Talking to a young boy I found he was cold. Maybe smart but not very nice. Very dismissive but I can blame myself. I tend to talk too much and share too much of myself when talking to people. It’s a very big flaw I know and I am working at it. I do find that sometimes being that way helps me to not hide who I am. I am not ashamed of being myself but I do forget others don’t like talking to other people and feel it might waste their time. So in that sense I was wrong to have wasted his time. I guess we all try to think we are speaking to people but we aren’t. In the digital age we are nothing more than avatars exchanging bits of information. So in that aspect you really never actually speak to the person like if you were to speak to them in real life. It was an interesting experience and it’s not his fault, it’s no one’s fault. We have become so separated yet are so close just by the tap of the screen but still worlds away from one another. Another day still grateful for another lesson learned.
Tag: relationships
Let it go
Are you holding a grudge? About?
I am trying to not hold onto any grudges. It’s toxic for my soul. With that said I do have some unresolved feelings about myself and others. But hopefully after time goes on those feelings will disappear also.
Who Am I to Stand in Your Way
Song by: Chester See
Forgive me
I may have said things
That aren’t exactly
The way that I feel
I told you I’d be strong
I said that I’d moved on
But it doesn’t take long
To realize
That I’m not over you
But if there is somebody that makes you feel happy
Tends to your heart in the ways I’d been lacking
Then who am I who am I to stand in your way…
To stand in your way…
To stand in your way…
I won’t stand in your way…
I know it sounds crazy
But I need you to trust me
If it’s how it must be
Then I’ll fade away
When it finally feels true
Then do what you have to
‘Cause I’ll never blame you
For not choosing me
But I’m not over you
But If there is somebody that makes you feel happy
Tends to your heart in the ways I’d been lacking
Then who am I who am I to stand in your way
That I feel is no longer your burden
If there is someone that can make you feel perfect
Then who am I who am I to stand in your way…
To stand in your way…
To stand in your way…
I won’t stand in your way…
Down the road someone will ask me if I know you
I’ll pause for a moment I’ll smile and say that I used… to
If there is somebody that makes you feel happy
Tends to your heart in the ways I’d been lacking
Then who am I who am I to stand in your way
That I feel is no longer your burden
If there is someone that can make you feel perfect
Then who am I who am I to stand in your way…
To stand in your way…
To stand in your way…
I won’t stand in your way…
I won’t stand in your way
I won’t stand in your way
Ideal Home
What does your ideal home look like?
My ideal home looks like one that has a lot of bedrooms. Many windows so the sunlight can always shine inside the every room in the house. One that has a big kitchen with lots of cabinet space and counter space. One with a yard or land, to plant flowers and have a little garden. One more thing that is a must, a big tub for me to be able to soak in, no little showers or tubs.
Thankful 🙏🏼
What motivates you?
God is what motivates me. He has given me so much. He has never turned His back on me. He has brought me out of the darkness. He is what gives me strength to get up each and every single day. He has given me clarity. He has helped me to focus. He is my best friend. He is what motivates me.
Always prepare for the worse.
Create an emergency preparedness plan.
I have always been a prepper extra waters and non perishable food. Candles, batteries, matches, first aid kit on and on.
I have been doing it for a while now. It’s funny during Sandy when we lost power for over 2 weeks it was because of my prepping that led us to not need anything from the outside.
I do think every person should have sort of plan for any emergency. Power outage you should have a plan. Civil war breaks out you should have a plan of escape.
I am not saying that is what I want but one must be prepared for the worse. It’s like buying insurance for a car or house. You may never use the full amount or at all. But you will be happy you have it if you’re house burns down or if you car is completely destroyed.
Making plans for an emergency is always smart. I suggest everyone have a plan. Where to go, a bag prepared to leave with, emergency supplies it’s just responsible especially when you have family that depend on you.
I did admire
What profession do you admire most and why?
People in the military. They give up everything to fight for our country freedoms. Not everyone has the courage or balls to do it. Strong men are made in tough times. Weak men are made in good times.
Many of the men I see today are extremely weak. They have absolutely no back bone. They are bent to the will of these feminists that have destroyed our society.
I think it’s extremely sad what feminism has really done today in our society. It’s has pushed back women rights.
In reality they have tried to destroy the genders and have made women equal to men and causing men to takeover women spaces.
This is the flaw in the feminist theory men and women are equal. The truth is men and women are very different but compliment each other.
It’s the way God made them. Adam and Eve were meant to be one. In being one that meant they were to be the half of each side. What he lacked she filled, what she lacked he filled making them one. Feminism has destroyed that. So now you have a complete destruction of the roles men and women play.
Is that progress no instead what it has truly done is make the world worse. This ideology has ruined thousands of children and will continue to destroy many others.
Because feminism doesn’t build anything it’s true nature is to destroy women and everything around them. It’s a lie told to girls and boys but what it’s true power is deception in the form of equality and tolerance.
The military was strong throughout our history, though today it’s probably a place filled with weak men and women. Because like I said before hard times create strong men, good times create weak men. Just how the way of the world works.
I did admire the military and the mindset of dying to save others. It’s the most Christ like thing you can do for your neighbor. They put their own lives on the line for our freedoms, but today it seems that isn’t what the military is anymore. It’s extremely sad.
Chasing you? Nope that’s a hard pass!
Disappointed is some thing I have become very familiar with. Just when you start to feel comfortable around people you find out that they are complete jerks. You want to try to do your best, you wanna to fit in but when you realize that you don’t, it’s doesn’t seem to matter as much. As I have gotten older I realize that I’m more comfortable in my skin. As time flows by I realize that the people that I want in my life, won’t ask to be in it. If you don’t want to be in my life, leave. I will never ask you to be in it. If you feel that you want to leave, I am not going to hold you back. I want you to be able to want to stay. I don’t want to be second place, I don’t wanna be the default choice I want to be the one that you choose. If you can’t do that, and if you feel like you’re missing out then by all means walk away. If you think that I’m going to sit here and beg you to stay, you’re wrong. I’m an extremely loyal person and if I can’t get that loyalty back, I don’t want you in my life. It’s not about making the wrong choices. It’s about knowing my worth and I know I am worthy of being loved and being happy. Surrounded by people that want to be with me. Surrounded by people that love me for me. Surrounded by people that accept me for me.
People are like seasons, in the summer you feel the heat of some peoples love. In the winter, you feel the chill and cold you see the real face of people that hide it so much to not show. In the spring, you might find the warmth of the sun that makes you think people can change. Like a rose that is blooming. But just like the autumn season, you see the beautiful colors of change and right before winter the leaves die, the flowers die, and everything dies right before the cold of winter. People are exactly the same way. You may never get to see their real cold side. You may never get to see the blooming rose in the spring and you may never feel the heat of summer, but you definitely get to feel the autumn right before the winter when everything has died.
Some things need to be let go of, I won’t hold you to your word. I won’t even try to win you back. I won’t even try to talk to you to reason with you. Because in the end I chose me. And my choice, I chose to walk away. Because in the end you are not worth fighting for. If you feel, I am not worth fighting for I think we are exactly where we are supposed to be. On the opposite of friendship. You make time for the people who mean something to you. Let this be a lesson to learn that letting go or walking away is more powerful than being surrounded by snakes.
I wish you the best always ~Emma~
Moody girl
I woke up this morning in such a mood. As I went through the day I felt it was just progressively getting worse. As I sit here at 4:15 pm in the afternoon I can honestly say it’s gotten a lot better. Even earlier when I made my video for the day I said I wasn’t in a good mood. It was just one of those moody days.
I still woke up grateful and thanked God for the new day. Even after slamming my wrist into a window causing my wrist to swell up and see stars. I was able to get the internet to finally work with the help of the technician that came to the house. He helped me with hooking up my Mac book and everything. It was such a help on a day that was just not going well.
Even just chatting with the guy was helpful we spoke about Japan and how I should definitely go visit. 😂
So I say again just because your day might start out moody or crappy, be grateful. It is through the grateful heart that God changed my day.
I even was yelling at God this afternoon, after slamming my wrist. I was like oh it’s pick on Emma today. lol it was a joke and I really didn’t think it was going to change anything and yet here I am grateful for the better mood.
I think sometimes letting out your frustrations out to God as if He is there with you, even if you think He might not be listening, you find out soon enough He is always listening. So have a little faith and just chat with Him. Tell Him your frustrations, tell Him how you feel, let Him know everything and you might be surprised when He does answer.
I hope everyone has a beautiful blessed day.
Bring back shame!!!
What would you change about modern society?
I would make everyone stop sharing what their sexual pleasures are!!! I mean honestly there is absolutely no shame any more for people who walk around naked in front of children. It’s my biggest beef with the society we are living in. We have no shame and have allowed ourselves to be brainwashed into a state of fake tolerance. The only tolerance that exists right now is the tolerance from the ones trying to destroy our society. Because anyone that has morals or simply doesn’t want certain things to be before kids are considered to have some sort of phobia. It’s ridiculous and I am so over it. Can I watch House of the dragon without having two girl kiss absolutely not why because it’s now become the norm. No story needed just add two girl making out just because. I am up to the point I have sworn off all American tv from my list. I am watching C dramas, k dramas why because majority of it is clean. There is no kissing no naked people jumping around and the best part is the storyline. They actually have a reason for each character to be where they are. I have given up on exploring any tv from America. It’s absolutely shameful the writing in these shows. House of the Dragon was a waste of time don’t bother!!! I should have stuck to my first instinct and not even bother.
Emma the Mizfit 