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CLOSE: written by Emmanuelle -Rose Grace

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He touches my hand

I feel nervous at his side

I can feel the chemistry course through my veins inside

It’s almost like an electric current

I look into his eyes but turn away

He pulls at my face leaning in

Utters words I want to hear him say

“Don’t be afraid darling I won’t hurt you.”

Many have pretended to be there

His words feel like magic filling the air

The rain is all over us, the splat splat splat sounds makes me shiver

He pulls my close and tells me sweet words

“You are my flame together we will burn forever.”

I look into the distance and see the lights of the city

But as we walk together in the rain I feel my heart just patter

He grabs my hand and we run through the drops of water

Getting all wet seems so silly

But finally we reach his place

He covers me in blankets to make me feel safe

He leans down grabs my face

As his lips touch over my cheek

I start to feel warm inside

And he pulls up my face looking into my eyes

Green on blue he kisses me taking me deep inside

Oh how I love being with him this way

Our lips touching feeling each other out

Feeling his tongue slide over my neck

Makes me buzzed on a high

Damn what is it about him that makes me feel so alive

~Emma~

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Feelings ?!?

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What do you say to a person that is your friend that you may have feelings for them? You don’t want to ruin what you have but you can feel all these things you never knew you felt. Stupid I know, that’s what I keep saying. Don’t fall into old patterns. And it’s stupid because he is not like any other person I have ever met. Is it stupid? Am I crazy? To feel like I genuinely like them. I don’t know maybe I am stupid and completely reckless with my heart. But it’s like when we speak, even speaking of him being with another person, my heart feels something. It’s dumb I know. I just don’t know anymore. He makes me question everything. He makes me feel like I can achieve my goals. I can find my own happiness and it just feels like he takes joy in me becoming a better person. I know I shouldn’t even entertain the ideas, if I do it will just mess up our friendship. I love our friendship I don’t want to ruin that I want to be honest and just love him. Maybe just being his friend is enough love and not expecting anything back. I am stupid I know but I do know I don’t want us to not be friends. He is extremely important to me and I can’t lose him. Not over emotions that I am sure he doesn’t have. So I will stay positive and allow time to do it’s thing. Just working on myself. Yes I am sharing my own personal crazy thoughts. I hope the new day brings you much love and a beautiful day. Remember be the reason smiles today. ~Emma~

Just enjoying the moment

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There aren’t many movies that just bring joy when I get into a bad mood. There are some movies that I have depending on the mood, that just brighten my day. One of those movies that does make me happy just watching it every single time is Grease. The music, the singing, the dancing and just the story as silly as the movie might be, it is so much fun to watch. I know in today’s standards with all the “problematic” things some people will easily point out. But for me every single time I watch it, it just brings a huge smile to my face. That is what the movies are supposed to do. Take you out of your mind for a moment and enjoy something that might be silly but is absolutely beautiful to watch. ~Emma~

Positive Christmas turn

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Last night was fun and today is peaceful. I am grateful to have my family that accepts me even at my worst. I knew the other day I lashed out it had been a while since I went so down so fast. Maybe it was being sick and down that drove to lose control so easily. But the truth is I still need to find better coping skills to keep me ahead of the twists and turns. Life is extremely unpredictable and I need to learn to cope with I can control which is myself. There will always be a trigger always something will change my moods. It’s learning and finding new ways to adapt to the chaos that I must learn to master in myself. I know I am not alone, I trust in God and I know somewhere someone else may be experiencing the same thing. It is through that I must learn to find ways to keep fighting. The mood swings can happen but learning to keep calm and being aware is something we must all learn. Learning to lean on those that support us is a good thing. Therapist, group therapy, God, family, friends whatever it is keep finding good coping skills to help you find the strength you have. I learned last night not only God gave me the strength but my family did also. It was through that support I have in place that gave me the chance to speak to them, to trust in them and allow myself to vulnerable with them. Having the conversation and being completely open with them helped me enjoy being in the moment with the whole family. It was truly an amazing night that I will remember for a long time. I hope your Christmas was blessed. As I said to everyone yesterday remember we celebrate Christmas because it was the gift that we got from God in Jesus Christ who came and died to save us. We celebrated His birth. You might not believe but this what I believe and I am willing to stand on that rock always. God has given me so much and Jesus isn’t just my king, he is my friend, the lover of my soul, He knows me in ways no one will ever know and it’s a comfort for me. To have trust and faith in someone I can feel in my heart. Without God I would not be here it is through his love and Grace that I am at peace tonight. I send you some of that peace that maybe you can have that inner peace starting this new week. Have a wonderful week, filled with many blessings. ~Emma~

Feel the magic

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There is something so magical about this time of the year. No matter how crappy I feel I can’t stop smiling. People that don’t believe in Jesus Christ I can’t understand how you can not feel the magic of the season. Either way I hope everyone is doing well listening to Christmas music. And just try enjoying the beautiful season no stress just enjoy the moments of the season. Have a beautiful night. ~Emma~

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Words to live by…

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◦ Let the seeds you planted be what you look forward in the future. Plant beautiful seeds everywhere you go and may the season they blossom bring much joy. ~Emma~

Love you

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Just because I love you doesn’t mean I want to.

You know Nothing!!!

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Today was a long day. Sitting here about to have a conversation with God and wanted to drop few lines. I finished reading the first Dune book. It was really good and I really enjoyed it. I am looking forward to the next book in the series. I watched the whole Tim Pool/Kayne thing last night. My heart goes out to Kayne. Unfortunately, the world is extremely cruel to ppl with a mental illness disorder. They don’t understand and they are extremely dismissive about anything coming from someone that has any mental health issue. I really do feel for him because unlike many others that assume to know how it feels or understand, you don’t. It’s not easy and you can be compassionate, understanding and love the person that suffers. But at the end of the day you have no clue how hard it is for them to fight to be heard. You have no idea how hard life is for them. You can watch all you like and judge however you like. But unless you are suffering and fighting every day with mental health problems you have no idea. So please do me a favor to all the ppl that think they know….shut up! You know nothing. What that person needs is love, kindness, compassion, understanding, to feel like they are heard and God. If you can’t be any of those things in that person’s life stfu and walk away. I have zero tolerance for ppl that pretend to know how it feels or how they think it is. You have no clue, so stop. My prayers go out to Kayne and all of you whom suffer from any mental disorder. It’s not an easy fight. You fight each and every day but don’t give up. You are not alone. Never forget you are not alone!!! I might be one but together we are many. Always, Emma~