans

I love You, Lord
Oh, Your mercy never fails me
All my days, I've been held in Your hands
From the moment that I wake up
Until I lay my head
Oh, I will sing of the goodness of God

And all my life You have been faithful
And all my life You have been so, so good
With every breath that I am able
Oh, I will sing of the goodness of God

I love Your voice
You have led me through the fire
And in darkest night You are close like no other
I've known You as a Father
I've known You as a Friend
And I have lived in the goodness of God, yeah

And all my life You have been faithful, oh
And all my life You have been so, so good
With every breath that I am able
Oh, I will sing of the goodness of God, yeah

'Cause Your goodness is running after, it's running after me
Your goodness is running after, it's running after me
With my life laid down, I'm surrendered now
I give You everything
'Cause Your goodness is running after, it's running after me, oh-oh
'Cause Your goodness is running after, it's running after me
Your goodness is running after, it's running after me
With my life laid down, I'm surrendered now
I give You everything
'Cause Your goodness is running after, it keeps running after me

And all my life You have been faithful
And all my life You have been so, so good
With every breath that I am able
Oh, I'm gonna sing of the goodness of God
I'm gonna sing, I'm gonna sing
Oh, 'cause
'Cause all my life You have been faithful
And all my life You have been so, so good
With every breath that I am able
Oh, I'm gonna sing of the goodness of God
Oh, I'm gonna sing of the goodness of God

Talking to God

How do you relax?

I spend each night talking to God. It helps me feel better and unburdened. I can tell Him anything, give him my worries and not be afraid. I don’t feel like I have to pretend to be someone I’m not. I don’t feel like I have to censor myself. I can just be me in front of him and he still loves me. The most relaxing thing you can find, is a place that you find peace in. My peace is found talking to God. I find that is the only time I am truly relaxed and can be my complete self. This is why it’s the last thing I do before I go to bed. I like to fall asleep feeling at peace.