Tag: loyalty

Expectations

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Why is loyalty an expensive expectation? It’s not like it’s not earned. It is something you have to work for and when it’s given to you, it should be cherished. Yet so many are not loyal. Not loyal friends not loyal to their family not loyal to their country Not loyal to their partners.

If I myself asking this question over and over again, why can’t people be loyal? Is it because of the disloyalty of Adam and Eve? Are we meant to carry the same sin of disloyalty towards others?

It might be that simple maybe not I could be wrong. I hope Someone proves me wrong. If not, I will die knowing that loyalty is something many just don’t get.

Chasing you? Nope that’s a hard pass!

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Disappointed is some thing I have become very familiar with. Just when you start to feel comfortable around people you find out that they are complete jerks. You want to try to do your best, you wanna to fit in but when you realize that you don’t, it’s doesn’t seem to matter as much. As I have gotten older I realize that I’m more comfortable in my skin. As time flows by I realize that the people that I want in my life, won’t ask to be in it. If you don’t want to be in my life, leave. I will never ask you to be in it. If you feel that you want to leave, I am not going to hold you back. I want you to be able to want to stay. I don’t want to be second place, I don’t wanna be the default choice I want to be the one that you choose. If you can’t do that, and if you feel like you’re missing out then by all means walk away. If you think that I’m going to sit here and beg you to stay, you’re wrong. I’m an extremely loyal person and if I can’t get that loyalty back, I don’t want you in my life. It’s not about making the wrong choices. It’s about knowing my worth and I know I am worthy of being loved and being happy. Surrounded by people that want to be with me. Surrounded by people that love me for me. Surrounded by people that accept me for me.

People are like seasons, in the summer you feel the heat of some peoples love. In the winter, you feel the chill and cold you see the real face of people that hide it so much to not show. In the spring, you might find the warmth of the sun that makes you think people can change. Like a rose that is blooming. But just like the autumn season, you see the beautiful colors of change and right before winter the leaves die, the flowers die, and everything dies right before the cold of winter. People are exactly the same way. You may never get to see their real cold side. You may never get to see the blooming rose in the spring and you may never feel the heat of summer, but you definitely get to feel the autumn right before the winter when everything has died.

Some things need to be let go of, I won’t hold you to your word. I won’t even try to win you back. I won’t even try to talk to you to reason with you. Because in the end I chose me. And my choice, I chose to walk away. Because in the end you are not worth fighting for. If you feel, I am not worth fighting for I think we are exactly where we are supposed to be. On the opposite of friendship. You make time for the people who mean something to you. Let this be a lesson to learn that letting go or walking away is more powerful than being surrounded by snakes.

I wish you the best always ~Emma~

What do I value?

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What’s the trait you value most about yourself?

I am myself all the time, I think it’s the most valuable trait. It also comes with a downside. Everyone always talks about how they want someone who is themselves and not trying to be anyone else. But the cold hard truth is men like to buy the lie. Girls that are lying to them, using them, girls that will have sex with them on the first night. They say they have standards but the truth is they don’t. A pretty face with a hot body and that’s it, they are all after you. Five month later they wonder why the relationship didn’t work. Turns out she was a nasty bit*h that was only using you for whatever she wanted. I am who I am and only grow to be a better version of myself. I am completely unpredictable, and even chaotic at times but always myself.

Why bother?

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Trying to get through the week. It’s only Tuesday and I am so over it. Heading to bed wondering why I even care. Care for people that are selfish and only care for themselves. I put myself out there because I am told over and over again not everyone is the same. In my most recent years I have learned that’s exactly what people are all the same. There is not point in trying to build relationships with people. Regardless if it’s friendship or anything else today people are cold and uncaring. Save yourself because no one cares. I speak a lot about being the change you want to see in the world. I want to still hold on to that but I am afraid my faith is falling. I have been hurt too many times to think anyone is different. So I end my night with this post I hope your week is better than mine. ~Emma~

Broken Trust : written by Emmanuelle-Rose Grace

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Black arrows go piercing through the night

Screaming in agony as blood pours out her mouth

The shots piercing close to the heart

Hiding in the shadows she tries to run

He points the arrows to hit again

With disgust in his eyes

Tears fall as she cries

Pleading and begging for her life

He leans back with his bow

Shoots her right through the leg

She falls to the ground

No expression as he walks down

The death of her merely an inconvenience he tries to say

Abandoned and laying in a pool of blood

Her eyes filled with suffering the unbearable pain

She looks to the star filled sky as her breathing starts to fade

Looking down at her

He bends down to whisper words for her to hear

“You were never worthy of being here with me”

He reaches and grabs one more arrow

His hand sweeps her tear filled face

He sticks the arrow deep within her heart

Tear stained cheeks as life leaves her behind

With pity he looks back his head facing down

Sorry for the chaos of putting her down

Sorrow sweeps into his heart

The smell of her scent

The way she smiled

The way she laughed

The way she felt in his arms

The memories rush to him like hitting a brick wall

But as cold as ice he simply pushes them away

He no longer can afford to care

No one will get that close he vows to the sky

She is the last one to ever make him feel alive

Consumed by death he walks away

Never to return to the way of light

He walks in the darkness never to see the day

For the light he once held is gone and dead

No longer left to shine in his world

Walking back he tries to forget her face

But he looks back one more time and turns away.

I don’t know why by Imagine Dragons

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We could be strangers in the night

We could be passing in the shadows

We couldn’t be closer if we tried

When we’re caught in the headlights

We could be faces in the crowd

We could be passing in the shadows

Upping the risk of being found

When we’re caught in the headlights

Dangerous

Your love is always dangerous

And now I’m lost in us

We’re livin’ in a lying trust

I don’t know why, but I guess it’s got something to do with you

To do with you

I don’t know why, but I guess it’s got something to do with you

To do with you

I was a faking alibi

Trading the truth in for a lie, oh

We were the essence of desire

And we’re caught in the headlights

Dangerous

Your love is always dangerous

And now I’m lost in us

We’re livin’ in a lying trust

I don’t know why, but I guess it’s got something to do with you

To do with you

I don’t know why, but I guess it’s got something to do with you

To do with you (I don’t know why)

I don’t know why, but I guess it’s got something to do with you (I don’t know)

To do with you (I don’t know why)

I don’t know why, but I guess it’s got something to do with you

To do with you

That you love me

Tell me that you love me

Tell me that you love me

Tell me that you love me

Tell me that you love me (dangerous)

Tell me that you love me

Tell me that you love me (your love is always dangerous)

Tell me that you love me

I don’t know why

I don’t know why, but I guess it’s got something to do with you (I don’t know)

To do with you (I don’t know why)

I don’t know why, but I guess it’s got something to do with you (do with, do with, do with)

To do with you (I don’t know why)

I don’t know why, but I guess it’s got something to do with you (I don’t know)

To do with you (I don’t know why)

I don’t know why, but I guess it’s got something to do with you

To do with you

Mood right now: Follow you by Imagine Dragons

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You know I got your number, number all night

I’m always on your team, I got your back, alright

Taking those, taking those losses if it treats you right

I wanna put you into the spotlight

If the world would only know what you’ve been holding back

Heart attacks every night

Oh, you know it’s not right

I will follow you way down wherever you may go

I’ll follow you way down to your deepest low

I’ll always be around wherever life takes you

You know I’ll follow you

Call you up, you’ve been crying, crying all night

You’re only disappointed in yourself, alright

Taking those, taking those losses if it treats you right

I wanna take you into the sunlight

If the world would only know what you’ve been holding back

Heart attacks every night

Oh, you know it’s not right

I will follow you way down wherever you may go

I’ll follow you way down to your deepest low

I’ll always be around wherever life takes you

You know I’ll follow you

La-da-da-da-da-da, la-da-da-da-da-da

La-da-da-da-da-da, you know I’ll follow you

La-da-da-da-da-da, wherever life takes you

You know I’ll follow you

You’re not the type to give yourself enough love

She live her life, hand in a tight glove

I wish that I could fix it, I could fix it for you

But instead I’ll be right here comin’ through

(Right here coming through)

I will follow you way down wherever you may go (I’ll follow you)

I’ll follow you way down to your deepest low

I’ll always be around wherever life takes you (I’ll follow you)

You know I’ll follow you

La-da-da-da-da-da, la-da-da-da-da-da

La-da-da-da-da-da, you know I’ll follow you

La-da-da-da-da-da, wherever life takes you

You know I’ll follow you

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“You knew what you were doing and you know it would hurt me but somehow that still didn’t stop you.”

Dear friend: written by Emmanuelle-Rose Grace

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Dear “friend”, I want to say thank you for we no longer speak. Time has passed us by and friends we never really were you see. Things change, I have changed, my heart no longer cares for any of you. It’s strange you love something till you find out it wasn’t worth your time and it never was. You learn to let go not because you have forgotten the hurt or pain but because you no longer need them at all. They no longer exist in your life. You learned a valuable lesson that your “friend” may never see but wish them well. Never look back with regret and don’t forget the only one with the power is yourself. This “friend” I write about doesn’t exist they never did. Complete figment of my imagination because the truth is, real friends would be there for you, only figments of our imagination never existed in our life. So let go of the lie this friend never existed. Tomorrow when you open your eyes it’s your world no one else’s. So erase the figment of your imagination and dive into a new world free from the lie. Stop wasting time on shadows that never existed live in the present with the love around you. Sincerely, the Black Rose

You know Nothing!!!

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Today was a long day. Sitting here about to have a conversation with God and wanted to drop few lines. I finished reading the first Dune book. It was really good and I really enjoyed it. I am looking forward to the next book in the series. I watched the whole Tim Pool/Kayne thing last night. My heart goes out to Kayne. Unfortunately, the world is extremely cruel to ppl with a mental illness disorder. They don’t understand and they are extremely dismissive about anything coming from someone that has any mental health issue. I really do feel for him because unlike many others that assume to know how it feels or understand, you don’t. It’s not easy and you can be compassionate, understanding and love the person that suffers. But at the end of the day you have no clue how hard it is for them to fight to be heard. You have no idea how hard life is for them. You can watch all you like and judge however you like. But unless you are suffering and fighting every day with mental health problems you have no idea. So please do me a favor to all the ppl that think they know….shut up! You know nothing. What that person needs is love, kindness, compassion, understanding, to feel like they are heard and God. If you can’t be any of those things in that person’s life stfu and walk away. I have zero tolerance for ppl that pretend to know how it feels or how they think it is. You have no clue, so stop. My prayers go out to Kayne and all of you whom suffer from any mental disorder. It’s not an easy fight. You fight each and every day but don’t give up. You are not alone. Never forget you are not alone!!! I might be one but together we are many. Always, Emma~