Letting you in

What’s the thing you’re most scared to do? What would it take to get you to do it?

The thing I am scared to do the most is to allow people into my heart. Time after time, I have a lot of people in my heart, but never really given my heart away. I built this wall around myself. I know it’s been there. Maybe it’s protecting myself from the bad things that I have experienced.

But as I’ve grown more comfortable being myself, I’ve also learned that in order to truly have a good relationship with another person, you open yourself and be willing to get hurt.

As the years have gone by, I’ve learned to understand what I like about a man while also learning to be more open, act like a grownup and learning a relationship is a partnership you give and take but always have each other’s backs. I wanna be honest, I wanna connect intellectually. I want to feel more than just a connection.

I want him to teach me new things while also learning how to grow together as one. This has been a scary thought for many years. I have thought I had fallen but the truth is I always hid a piece of myself and was never really honest. I hope the day comes I can find someone to be myself around.

Liberation day 

Today was the Inauguration of President Trump. After four years under the Biden administration it finally feels good to be free from him. This isn’t about being a Republican or Democrat it was about being American. I was so tired of trying to explain why I am proud being American.

People from every nation are proud of their homeland, this is my homeland. I am not embarrassed where I come from nor should I be. People are taught to hate themselves for what? I can never understand why you would listen to anyone tell you to hate yourself.

As a person that suffered a devastating severe depression that left me in a mind prison for 10 years. When I was finally freed, thanks to God, it took me forever to feel like myself. As I grow each day not looking back at the past, I learn to be more comfortable in myself.

So again why would I listen to anyone that tells me I need to hate myself. Not only hate myself but also I need to fit in the boxes they decided to make. No thank you, I like being myself. I don’t need to fit into the box you have created for me to live in.

As a Christian I love everyone but I don’t need to be around everyone, nor do I have to accept everyone. Just like everyone doesn’t have to love me or accept me. It’s God I follow, it’s God that I have to answer to, it’s God who saved me from the darkness and it was God that saved Trump.

Was it to save the United States from the insanity it was going through, I do believe that. Regardless of how, Trump was saved to be used by God, that was His plan.

In the end I am just absolutely happy the madness of 100 genders, offending people by just being myself is done. So for me today isn’t just another Inauguration Day, for me it’s a day to celebrate my country. I may have ancestors from Spain but my country is America, my blood is American and my heart is for America.

So to all my fellow patriots I hope you have a beautiful night celebrating winning our country back. Make America Great Again!

Happy New Year

I am praying everyone has a beautiful blessed new year. May God bless you all with love, joyous moments with the people you love, and a healthy year ahead. Stay well my darlings. ~Emma~

Being comfortable

What is one thing you would change about yourself?

I have grown into a better version of myself. I have learned from my mistakes and changed my perspective on life. I think it’s easy for us to forget that in order for us to keep moving forward. We need to focus on something greater than ourselves.

I am learning to be more confident in myself and more comfortable in my own skin. If there is one thing I can change about myself, it would be to stay more silent.

I was once told by an old acquaintance that sometimes it is better to not say anything or be comfortable in the silence. I never understood what he meant until I started taking time for myself in the silence.

There is such power being in silence and not having to fill the silence with words that mean nothing. Taking time to reflect or be comfortable in the silence is extremely powerful.

I never got to share that with him, that he taught me an extremely important lesson. And though our paths may never cross again, I am grateful that he did teach me such an important lesson.

Sometimes being in the quietness amongst the chaos of the world is absolute freedom.

So if I have to change about myself it would be to spend more time in the silence. Thinking my own thoughts, listening to the words of other people around me just being comfortable in the silence.

Doing good

One of the most annoying things about people during the holiday season is how selfish some people can be. They don’t even realize how selfish they are acting. They going around not helping others while they party, go to dinners, go shopping while others are working their asses off trying to get everything ready.

People constantly say it’s team work that gets the job done. But team work consists of you actually having to put in the work for the team. You deciding to walk away and complaining about stuff not getting done isn’t teamwork.

It’s this selfish attitude that really gets under my skin. Not only it’s not productive for anyone to advance. It frustrates the ones going out of their way to try and make life better.

If I can offer some advice don’t wait for someone to ask for help. Helping others not only helps the person you offer the help to but it helps your soul. Helping others is food for the soul. So during this season as we approach the giving season. Learn to give to others. Don’t expect anything from others, do it because you want to do it. If you’re incapable of doing that, well I can’t help you.

Have a good day. ~Emma~

Absolutely!!!

Do you trust your instincts?

I absolutely trust my instincts without a doubt. I was one that used to doubt myself and my own instincts. But as I got older and more aware of how people behave it became extremely clear.

We all meet people the kind of people that don’t sit right with us. It’s not judging them without knowing them or anything like that. It’s more like something inside you is telling you, something about this person gives off this strange vibe.

We write it off as being paranoid or just thinking about it too much. Later on we find out boom the person wasn’t trust worthy, and completely backstabbed you.

I used to a be a firm believer give everyone a chance. If I am kind and loving they will be the same. Instead I lost a lot of time on people that didn’t deserve to be in my life. I even lost myself for a time, chasing after a bunch of losers I thought were friends. They weren’t friends, they were users.

You know the kind of people that use you for a time and then turn their back on you like if you meant nothing.

That is because you meant nothing to them. You were replaced with someone else. People like this don’t deserve to be in your life. Even if they have changed and you meet again wish them luck and move on.

I feel strongly that our basic instincts are God given and Him speaking to us. But we are so used to thinking that can’t be true. I strongly believe and feel that your instincts turn out right because it was God warning you. So instead of not listening to our instincts we need to learn to trust them. Because there is a reason God gave us this gift. Learn to use it to protect yourself.

I have learned many lessons the older I got and the first lesson was always trust my instincts. Because every single time it has been right. Hope you all have a beautiful day.

You’re Not Alone

Sang by: Meredith Andrews

I searched for love when the night came and it closed in

I was alone, but You found me where I was hiding

And now I’ll never ever be the same

It was the sweetest voice that called my name, saying

You’re not alone for I am here

Let me wipe away your every fear

My love, I’ve never left your side

I have seen you through the darkest night

And I’m the One who’s loved you all your life

All your life

You cry yourself to sleep

‘Cause the hurt is real and the pain cuts deep

All hope seems lost with heartache your closest friend

And everyone else long gone

You’ve had to face the music on your own

But there is a sweeter song that calls you home, saying

You’re not alone for I am here

Let me wipe away your every tear

My love, I’ve never left your side

I have seen you through the darkest night

And I’m the One who’s loved you all your life

All your life

Faithful and true forever

My love will carry you

You’re not alone for I, I am here

Let me wipe away your every fear

My love, I’ve never left your side

I have seen you through the darkest night

Your darkest night

And I’m the One who’s loved you all your life

All your life

Deal with it

Have you ever had surgery? What for?

Oh yeah I have had so many. Let’s see I have had a face lift, lip fillers, boob lift, butt lift liposuction but who hasn’t right? Nah I haven’t had any of that stuff done.

We have all had surgeries, life before surgery and life after surgery. Too many to name but probably the most painful one was my back surgery.

Probably it was because even after the surgery I still have a lot of pain. I have just learned to make myself stronger and deal with it. I don’t depend on drugs to take the pain away. Sometimes one just has to learn to tolerate the pain. Once it has become part of you the pain doesn’t overwhelm you.

I am not giving advice on to deal with your pain, I am merely saying how I deal with pain. Like the saying goes what doesn’t kill you will only make you stronger.

It’s a big scary world out there filled with a lot of pain, hate, anger and just plain evil. You have to learn to be strong and better than that. You can do it my strength comes from God. I hope today you find your strength and don’t allow the world or aches and pains hold you down. Life is too short and beautiful to not embrace the beauty in life. Have a good one. ~Emma~

Reminder: Mental Health Awareness

As I have said before May is Mental Health Awareness Month. This is a list of things that have helped me. I hope they help you. You are not alone.

Also trying to be a better version of yourself doesn’t mean you are weak.

Learning to forgive others for what they have done for you, only makes you feel stronger.

Self care is something we all must do. If you don’t take care of yourself no one else will either.

Therapy is a tool to be used not ignored.

I want to encourage everyone that kindness goes a long away.

Coping skills are there to remind you, how to deal with issues.

Praying is one of the greatest ways to heal and find true peace.

Working out helps to make you feel good and give you the confidence you need.

Healthy eating is a way for you to take out the food that makes you feel down. Don’t eat anything that will make you feel sluggish. Don’t eat anything that will make you feel regret. Only eat and drink things that will help you to feel good about yourself. Not to mention that when eating healthy foods you also gain clarity. Stay away from junk food.

Remember journaling is way to put your thoughts down on paper. Even if it feels pointless the thought has been written and maybe now you can let it go.

If you experience any thoughts about self deleting please call for help or ask for help. People are not mind readers and don’t know what is going on. So please do seek help because you are not alone.

Last but not least remember God isn’t just the Creator. He can be your partner, your friend, your guide, your anchor through your life. If you truly need someone always there God is the perfect companion for you.

Women’s Prime

As I posted on my channel today, a woman’s prime is in her 20s. In your 20s, it is a good time to get married and have children. There are many reasons why this is the case. Most women don’t understand or most people don’t want to understand. A woman’s body is easier to bounce back from pregnancy when they are in their 20s. You have more energy in your 20’s to raise kids. I don’t make the rules it’s just life. Unfortunately, feminism has destroyed that ideology and has imprinted in a whole new generation that you can get married whenever you like, at whatever age, and it’s all the same. It doesn’t matter you can have it all. The truth of the matter is that is a LIE.

Unfortunately, many have bought into the lie. Declining birth rates, a lot of women that are now infertile “maybe” due to birth control, I don’t know. What I do now is the feminism has changed your society drastically. It has not changed it for the better but has changed it for the worse. People get mad when you explain to them that a woman in her prime is usually one that is in her 20s. It’s an inconvenient truth. But it does not change the fact that it is the truth.

I used to think women were able to do anything and it’s not that women can’t. It’s about what we were designed for. God made man in his image and he created woman out of man. She was to be his companion, his wife, the mother of his children, she was supposed to be his equal partner. That changed the moment Eve ate the fruit, now some might argue well I don’t believe that story or it’s just a “story”. I don’t doubt God’s Word. The first verse of the Bible reads…

‘In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth. Now the earth was formless and empty, darkness was over the surface of the deep, and the Spirit of God was hovering over the waters.

And God said, “Let there be light,” and there was light.” (Gen 1-3 NIV)’

The reason I state this is because God said let there be light and there was light. His Words were spoken and it formed light. His Word has the power to create life. So I would never doubt His Words because they aren’t just words in a book they are living words from God.

The desire in our society is to recreate the world we are living in. Movies are taken from the past, to be recreated to fit the new world. This has been done through the evil darkness that is called Satan. He tempted, like in the garden Eve and he tempts women daily. Making them believe they are more powerful than man. They don’t need man. They are stronger without having children. Why give that all up when you can be free. To have sex with anyone. No husband, no children . The truth is this leaves a void that cannot be filled by the world. For it wasn’t made by the world, it was by the Creator of the world when he made woman out of man. The reason I go down this rabbit hole of the holy Bible and God is because of just that. We have strayed away from the one that created what we(women) were made for. I understand there are many cases that are exceptions to the rule. I am one of them, that didn’t get the choices I wanted, the life I wanted. But I also believe that maybe it was designed for me that way to reach a different goal, that God wanted for me.

Bringing this back to my original post women are powerful they were made to be mothers, wives, sister, they were made to be the caregivers of the world. While was man to work and provide for his family.

The other inconvenient truth is that as you get older as a woman that has never been married, it is harder to date men. Men are searching for women that are younger. They want to be able to have children, they want to start fresh so they look for younger girls. So a woman that is in her 30s and 40s and 50s the dynamics of what you are looking for in a man or a partner change. Learning to be flexible in what you were searching for and learning that you might end up being a stepmom, but you know what be the best damn stepmom. You might not end up with any kids even if you wanted them, but you have to deal with it.

Life isn’t fair. None of us chose to be born. Yet we were given this beautiful thing called life. It doesn’t last long, you find yourself, in your 20s, then you find yourself in your 30s, then you find yourself in your 40s, and then in your 50s. Life doesn’t stop it keeps going. Death does not pardon anyone, we will all face it one day. just like we will face getting old one day. Instead of embracing, and holding on to fantasies of what we think women should be and what women should do why don’t we inspire the younger generation growing up?

I hope to be the beacon of that hope of all those girls that might be growing up, thinking they have to be independent without a man. Choose to find another path that might seem boring to so many people, but that is truly fulfilling to herself by becoming a mom and raising her kids.

These superficial things like growing old being fives and tens being rated as fives and tens lip, fillers, plastic surgery all of it, is a façade. At the end of the day, the most beautiful thing a woman can own and can be is being a beautiful soul. When I say be the change, you want to see in the world I truly mean it. My generation was completely screwed up with this whole feminist ideology it has destroyed countless relationships. We are nowhere close to knowing exactly the damage that feminism has caused.

I do hope for the future. I hope we can teach the young girls in this world that they can be strong by being a mom. They can be strong by loving their husband. And to all those exceptions out there, like myself, that are not these feminist crazies that life happened. I pray God gives you the strength to find your path to make a difference. The only way we will be able to break the cycle is changing course and breaking the wheel.

I hope you all have a blessed night. You can find my videos on YouTube, TikTok and Rumble all under emmathemizfit I hope you check them out. I truly hope this gives you hope as it has given me. Stay blessed and always be yourself, Emma.