Sometimes we try to make things fit together when they don’t belong together. Sometimes we try so hard that we forget somethings were never meant to be. It’s hard to admit, we think we can control things, only to learn we control nothing. It’s something we all must learn the hard way. Either through pain, tears or just experiences. We control nothing but ourselves and even that is hard sometimes. Learning to try and control your emotions, feelings, crazy outbursts or drama is hard. For myself it seems sometimes like a never ending battle to try to gain control of myself. I hate feeling pain and rejection, it’s something no one ever gets used to. Pain you learn to just embrace without letting it drown you. On the other hand rejection makes you feel as though you did something wrong. You ask yourself, what is it about myself that makes me not likable. Sometimes it might be your fault, allowing the wrong people in, allowing people that don’t deserve your love. This isn’t about being better than another person it’s about finding out sometimes some things are not worth fighting for. Time pardons no one and doesn’t wait for one to get their crap together. We must learn to move forward without looking back. It’s okay to learn from our mistakes and grow from them but it’s better to not dwell there. I know how hard it is, I myself am trying my hardest to move forward without looking back. I don’t want to let go but unfortunately like I said before time pardons no one. Life continues to move forward we must learn to do the same. Either we move forward or stay the same, doom to repeat the same mistakes. Have a beautiful weekend. ~Emma~
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Spencer greatest Frenchie ever!!!!
Today I found out I need to put my baby boy (dog) Spencer to sleep. I wish I could be more joyful but unfortunately this post won’t be joyful just sad. This little Frenchie came into my life 10 years ago. He was a whirlwind of just love and energy. He slept on my bed on his pillow that I had given him with his sheets. The sheets consisted of a pink playboy blanket that was super soft that he loved. On top of him he had a Tinkerbell blanket or the Dallas Cowboys blanket. He loved sleeping with them because my room was cold. We used to go for walks in the park and he loved walking. As he got older he would get more tired but he still loved walking even if he could hardly breathe on our walks. My sister lost her dog two years after I got Spencer. While she was grieving her loss I would let Spencer comfort her. It did cause a bit of struggle between us because she basically took ownership of him. But Spencer in the end had two mothers that loved him more than life itself. He continues to fight so I just pray that God have mercy and put him to rest. It will be painful to live without him but I wouldn’t trade one moment with him for not having this pain. The pain in my heart just reminds me how much I love him. In the end it is all worth the sadness and grief. So my message on this warm night is to be present in life and enjoy each moment for nothing last forever but the love we give each other. Have a beautiful day/night. ~Emma~
When is the last time you took a risk? How did it work out?
A few weeks ago I told someone I liked them. They wanted to remain friends. I don’t regret it at all we are still friends and we can still just chat for hours. I would regret never telling them how I felt. I would rather feel pain for a minute than live with regret my whole life. Our life on this earth is too short to live with a mountain of regret. So even if it might cause you pain I say take the risk, you will never know how the story might go if you never try.
Start the day with a smile 😊
There will always be those people in the world that relish in causing misery. They don’t enjoy seeing other people happy or mildly content. It’s like some thing they refuse to comprehend. Instead of changing their own perspective. They dwell in the mentality that my life is crap so who cares. It’s an extremely narcissistic view of life and completely selfish. It’s quite sad when you think about it. Life is too short to be mad and hateful towards anyone. We all carry our own burdens and inner demons, that we must fight each day. Most don’t seem to understand that there are so many opportunities to find happiness in the little things. Such as the beauty of the day that you have just started. Instead, they’re too busy focusing on poor me and my woes. So today, I hope you have a wonderful beautiful day regardless of the crappy people in the world whom try to cause misery. I hope your day is filled with sunshine and rainbows. I hope that it will be a beautiful bright day for you. I also hope that you make someone else smile today. Be the change you want to see in the world. And maybe just maybe things will change for the better. ~Emma~
Life lessons
This week has been extremely hard and long. Super busy working and still somehow getting sucked into drama that just shouldn’t include me. As I sit on this Sabbath in a state of rest reminding myself that God only allows what we can handle. We forget that we are made stronger by each and every single event in our life. I know it might seem like a struggle, it sure as hell does feel that way for me. But we must never give up. We must keep fighting. So today I ask you to take time for yourself. Take time to reflect, to mediate, to pray, to speak to God, be one with yourself. Allow healing to come into you and allow God’s power to strengthen you to keep fighting. Because you are loved and you are not alone. Have a beautiful blessed day. ~Emma~
Don’t be afraid
Even if you express your affection to someone and they reject it. Don’t give up, someone else will accept you. So never be afraid of telling someone you like them. It makes you courageous and teaches you accept rejection with grace. Learning and growing is a part of the human experience. We must all learn and grow if not we will never be the best version of ourselves. So never stop growing, never stop learning and even in the face of rejection remember you are stronger today than you were yesterday. Everything happens for a reason, so embrace your chaos. Courage is not found in hiding who you are. Courage is found being confident in who you have become. Grow, learn and be the best version of yourself. Have a beautiful blessed day. ~Emma~
Never give up
Never stop being the best version of yourself. Many will try to change you. Many will find ways to convince you that you are not good enough. Many will try to let you believe that you are too broken to be loved. Don’t let that thinking keep you from shining the light God put inside you. Instead keep fighting the darkness that is trying to destroy you. Only you can fight that darkness. Only you have the power to keep fighting. Stay strong. You are not alone. ~Emma~
How would you improve your community?
In the mental community I would like to keep spreading positivity and trying to encourage others to seek help. Many don’t seek help because they are afraid of being labeled. Also they will be considered weak. Not to mention the amount of people that refuse to get help because they will lose their right to bare arms.
How have you adapted to the changes brought on by the Covid-19 pandemic?
I started paying attention to politics right before Trump got elected. But after COVID the tyranny I saw happening during that time by some of our politicians really changed the way I view freedom. God gave me my rights not the government. Politicians have the power We the People give them, it’s time for We the People need to take the power back. Because it’s clear the government can’t help us. It must be our responsibility as Americans fight for our freedom and our rights. I also learned during the COVID thing is life is short and we must embrace the beauty of life before it’s gone. Be the change you want to see in the world.
Mental health
Honestly I am so sick of this attack on anyone that calls out mental illness. I refuse to be silent and I refuse to allow others to tell me what they think I should say. I have suffered for many years with mental illness. It’s not my fault y’all want to continue allowing ppl to step on you because you refuse to call it out for what it is. A turd is still a turd no matter how pretty you dress it up. You talk about compassion, you speak about being kind well allowing a mentally ill person to not get help for their delusion isn’t compassionate at all. You are part of the problem you are the reason many won’t seek the help they need. Afraid you might offend someone at least be honest with yourself. This isn’t about helping it’s about being afraid of what others will label you. Well I tell you as I sit here writing this you can call me whatever you like. I refuse to allow anyone to put me in a box or label on me. I am not afraid because God has my back. The fact that y’all can’t even call a mental illness for what is it makes me know for a fact y’all are on the wrong side of history. There is nothing wrong with being sick it’s about getting help and finding ways to deal with life in a healthy way. If you can’t speak that truth you are completely in the darkness and there is no helping you. Not because you can’t get help but because you have chosen to stay in the darkness. ~Emma~
Emma the Mizfit 