Write about your first crush.
I don’t remember my first crush due to having a lot of ECT done on me. So if I was just to take the last 10 years. I had a crush on someone I play a game with. He is sweet and an amazing human being. We are just friends which is nice. So even though I have a crush on them it doesn’t go beyond that.
What’s your favorite thing about yourself?
My favorite thing about myself is being myself. I am completely unpredictable, chaotic, lost, even sometimes just dumb. I can be completely passionate about things, I love with no apologies. I love whole heartedly and without boundaries. I am loyal and never try to be something I am not. Being myself is the best part of myself. Because just like a painting, like all art, what is beautiful to me may not be for you. Love me or hate me I am always me. ~Emma~
What are you passionate about?
I am passionate about everything I do. When I write my poems I am speaking from my heart. When I make books I love spending the time to create something. When I play my games I love helping my teammates and being part of team. When I dog sit I take care of the dogs like they are my own. When I make videos I spend time making everything perfect. I don’t do anything I am not passionate about. With that said it does carry a heavy burden. For what I give I never get back. I give my all but not everyone appreciates the time and effort. The care I take with everything I do. Instead it’s kind of just thought of as silly. But like I said I don’t do anything I am not passionate about it’s why I do it. Because it makes me happy to have completed something I gave my all.
What are the most important things needed to live a good life?
The most important things needed in my life to live a good life is…
One- my relationship with God. I have nothing without Him in my life. Through the darkest times in my life he was the only One that has always been there never leaving my side. For me I can’t have a good life if God is not in it.
Two- my health. When I speak of my health I don’t just mean healthy life style, eating food and working out. I am also talking about my mental health. It is just as important to eat well as it is to have good coping skills, seeking therapy, having a back up plan. To some this might seem silly but for a person who has mental health issues it’s extremely important to stay on top of your own condition. It is a way you can learn to grow and become a more independent person and not be in the dark space of mental illness. I am a firm believer in having these skills and ways to help one always know when they might be sliding down a path they can’t come back from.
For me having both of these no matter how dark life may get, no matter how many people you lose life is always good.
Who do you spend the most time with?
Myself and I love it. It’s not that I don’t like ppl but it’s clear everyone around me is set to constantly be disappointing. So I would rather be by myself to not have to deal with selfish people that only care about themselves.
Stop waiting for people that don’t give a crap about you to accept you. You look for validation from people that should not even be on your radar. So my advice, from my own personal experience is to just move on, do not look back. Whoever is left behind, never deserved to be in your presence. Have a blessed weekend. ~Emma~
What fears have you overcome and how?
The fear of trying new things. After being sick for so long I was afraid to stray outside my comfort zone. After years of trying I just couldn’t do it but finally about a year ago I started to push myself more and more outside my comfort zone. It started with making books that would help others with mental health issues. Books for coloring, books with puzzles, crosswords anything to use as a coping mechanism. I learned during my own time these things helped me. By November of last year I started a YouTube channel Emma the Mizfit. Again pushing myself further out, the channel is small. Doesn’t have many members but I did it to help others that struggle like me. It has music videos for healing that I made. I even share my own experiences. Recently, I started an Etsy store, again pushing myself out more and more. The fear of failing never entering my mind because my focus is to try and get out of my safe space. The only way to get rid of the fear is to try and overcome it. If you fail you can always try again. will it be easy no, but it’s worth trying so you can grow to become the better version of yourself. Have a blessed day.
Describe one simple thing you do that brings joy to your life.
When I wake up I smile to my ceiling and thank God for another day. No matter how hard the day might be, no matter whatever it has in store for me I am happy to be alive.
What jobs have you had?
Too many to count. I love working but what I do now it’s the best.
I know I am loving person. I try and go out of my way to be a kind individual. I know we each are fighting our own internal battle. Sometimes I even find myself going down the rabbit hole of why do we have to go through all this. The mundane things in life, getting up each morning, working all day, eating, bathing and heading to bed to sleep. Why do we have to do all these things? I know how easy it is to ask why, but you won’t get an answer. Many try to tell you what to do or how to feel, these are things that I think pretty much everyone has asked. Honestly I don’t think anyone knows the real answer. I guess today I am feeling a little curious to find out what others think. I know I can’t be the only one that feels that way. Or even questioning why do we have to continue doing the same exact things daily. But I guess these are things we will not know. Either way I hope you have a blessed day. ~Emma~
Emma the Mizfit 