Feelings

Do you need a break? From what?

I need a break from my feelings. I am one of those people that cares about everything and everyone. Constantly worried about people that no longer have a place in my life. I worry about them not knowing if they are okay or doing well. It’s just a super annoying feeling to constantly have feelings about other people. Especially people that can’t even be bothered to care about you. I know I shouldn’t care, I know I shouldn’t worry, I know I should just ignore it all but I still care. So yeah I wish I could take a break from feeling anything. I wish I could be as heartless as others. I wish I could be free from feelings, unfortunately I am not and it is part of who I am.

FaceTime

The most important invention in your lifetime is…

FaceTime it allows you to see your loved ones no matter where they are in the world. Though it will never be the same as holding and hugging the people you love. It gives you the opportunity to speak to them daily. It better than cellphones. Because again you can be with the person see their face enjoy the time together even though you are in different parts of the country or even the world. It’s definitely the greatest invention during my time.

Scars Fade

How do significant life events or the passage of time influence your perspective on life?

Each life event we go through as human beings we either learn and grow from that experience. Or we learn nothing and stay in a perpetual state of victimhood. We are all struggling, fighting our own demons or just simply fighting life. It is through these trials that we become stronger and learn from our past mistakes. Not taking the time to learn from our past mistakes will allow us to continue making the same mistakes over and over again. I have learned in life that we must change our perspective, focus on the goals we wish to obtain and let go of the things that we cannot change. Doing this, I have allowed myself to become stronger and not defined by my past. This has also allowed me to be open about my feelings, my sickness and not hide who I am. It’s given me great strength. It has me freed me to be myself. Growing constantly into a better version of myself. It has given me the confidence that I need to be comfortable in my own skin. I may not be perfect, I am extremely flawed and extremely chaotic but I have learned there’s only one like me. Through time life events are like scars, they never really go away, but they fade. They stay a part of you as a lesson, but overtime you can hardly see them.

White Flag by Dido

I know you think that I shouldn’t still love you

Or tell you that

But if I didn’t say it, well I’d still have felt it

Where’s the sense in that?

I promise I’m not trying to make your life harder

Or return to where we were

I will go down with this ship

And I won’t put my hands up and surrender

There will be no white flag above my door

I’m in love and always will be

I know I left too much mess and

Destruction to come back again

And I caused nothing but trouble

I understand if you can’t talk to me again

And if you live by the rules of it’s over

Then I’m sure that that makes sense

I will go down with this ship

And I won’t put my hands up and surrender

There will be no white flag above my door

I’m in love and always will be

And when we meet

Which I’m sure we will

All that was there

Will be there still

I’ll let it pass

And hold my tongue

And you will think

That I’ve moved on

I will go down with this ship

And I won’t put my hands up and surrender

There will be no white flag above my door

I’m in love and always will be

I will go down with this ship

And I won’t put my hands up and surrender

There will be no white flag above my door

I’m in love and always will be

I will go down with this ship

And I won’t put my hands up and surrender

There will be no white flag abobe my door

I’m in love and always will be

Feminism

What do you complain about the most?

I am always complaining about how feminism has ruined our society. Women have shaped our society into a very weak, passive aggressive, crap talking, sitting in the corner, waiting for the approval of other people to make them feel better about themselves. It’s all about projecting to others how they feel. I know other women will get mad about it but honestly it has become this constant conversation of just strong independent woman that don’t need a man. I am sick of it. I have nephew and two nieces and I fear the society they are growing up in. This is not a good thing. Instead of raising boys to become men, strong and take care of their families, they are raising boys into little girls. It’s insane and what is even more insane is how we have continued to allow this insanity to go on. We have let it happen due to our own tolerance. We are now allowing men into women’s sports, into women’s bathrooms, into women’s changing rooms in the name of tolerance. What even angers me more is the biggest loudest feminist are the ones that are constantly saying you are some sort of “ism” if you don’t believe it. Well as a woman I say woman and men are different. We compliment each other and are made that way on purpose. I do believe the woman belongs at home taking care of the kids. If we had more moms taking care of kids and not dropping them off in public schools to be indoctrinated we would have a better society. Now before everyone starts yelling about how I want women to be abused or something, which I am not saying that. I personally feel that women have not helped our society thrive instead it has destroyed the one thing that kept our society thriving. Women were made to be the care givers of the home. My mom is loved us, my dad provided for us. She is our rock, she our foundation, she is the heart of our home. That is what every mom should be but today that is not celebrated that is not the standard. That is where women have failed. Now I want to be clear I wasn’t always thinking this way, it wasn’t till I got older I saw the errors in my thinking. As I have grown and learned more I saw the truth. I am not asking for women to be treated as a second class citizen or to be hiding and not talking. I again believe that feminism is what destroyed what is means to truly be a woman. It has downgraded us and now future generations will have to pay for our mistakes.

Sports

What are your favorite sports to watch and play?

My favorite sport to watch is football. I also like watching hockey mainly because it’s super violent and there is always a fight that breaks out. 🤣 I probably would love watching the UFC fights but it becomes too graphic with the fight so I am in between those two stages. I don’t play sports at all.

Farm life

What would you do if you won the lottery?

I would buy a huge farm where I can grow my own food, have lots of dogs, chickens and other animals. Hire people to help me run the farm. I would rescue of bunch of the dogs from the shelter. Yeah even save some of the them cats at the shelter. Build a grand house where my whole family can live. But also build different guest houses on the property so they can stay, while also having privacy for themselves. Though while staying they would have to do tasks around the farm to earn their stay. We would all have to eat dinner together as one family. I know it’s crazy coming from a girl that grew up in the city but honestly I think that would be the best life.

Dune series

What books do you want to read?

There are so many books I want to read. The last book I read was Dune I want to read the second book. I have bought all the books in the dune series. So it’s just a matter of making time to sit down and read them. I was able to read the first Dune book because I traveled by car to Florida, long drive. But I haven’t had a chance to get enough time to read the rest in the series. I keep telling myself I will but have yet to find time.

MOMA

Name an attraction or town close to home that you still haven’t got around to visiting.

MOMA also known as the Museum of Modern Art. I live right by the City but have yet to actually visit that museum. It’s crazy that someone can live right next to something so many visitors visit yearly and here I am not sure why I haven’t visited. 🤣 It’s on my list of things to do before I leave this area but still haven’t done it. In fairness there are a lot of attractions by me. But yes it is on my list to see before I permanently leave and I will visit it one day just not yet. There are a few places I would like to visit in this area before I leave.