Tag: random thoughts

Life Update and Advice

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Life is good I am extremely blessed. Grateful that God gives me the strength I need to keep going.

I have disconnected from many in my past and let them go. No hard feelings simply moving on.

Sometimes we forget not everyone is meant to be in our life. They are just tiny lines or a chapter in our book of life. But they aren’t meant to play big roles.

Once you have learned this life lesson it becomes so easy to simply let them go. Don’t ever ask anyone to stay that has chosen to leave your life. Take them as side characters or NPCs in your story.

They have a role to play but that’s it nothing more. So be grateful for the life you have and the lessons you learn.

God is good all the time. Have a blessed week. ~Emma~

Lost at Sea

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I feel so stupid when we talk. Not because I can’t talk to you but because you make me feel dumb. You say I spin in circles and you are right. I try so hard not to but I am trying to fix that and make it right. I hate the feeling of disappointment I hear in your voice. I hate feeling like no matter what I do you I will never be your choice. I hate that I care. I hate that I become jealous for reasons I can’t explain. I hate that when I talk to you I feel safe. I hate that when I say something you get so mad. I especially hate when you make me laugh. I want to stay mad but can’t. I want to hate you but I can’t. I hate to care and think of you all the time. I know you don’t have feelings but that doesn’t change mine. Lost in the deep sea of reflection. Darkness consuming my mind. Trying to escape in the incoming flood. Lost in the sea of your non existent callous heart. ~Emma~

What does one do? – Random Thoughts

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How to please people all around you without pleasing yourself? No matter the decision you make you will be wrong. There is no pleasing anyone. We live in society filled with narcissistic personalities. “The only factor is me and what I want and fk anyone who thinks differently.” Which I could understand but there is a flaw in that thinking. The people we love must always be taken into account when making decisions. It’s not just about me and what I want. We must learn to balance the selfish desire to do what we want and the desire to make the people we love happy. Both are constantly fighting for dominance but at the end only balancing both will bring you to the level of contentment one can only wish to have in this life. I would love to be selfish and think of just myself but an adult must always try to balance their own desires and the desires of the good of the ones around them. To be a kid again and selfish only seeing the moment now instead of five mins into the future. It does bring a sort of sadness to my heart. For we all give a lot for the ones we love without ever truly getting as much back. We can only hope that one day we will be rewarded for throwing our own selfish desires into the back trunk. I hope everyone has a beautiful day. Be grateful even for the small things that bring you pleasure. Many never even get to have that, but today walk with a smile knowing just like me you aren’t alone.