Days
Weeks
Months
Years
Still you managed to make me smile today
It’s been over a year
My thoughts go back in time
To a time we would just laugh
Endless chatters
Sharing secrets
Careless whispers in the night
Song lists from the heart
Music that made us feel connected
Nights falling asleep sounds in our ears
Words that made us express our deepest desires
Though the puzzle never fit
We tried to find ways
Life decided for us
You were right coffee, no one is to blame
Life is to blame
What do you do when you are searching for yourself? Trying to become the best version of yourself. Meanwhile trying to find who that person truly is. I became lost long ago. Years went by and now finally I am becoming a better version of myself. Disciplining myself, finding ways to become more independent and more confident in everything I do. For so long, I realized I could not truly be in a relationship as an adult, because I still acted like a child. It’s only through the last few years and especially the last few months that I realize that in order to become a better version of myself, I needed to set goals. I needed to discipline myself. I needed to learn or should I say relearn better coping skills, how to be able to communicate properly with others and not try to fall into old patterns. Patterns that were not healthy but instead create new healthier habits. Create healthier coping skills. Learning to communicate my own feelings, my own thoughts, without getting angry or hurt. While also taking into consideration that not everything will go my way. There are just some things that I just need to let go and learn to accept them as nothing more than fleeting memories, fleeting moments, with fleeting people. Friendships live and friendships die. Time will tell but in the end it is I that will be stronger. Which makes all the pain worth all the lessons I needed to learn to grow. It’s hard I won’t pretend it will be easy. Nothing worth having is ever easy.
What is your favorite form of physical exercise?
I love speed walking while listening to jams. It’s probably my favorite because you are outside in the outdoors, listening to music and just not thinking of anything but being inside the moment. Not to mention when you are outside you just feel good especially in the fall and spring, I even love the winter season. But that’s just me maybe not for everyone else.
Who’s gonna tell you when
It’s too late?
Who’s gonna tell you things
Aren’t so great?
You can’t go on, thinking
Nothing’s wrong, oh no
Who’s gonna drive you home
Tonight?
Who’s gonna pick you up
When you fall?
Who’s gonna hang it up
When you call?
Who’s gonna pay attention
To your dreams?
Yeah who’s gonna plug their ears
When you scream?
You can’t go on, thinking
Nothing’s wrong, oh no
Who’s gonna drive you home
Tonight?
(Bye, bye, bye)
(Bye, bye, bye)
(Bye, bye, bye)
(Bye, bye, bye)
Who’s gonna hold you down
When you shake?
Who’s gonna come around
When you break?
You can’t go on, thinking
Nothing’s wrong, oh no
Who’s gonna drive you home
Tonight?
Oh, you know you can’t go on, thinking
Nothing’s wrong
Who’s gonna drive you home
Tonight?
I feel so stupid when we talk. Not because I can’t talk to you but because you make me feel dumb. You say I spin in circles and you are right. I try so hard not to but I am trying to fix that and make it right. I hate the feeling of disappointment I hear in your voice. I hate feeling like no matter what I do you I will never be your choice. I hate that I care. I hate that I become jealous for reasons I can’t explain. I hate that when I talk to you I feel safe. I hate that when I say something you get so mad. I especially hate when you make me laugh. I want to stay mad but can’t. I want to hate you but I can’t. I hate to care and think of you all the time. I know you don’t have feelings but that doesn’t change mine. Lost in the deep sea of reflection. Darkness consuming my mind. Trying to escape in the incoming flood. Lost in the sea of your non existent callous heart. ~Emma~
What’s your all-time favorite album?
There is so much music I love I could never just choose one album as my all-time favorite. That is like picking your all-time favorite food. It is extremely hard to just choose one.
What is your favorite genre of music?
It really does depend on my mood. I can go from listening to Elvis to rap music to sad depressing music. It’s just a mood thing for me. I don’t know if that happens to other people but my mood is 100 percent the deciding factor of what I am going to be listening to.
What is the legacy you want to leave behind?
Words from my poetry that leave a lasting effect on anyone that reads them.
Today is a new day so begin the week with a smile and a positive attitude. No matter how hard life may seem right now you aren’t alone. Remember you are loved. I know things may get dark and I know how it feels to be so broken over things you can’t change. You can change how you react. Stay focused on a positive goal and keep reaching for it. Don’t give up. May this week being you many blessings. ~Emma~
As each day goes by, I am reminded that people are not good. I try to think the good will eventually win I mean I believe in God, so I do believe that good will eventually win. But I also see the darkness that is spreading around. I see it seeping into the souls of people, pettiness, the evil thoughts that they just become. I don’t doubt God I don’t doubt that one day this will all end. It’s impossible for us to continue to walk in this darkness. I do have to say that I am disheartened by the reality of the people that I see in the world. It breaks my heart to see a generation growing up, looking at this future that is just so grim. I do hope that the future is better. I do hope tomorrow is better. I do hope and I will continue to hope that each day gets better. It’s weird when I was young I used to not think so much. As an adult, you’re constantly thinking of everything, thinking of life, thinking the choices you’ve made, thinking of just every single thing. I was once called a romantic because I believe in happy endings. I guess I am the kind of person that does believe that good does prevail at the end of the day, even if that’s not what happens in reality. I think if we lose that hope the grim reality of darkness takes a hold of us and we become the monsters that are running the earth now. I hope tomorrow is a beautiful day not just for you, but also for me. I hope each new day gets better for all of us, and I hope we never lose that hope. Have a blessed night. ~Emma~
Emma the Mizfit 