Scars Fade

How do significant life events or the passage of time influence your perspective on life?

Each life event we go through as human beings we either learn and grow from that experience. Or we learn nothing and stay in a perpetual state of victimhood. We are all struggling, fighting our own demons or just simply fighting life. It is through these trials that we become stronger and learn from our past mistakes. Not taking the time to learn from our past mistakes will allow us to continue making the same mistakes over and over again. I have learned in life that we must change our perspective, focus on the goals we wish to obtain and let go of the things that we cannot change. Doing this, I have allowed myself to become stronger and not defined by my past. This has also allowed me to be open about my feelings, my sickness and not hide who I am. It’s given me great strength. It has me freed me to be myself. Growing constantly into a better version of myself. It has given me the confidence that I need to be comfortable in my own skin. I may not be perfect, I am extremely flawed and extremely chaotic but I have learned there’s only one like me. Through time life events are like scars, they never really go away, but they fade. They stay a part of you as a lesson, but overtime you can hardly see them.

Random thoughts

I try hard to keep up. You have never made it easy so I gave up. Time has lost all its luster and my feelings are dead. I stop caring after learning you can careless. It’s like the quote goes from How I met your mother…

“You may think your only choices are to swallow your anger or throw it in someone’s face, but there’s a third option: you can just let it go, and only when you do that is it really gone, and you can move forward.” – Ted Mosby

Cry for love : The Mary Onettes

Because of your mother

I can’t seem to forget

That our love is a trembling one

And healthy to my soul

Because of your father

You’ve got a hole in your trust

And when I see you hide it I wish I could

Remove it from your heart

In silence I make promises

I’m lying still in the dark

And because of your peaceful soul

I keep thinking to myself

Don’t, don’t, don’t cry for love

Cry for love

Don’t, don’t, don’t cry for love

Cry for love

Don’t you cry for love

It’s a part of our path

Think about the way

Things were left to be

It’s a raging sea

And colors that you won’t be

Here to see

And it’s just a matter of time

Till they put me in the grave

Till they put you in the grave

So I don’t, don’t, don’t, cry for love

I don’t cry for love

Twisted Hearts: written by Emmanuelle-Rose Grace

Days

Weeks

Months

Years

Still you managed to make me smile today

It’s been over a year

My thoughts go back in time

To a time we would just laugh

Endless chatters

Sharing secrets

Careless whispers in the night

Song lists from the heart

Music that made us feel connected

Nights falling asleep sounds in our ears

Words that made us express our deepest desires

Though the puzzle never fit

We tried to find ways

Life decided for us

You were right coffee, no one is to blame

Life is to blame

Drive by The Cars

Who’s gonna tell you when
It’s too late?

Who’s gonna tell you things
Aren’t so great?

You can’t go on, thinking
Nothing’s wrong, oh no
Who’s gonna drive you home
Tonight?

Who’s gonna pick you up
When you fall?

Who’s gonna hang it up
When you call?

Who’s gonna pay attention
To your dreams?

Yeah who’s gonna plug their ears
When you scream?

You can’t go on, thinking
Nothing’s wrong, oh no
Who’s gonna drive you home
Tonight?

(Bye, bye, bye)

(Bye, bye, bye)
(Bye, bye, bye)
(Bye, bye, bye)

Who’s gonna hold you down
When you shake?

Who’s gonna come around
When you break?

You can’t go on, thinking
Nothing’s wrong, oh no
Who’s gonna drive you home
Tonight?

Oh, you know you can’t go on, thinking
Nothing’s wrong
Who’s gonna drive you home
Tonight?

Lost at Sea

I feel so stupid when we talk. Not because I can’t talk to you but because you make me feel dumb. You say I spin in circles and you are right. I try so hard not to but I am trying to fix that and make it right. I hate the feeling of disappointment I hear in your voice. I hate feeling like no matter what I do you I will never be your choice. I hate that I care. I hate that I become jealous for reasons I can’t explain. I hate that when I talk to you I feel safe. I hate that when I say something you get so mad. I especially hate when you make me laugh. I want to stay mad but can’t. I want to hate you but I can’t. I hate to care and think of you all the time. I know you don’t have feelings but that doesn’t change mine. Lost in the deep sea of reflection. Darkness consuming my mind. Trying to escape in the incoming flood. Lost in the sea of your non existent callous heart. ~Emma~

Mom

Mom you are the light in my world You are the stone that keeps me grounded You are my lighthouse on a stormy night on the sea You are stars and moon …

Mom