I know I am loving person. I try and go out of my way to be a kind individual. I know we each are fighting our own internal battle. Sometimes I even find myself going down the rabbit hole of why do we have to go through all this. The mundane things in life, getting up each morning, working all day, eating, bathing and heading to bed to sleep. Why do we have to do all these things? I know how easy it is to ask why, but you won’t get an answer. Many try to tell you what to do or how to feel, these are things that I think pretty much everyone has asked. Honestly I don’t think anyone knows the real answer. I guess today I am feeling a little curious to find out what others think. I know I can’t be the only one that feels that way. Or even questioning why do we have to continue doing the same exact things daily. But I guess these are things we will not know. Either way I hope you have a blessed day. ~Emma~
Tag: sunshine
Quiet Friday
This week has not been a good week. With the loss of my uncle at the start of the week to just a lot going on my mind. Its just been everywhere is pretty hard to explain. It’s hard to find anything positive when we look at our world. So tonight I ask for you to take time for some self care. I don’t care if it’s sitting in a room reading a book, listening to some peaceful music while playing games, just simply take time to calm your mind. It can be extremely easy to fall into bad habits when we lose focus on our goals. It’s easy to become super depressed when there is a loss. You question how fragile life is and why do we have to endure such pain? These are questions we might never find answers to but try to find some sort of peace in this moment. For tomorrow we are not guaranteed to wake up and tell the ones we love that we did love them. So tell them you love them and look in the mirror and say you are loved. You might not believe it, you might find you will never find love. But we can change our mind the more you repeat it, you will change your perspective. Have a beautiful Friday night. May the peace of God fill your hearts. I know it’s not easy but life was never supposed to be easy. Be grateful for this moment and for even being able to read this post. Many blessings to you all. ~Emma~
Poetry
What is the legacy you want to leave behind?
Words from my poetry that leave a lasting effect on anyone that reads them.
Till we meet again
Today my uncle passed away surrounded by his loved ones. He was not a perfect man, did many wrong things but the man loved God. His passion for loving The Lord was extraordinary. I didn’t always agree in a lot of his ways, but there is no doubt He loved God and that I respected. He will be missed by all of us. But one day we all be in heaven together again. Laughing and embracing each other reminiscing of a time that past. Though tears sting my eyes my heart is filled with joy. For the pain will subside but the love will be there forever with us. Till we meet again, may God be with you till we meet again. ~Emma~
Happy Mother’s Day
There are many things that be grateful for. On Friday I spoke about not knowing the love of man or knowing how to love in a relationship with a man. With that all said my mom is a superhero. My mother has shown me unconditional love. She has shown me sacrifice, she has taught me the unconditional love that only a mother can give. She has shown me that no matter how much I am wrong or mess up, she will always love me. She has shown me what it is to give your heart and never get what you give in return. A mother’s love is unlike any other love. It is unchanging, it is stronger than anything in life. A mother is one that is willing to give everything to her child and only wants the best for her child. My mother is the best example of what a mom truly is. Though she might disagree with a lot of my life choices, she has always supported me. Mom, I might not say it enough but you are truly an inspiration and I hope I can be half of the amazing woman you are. You are my superhero and you are my rock. Words can never express how much I love you and how much you are appreciated. Always ~Emma~
Happy Mother’s Day to all you amazing Mom’s out there. I hope you have a beautiful blessed day.
I am the chaos and the chaos is me….
How does one ever truly learn to treat others than not by the people around them? How can a girl learn how a man is to treat her if the men around her weren’t strong or a good example? How can she learn what love looks like when she doesn’t know? Questions I have asked myself a dozen times. I have never truly found love or been loved by a man because I don’t know what that feels like. Though I might not have the love of a father that showed me how to love and be loved, my mother showed me a different kind of love. It’s weird because my father has always provided for us but has never truly been there, if that makes any sense. I guess it’s why I have never truly found a man to love me. It’s because I have never seen a strong relationship around me. With that said my mother has shown me love beyond words. But I will save that for Mother’s Day. But today my blog is about not having a strong man to show me how love is suppose to be like. Am I doomed to never know what love is? I have given my heart to men that have never deserved my heart. But was I truly in love if I have never known what love was? Love is more than butterflies in your stomach or feeling happy to see someone. It’s a connection, more than just a connection it’s respect, it’s unconditional, and it’s something worth fighting for I assume. Maybe not knowing how to love is a good thing. A chaotic soul as myself will surely find it easier being alone when you feel no one can truly hold you down. It’s easy to fall in and out of love with men I will never truly give my heart to. It’s easy to love someone far away like on the other side of the country because you will never be with them. Falling in love with their soul is easy but it’s truly never real. It’s easy to feel like it is real for the time because it does feel real but as time moves you know it is not real. In the end you learn it was just a connection you had with someone but never truly loved them. So on this Friday night I wonder will I ever fall in love or learn what that feels like. I guess only time will tell for as the night passes, my mind wanders into the chaos of stars in the sky. As the warm temperatures are high I know one day all my questions will be answered. But on this day, this night I sit in the quiet peace of the chaotic soothing sound of silence. Have a blessed weekend my friends. ~Emma~
Change how you see the world.
Woke up this morning feeling good. Grateful to be alive and grateful for sleeping all night. It is extremely important that we are always grateful and practice gratitude. Life is hard it isn’t easy. Each day can be extremely tough on our minds, hearts and soul. But we must also learn to be grateful for the small things in life that bring us joy. The practice of gratitude is something that is small but can change how we see our world. Learning to focus our energy on something as little as being grateful for what we have and not we don’t have changes us. It changes our perspective on how we see the world and how we see our life. I hope today you have a beautiful blessed day. Stay strong you are not alone. ~Emma~
Start the day in a positive direction
Today is a new day so begin the week with a smile and a positive attitude. No matter how hard life may seem right now you aren’t alone. Remember you are loved. I know things may get dark and I know how it feels to be so broken over things you can’t change. You can change how you react. Stay focused on a positive goal and keep reaching for it. Don’t give up. May this week being you many blessings. ~Emma~
When is the last time you took a risk? How did it work out?
A few weeks ago I told someone I liked them. They wanted to remain friends. I don’t regret it at all we are still friends and we can still just chat for hours. I would regret never telling them how I felt. I would rather feel pain for a minute than live with regret my whole life. Our life on this earth is too short to live with a mountain of regret. So even if it might cause you pain I say take the risk, you will never know how the story might go if you never try.
Silver Lining
I have been in such a bad mood. I have tried to get out of it unfortunately it’s been holding on to me. I went for my usual long walk with my sister to see if I could shake it. 2miles later still felt like crap. It does seem to happen around a certain time of the month which I am sure that ties into it. I try to be a positive force for others that might be going through the same but unfortunately even I can’t be that positive force all the time. I just wanted to share that even though I cannot be that positive force all the time there are people around me that try to be when they know I am not in a good place. So even though I am still in a very negative mood. I hope your day is filled with people that help you get into a better mind set. It’s not easy nothing in life is but never give up. Not every day is filled with sunshine and rainbows but each day of life is a new day to find hope and a silver lining. May your day be filled with both. ~Emma~
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