I pray to the Almighty that He may look over this nation. May He look over all those that come across this post. May He watch over them and draw them closer to Him. Thank you for never leaving my side. Thank you for guiding me in the darkness. Thank you for allowing me to wake up this morning, for my food and everything you bestow on me. For all good times gongs come from you I would be nothing without you. May this night bring peace to all that seek it from You. May their prayers be answered according to Your Will. Let me be able to rest for I am not feeling well. Let Your Almighty hand heal me from whatever this may be but only if it is Your Will. I put myself at Your feet and Your Mercy. I ask all this not by merits or anything I can do but in the Name of Jesus Christ my Lord and Saviour. Amen. đđŒ
Tag: mental health
Birthday
My birthday was the other day and it got me thinking. I am incredibly grateful for each and every single day I wake up. I know everyone doesnât get to do the things that they have or that I have. I know some people donât have the people that they have in their lives and I am extremely lucky to still have my parents and my family involved in my life.
I think after a certain age, you stop actually counting as you go up, but you are incredibly more blessed and thankful. You concentrate more on the things that you do have and not the things that you donât have.
You think of all the ways that you have survived, the battles that you fought and still walked away. With scars and sweat and blood dripping down, it made no difference because you still walked away stronger.
Life is too short to be anything but happy and filled with gratitude. Just because you donât think God exists or is working in your life doesnât mean that he isnât. God is always working in your life. God is always blessing you sometimes itâs just not the way that you expect things to be. So as I go to another year, hopefully with Godâs blessing. I hope Iâm able to do all the things that I wanna do and all the things he wants me to do. I want to show him as my greatest joy in my life because God has always and will always be my greatest love
I canât do anything if God doesnât give me the strength the will and the power to do it. I owe all of the blessings I have to my Lord and Savior. So as I reflect on the year that has passed and the year thatâs coming I hope and pray that this be the year that God grant me the one thing Iâm asking for. But either which way my life is in his hand and itâs all in his timing. ~~always, Emma~~
Summertime
My summer has been good extremely busy season. The dogs are roaring in and out so very busy time for me. Though it is a busy time I do get to enjoy the beauty of summer, then bbqs, the flies that are everywhere, the lantern flies that seem to grow bigger each year. The flowers, the birds, the ants that want invade Lunaâs living area. The heatwave, the air conditioning that I sleep so well in, my room is like a freezer.
There are so many good things and bad things but most of all I am grateful. Regardless of the bugs and the heat the summer is beautiful. It reminds us that nothing last forever and the season will become cold and dark again. So enjoy the moment or season you are in now. It wonât last but make the best of the season and be grateful for it.
You never know what is around the corner of life. So take time out today to thank God for this beautiful day. As they say time doesnât stop and is completely unforgiving to anyone. So take time to be in the moment and sit in gratitude. ~~always, Emma~~
Life update
Itâs been a really busy week. A good time of the year because weâre extremely busy, but my allergies have been making my life hard. I am still grateful for each and every single day that I get to wake up in the morning. I thank God every single day for each and every single moment that I get to spend with my mom, my dad, my sister the dog, working out, eating healthy, and and not trying to spend too much time watching C dramas
I have spent more time this week, not being on TikTok, YouTube, or any other social media platform. Mainly because thereâs a lot of reasons for you to get angry and I donât like to get angry. So for my own peace of mind, I have decided to take some time off of the social media platforms.
I am more focused on my relationship with God than I am about other people and their drama and bringing that person down and all the stuff thatâs so unnecessary right now. Life is difficult enough. We donât really need to be fighting for every single thing. I am trying to get my mom to work out more because sheâs elderly and Iâm trying to prepare her for the cruise next year.
So I spend a lot of time working out with her to get her into shape that makes her more flexible. Not just flexible, but also stronger so that she could have more stamina when weâre walking around. I donât think people realize how hard it is to take care of your parents as they get older. Itâs like dealing with toddlers. Except for toddlers, you can put your foot down but with your parents, theyâre adults and you donât want to belittle them. Theyâve worked hard all their lives, and they do deserve to kind of like sit back. Even if I disagree with all the time that they sit back and take naps.
But I am in a really good headspace right now and I think that is the best part of my life right now. I am becoming more disciplined, focusing more on getting stronger building a foundation and spending time with my family and God.
I hope you are all doing well and I hope you have a wonderful beautiful weekend. Stay blessed.~~ EmmaïżŒ~~
Finding freedom
There is nothing more disappointing than when you have friends and family but realize they donât have your back. Itâs sad but it also reminds us that the only one we can depend on is ourselves. It is better to be reminded of this harsh reality than to constantly think we have others by our side. Itâs the most freeing thing one can imagine. Everything you do, everything you accomplish comes from within you not from someone else. Not from those that doubted you. Not for those that never once believed in you. Not those that thought they would watch you fail. Instead those who were your biggest haters can watch from the back of the stands. Donât acknowledge them, donât even give them the satisfaction of your presence. Instead walk by them like the strangers they are. Freedom is learning to live without the fear of being alone. Embrace it and be free.
ïżŒ Christ is King ïżŒ
Jesus Christ is my Lord and Savior. He has given me, joy. He has led me through the pain. Through my darkest night and times in my life, he led me to the light. As we reflect on this Good Friday, the sacrifice that Jesus Christ did. He bore our sins so that we may have a chance at eternal life. I ask you is something missing in your life? If it is, I ask you to turn to Jesus. Jesus is the way he is the king. He is salvation. I ask you to turn to Jesus and accept the gift that he has given to you. Have a wonderful, beautiful blessed night. He is risen.
To the One with No Name
I donât think about you anymore. I know itâs hard for you to comprehend. I no longer care to have the same worthless conversations about my flaws and shortcomings. I am not perfect never pretended to be anything other than myself.
You are the one that pretended to be someone you arenât. So I go to bed with my conscience completely clear. I donât pretend to be something I am not.
I am a difficult person to love and even more difficult to understand. I am fiercely loyal and willing to move mountains for those whom I love. I am upfront and donât lie about my feelings. I am not fake and will never try to fit into a role because someone else thinks I should. I have my own personal opinions about politics. Jesus Christ is my Lord and Saviour, I will never apologize for that.
I am completely confident in myself. I know I am constantly growing and learning from my mistakes and experiences in life. I canât apologize for the past because it doesnât exist for me. I know you canât understand that and I wonât try to explain it.
I used to think maybe one day you would realize that. That I would always be there for you even in the darkest times of life. But I have mourned our relationship and have buried it.
Just as the dead cannot speak, we move on. The future is before us, will our paths cross again maybe, maybe not. Either way I hold no grudges towards you. You are in very long list of memories or times I no longer visit. Tucked away like a bookmark in a page of a book I will never read again. Always~Emma~
Thank God
Thank you God for waking me up this morning. Thank you for the new day with endless possibilities. Thank you for being there for me. Thank you for everything You have bestowed upon me. I am not worthy of you, All Praise to You my Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ.
Surrounded
Even while sitting by people whom you love doesnât change the fact they donât see you. Doesnât matter how many times you have spoken to them you are still invisible.
I am used to people being this way around me. Doesnât change how much it still hurts. While also making me stronger for each and every single encounter that comes along.
People surround themselves with people just to stop the silence. But I find in the silence I am more comfortable. Is that good thing? I donât really have the answer for that. I do it makes me more comfortable in who I am and not whom others expect me to be.
Itâs extremely important to learn about yourself while also learning to be comfortable around others. Life is never going to go your way. So itâs best to learn how much you care and how much you donât.
That doesnât mean closing everyone off. We need people in our lives. We are built for community. So learning to be alone and learning to be comfortable around others in silence is also good.
One must learn that sometimes just being there can be a blessing. Never stop being the person God made you. Never stop growing and learning from the life He has given you. Smile and filled with gratitude always. ~Emma~
Hope
It should never shock me how cruel people can be but somehow it always shocks me. In the times we live in, itâs extremely easy to become complacent with our environment. One can become completely desensitized at every thing around them. No matter how evil or horrific the stories we hear, we still live our lives unchanged. Getting up each morning, and moving through life like itâs just another day.
Each morning I create a vlog. I post it on YouTube, TikTok, Instagram and Facebook. To everyone else it seems dumb and stupid to post the same greeting each time. It goes âGood morning you wonderful amazing beautiful people I hope you woke up thanking God for the wonderful day He has bestowed on upon you.â
Each day itâs the same I change it up but itâs mostly the same greeting each day. I just want to spread words of comfort to anyone who may come across my story. I donât care if they subscribe, like, or even care about me. I want them to remember to thank God for the beautiful day of life God has given them.
No matter how cruel and evil the world we might live in. I want everyone to start the day with a grateful heart. No matter how small it might be, it will always make a difference in someone elseâs day. I might not be the biggest person on TikTok, YouTube or any other platform but for me making those videos not only helps me, they help to speak to others.
Just a simple post to remind others you are not alone. You might feel alone. You might feel lost. You might feel like complete đ©. You might feel helpless. You might feel hopeless. I once felt that way and with each post I hope anyone that comes across them feels my hope. I know I canât change the world but hopefully they can feel my hope through the screen.
So as I write this I pray that whoever may come across this may find God. God is my hope without Him I would be nothing. He gave me hope when I felt nothing. He gave me hope when I had given up. He gave hope when I declared that my life was worth nothing. He gave me hope and I pray He bestows every single person that comes across my videos or this post, with HOPE.
Times may not always be good but with God there is always hope. So even if every one is cruel and evil, hope for better day. ~Emma~
Emma the Mizfit 