Shopping

Describe a random encounter with a stranger that stuck out positively to you.

I was shopping for furniture one time. I remember talking to the sales guy. He was extremely polite of course he needs to make a sale. Interesting fact when I made the purchase as he is entering my name in the computer. He is shocked at my name, he asks about my name and about me. Come to find out he fell in love with my name and had no idea where it came from or its origins. He heard the name before but never knew what it meant. Of course I don’t share that story with many for they have no clue what or why I am talking about it. So it doesn’t matter really here. But I still remember the encounter and him asking me out. He was extremely kind, older than me and I am such a sucker for a man with a nice smile. It didn’t lead anywhere but it was a positive experience.

Life lesson

Last week has been hell and I am so happy for the new week to start. Today spent the day or should I say most of the day playing with the team. I used to love playing the game. I guess sometimes I enjoy it more than others but not nearly as much as I used to. I hardly use it as a coping skill anymore. I used to find farming super relaxing. Now it’s just become a nuisance.

I guess most would assume I played the game so much because I was alone. They never understood the main reason for playing the game. After long years of being sick, I lost all social interactions. The game was a way to learn to speak to people again. After years of being in and out of hospital it became therapeutic. I lost my ability to form sentences while being sick. So playing the game helped me to learn to speak again and learn to be around others. Even though it was completely different from normal interactions, it was still very difficult for me.

Still today trying to say the right words can be difficult. Sometimes I run in circles in the conversation trying to break the loop and people don’t understand why. It’s hard to explain so I just don’t anymore. Most people think they understand and can relate but the truth is you can’t. Unless you have lived my life, you will never truly comprehend what it has felt like. I have met so many people that have said well why don’t you just find yourself a nice man. Without ever understanding that it has taken me years to get this far because I couldn’t even speak words. I am not victim nor do I need anyone to feel sorry for me. I know each day I wake up it is blessing for me. When you have lived in complete darkness, you learn to see the world through a different perspective. You embrace the light in the world. You embrace the happy moments in life. You embrace the small tiny things that make you smile. You embrace the silver lining in everything. You learn to embrace that even though you might not be in the sunshine or under a beautiful rainbow, somewhere in the world there is both. That is truly enough for me to have that strength to hold on and keep moving forward. I hope everyone has a beautiful blessed week. May this one be a good week.

Women’s Prime

As I posted on my channel today, a woman’s prime is in her 20s. In your 20s, it is a good time to get married and have children. There are many reasons why this is the case. Most women don’t understand or most people don’t want to understand. A woman’s body is easier to bounce back from pregnancy when they are in their 20s. You have more energy in your 20’s to raise kids. I don’t make the rules it’s just life. Unfortunately, feminism has destroyed that ideology and has imprinted in a whole new generation that you can get married whenever you like, at whatever age, and it’s all the same. It doesn’t matter you can have it all. The truth of the matter is that is a LIE.

Unfortunately, many have bought into the lie. Declining birth rates, a lot of women that are now infertile “maybe” due to birth control, I don’t know. What I do now is the feminism has changed your society drastically. It has not changed it for the better but has changed it for the worse. People get mad when you explain to them that a woman in her prime is usually one that is in her 20s. It’s an inconvenient truth. But it does not change the fact that it is the truth.

I used to think women were able to do anything and it’s not that women can’t. It’s about what we were designed for. God made man in his image and he created woman out of man. She was to be his companion, his wife, the mother of his children, she was supposed to be his equal partner. That changed the moment Eve ate the fruit, now some might argue well I don’t believe that story or it’s just a “story”. I don’t doubt God’s Word. The first verse of the Bible reads…

‘In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth. Now the earth was formless and empty, darkness was over the surface of the deep, and the Spirit of God was hovering over the waters.

And God said, “Let there be light,” and there was light.” (Gen 1-3 NIV)’

The reason I state this is because God said let there be light and there was light. His Words were spoken and it formed light. His Word has the power to create life. So I would never doubt His Words because they aren’t just words in a book they are living words from God.

The desire in our society is to recreate the world we are living in. Movies are taken from the past, to be recreated to fit the new world. This has been done through the evil darkness that is called Satan. He tempted, like in the garden Eve and he tempts women daily. Making them believe they are more powerful than man. They don’t need man. They are stronger without having children. Why give that all up when you can be free. To have sex with anyone. No husband, no children . The truth is this leaves a void that cannot be filled by the world. For it wasn’t made by the world, it was by the Creator of the world when he made woman out of man. The reason I go down this rabbit hole of the holy Bible and God is because of just that. We have strayed away from the one that created what we(women) were made for. I understand there are many cases that are exceptions to the rule. I am one of them, that didn’t get the choices I wanted, the life I wanted. But I also believe that maybe it was designed for me that way to reach a different goal, that God wanted for me.

Bringing this back to my original post women are powerful they were made to be mothers, wives, sister, they were made to be the caregivers of the world. While was man to work and provide for his family.

The other inconvenient truth is that as you get older as a woman that has never been married, it is harder to date men. Men are searching for women that are younger. They want to be able to have children, they want to start fresh so they look for younger girls. So a woman that is in her 30s and 40s and 50s the dynamics of what you are looking for in a man or a partner change. Learning to be flexible in what you were searching for and learning that you might end up being a stepmom, but you know what be the best damn stepmom. You might not end up with any kids even if you wanted them, but you have to deal with it.

Life isn’t fair. None of us chose to be born. Yet we were given this beautiful thing called life. It doesn’t last long, you find yourself, in your 20s, then you find yourself in your 30s, then you find yourself in your 40s, and then in your 50s. Life doesn’t stop it keeps going. Death does not pardon anyone, we will all face it one day. just like we will face getting old one day. Instead of embracing, and holding on to fantasies of what we think women should be and what women should do why don’t we inspire the younger generation growing up?

I hope to be the beacon of that hope of all those girls that might be growing up, thinking they have to be independent without a man. Choose to find another path that might seem boring to so many people, but that is truly fulfilling to herself by becoming a mom and raising her kids.

These superficial things like growing old being fives and tens being rated as fives and tens lip, fillers, plastic surgery all of it, is a façade. At the end of the day, the most beautiful thing a woman can own and can be is being a beautiful soul. When I say be the change, you want to see in the world I truly mean it. My generation was completely screwed up with this whole feminist ideology it has destroyed countless relationships. We are nowhere close to knowing exactly the damage that feminism has caused.

I do hope for the future. I hope we can teach the young girls in this world that they can be strong by being a mom. They can be strong by loving their husband. And to all those exceptions out there, like myself, that are not these feminist crazies that life happened. I pray God gives you the strength to find your path to make a difference. The only way we will be able to break the cycle is changing course and breaking the wheel.

I hope you all have a blessed night. You can find my videos on YouTube, TikTok and Rumble all under emmathemizfit I hope you check them out. I truly hope this gives you hope as it has given me. Stay blessed and always be yourself, Emma.

Finding love

How does one truly find love? Now I am not talking about the love of family, friends or even the love of God. Though all these are important, I am speaking of love from a partner.

I believe there must be a connection to the person, whether that be a person that is attractive to you by some sort of beauty, personality, a quality that makes them more outstanding than others.

I am one that personally goes by the smile I see on a man. For me a man that has a beautiful smile is absolutely a must. Not anything other than the fact that when a man has a genuine beautiful smile it usually means he will make me smile. I love to smile and I love to have someone that makes me laugh.

In a world filled with so much darkness it’s nice to have a companion that can make you smile. Smiling can change anyone’s day. It’s like walking into work and passing by a coworker that greets you with a genuine smile and says have a beautiful day. Somehow that makes you feel better, it brightens your day, it lightens your mood. Did that coworker know all that m, probably not nor did they probably think about it. But that coworker just changed your day. I use this as an example because it has happened to me and I am sure it has happened to you. It’s why I always speak about smiling because you never know whose day you might change just by a smile.

So this brings me back to love a smile is a definite for me. I have not found love yet and maybe when I find it I will know. It is extremely hard to find love today for the simple fact many men search for beauty, youthful girls and I cannot compete with a 20 year old. That just isn’t happening I have accepted that and I am completely fine with that. There are a lot of things girls that are single will do that I won’t. I have respect for myself and expect the same from the man I date.

There has to be more than just a smile that connects two people. There has to be more than attractiveness that connects two people. Both are fleeting and won’t make anything last.

There has to be things other than outside appearances that connect two people to truly make you find that connection. Common goals, common dreams, common beliefs, these are things I truly believe make connections last longer. Leading to the path of find love. Being able to have conversations with that person about anything because you trust them. Or even sit in silence with that person that is a connection very few have.

Love is a feeling. I love music, I love writing, I love walking dogs, I love playing with dogs, I love the seasons and when they change, I love Christmas, I love roses and how they are full of thorns. I love having conversations with men and learning about what they like and don’t like. I love hearing about passions. I love being myself and I love finding someone whom I can be myself with. I love a lot of things.

So I guess finding love is somewhere in between all that. Love is more than just feeling it’s also having that connection with a person. Going through the pain, happiness, sadness together that is love. Have I found it, not yet. But one can never lose hope. Hope is eternal and I like to keep hope alive always.

Dragon Stole My Heart: written by Emmanuelle-Rose Grace

The other side of the world, I still think of you

Coming from two different cultures I still want you

Knowing that it will never be a possibility I still wish for it

Seeing your smile brightens my day

Seeing you laugh, makes me feel

Giddy like I want to play

I dream of the day I get to kiss you

I dream of the day I get to touch you

I dream of your laughter in my ear

My fingers running through your black hair

My hands touching your white pale skin

It’s only in my dreams that I get to see you

It’s only in my dreams that I get to be with you

To hear your laugh, to touch your skin, to feel your lips

The day may never come, that I may never get to do any of these things

But for now, as I fall asleep, I know that I will get to see you there. Good night my sweet Babe

Be yourself

If you could be someone else for a day, who would you be, and why?

I know this is going to sound silly but honestly I wouldn’t want to be someone else. What has made me unique, what has made me, ME, are my life experiences. The dark times I have gone through, the happy times and the times of complete insanity shaped me into who I am today. I love completely, I hide nothing, I trust easily, I try to live with no regrets and move forward. I have an open heart and don’t hide my feelings well. I don’t act fake and won’t pretend to be fake. It is a weakness and a strength. So I wouldn’t want to be someone else even for a day.

Dancing to a puppy tune

What was the last thing you did for play or fun?

The last thing I did for fun was dance to Christmas music with three dogs trying to jump on me. They danced at my legs trying to climb on me. It was so nice and fun to just dance in the living room with all their little faces looking at me. I did it today by the way, and it was epic. 🤣🐶❤️

Better

Is your life today what you pictured a year ago?

Surprisingly it’s better than I pictured my life a year ago. Things might not be perfect or even going the way I planned but it is good. Life is good. For that I am grateful to God for allowing me another year of life and the endless blessings he has bestowed upon me.

Child like views

What does it mean to be a kid at heart?

To view the world in a way a child would. Maybe a little bit naive, maybe a little bit more of a delusional happier way of seeing the world view. That doesn’t mean not seeing the darkness or evil in the world. But also keeping hope that things will change in a more positive direction or eventually workout to a better place than before. Yesterday I was asked if I was granted 3 wishes, I think having said the 3 things I would wish for are very childlike at heart. It probably makes me more naive than others but I have seen enough darkness in my own life that I would rather try to see some beauty or see the world the way a child does which is with endless possibilities.