What could you do less of?
Share less about myself. I am trying to grow into a better version of myself. I have learned that some mysteries are better left not knowing. It builds the intrigue of the person. The only way to accomplish that is by learning to stay silent. So thatâs exactly what I am trying to do.
What is one thing you would change about yourself?
I have grown into a better version of myself. I have learned from my mistakes and changed my perspective on life. I think itâs easy for us to forget that in order for us to keep moving forward. We need to focus on something greater than ourselves.
I am learning to be more confident in myself and more comfortable in my own skin. If there is one thing I can change about myself, it would be to stay more silent.
I was once told by an old acquaintance that sometimes it is better to not say anything or be comfortable in the silence. I never understood what he meant until I started taking time for myself in the silence.
There is such power being in silence and not having to fill the silence with words that mean nothing. Taking time to reflect or be comfortable in the silence is extremely powerful.
I never got to share that with him, that he taught me an extremely important lesson. And though our paths may never cross again, I am grateful that he did teach me such an important lesson.
Sometimes being in the quietness amongst the chaos of the world is absolute freedom.
So if I have to change about myself it would be to spend more time in the silence. Thinking my own thoughts, listening to the words of other people around me just being comfortable in the silence.
What’s the hardest decision you’ve ever had to make? Why?
Letting go of someone I loved with all my heart. Why? Because sometimes what we want and what other people want isnât the same thing. So you have to let go.
Itâs one of the hardest things you may ever have to do. But it is also one of the best things you can do for yourself.
When you have lost all interest in everyone around you simply because youâre fkin tired of đ đ©!
One of the most annoying things about people during the holiday season is how selfish some people can be. They donât even realize how selfish they are acting. They going around not helping others while they party, go to dinners, go shopping while others are working their asses off trying to get everything ready.
People constantly say itâs team work that gets the job done. But team work consists of you actually having to put in the work for the team. You deciding to walk away and complaining about stuff not getting done isnât teamwork.
Itâs this selfish attitude that really gets under my skin. Not only itâs not productive for anyone to advance. It frustrates the ones going out of their way to try and make life better.
If I can offer some advice donât wait for someone to ask for help. Helping others not only helps the person you offer the help to but it helps your soul. Helping others is food for the soul. So during this season as we approach the giving season. Learn to give to others. Donât expect anything from others, do it because you want to do it. If youâre incapable of doing that, well I canât help you.
Have a good day. ~Emma~
Who are your current most favorite people?
Dogs are my favorite. I would say âpeopleâ suck. Dogs are like little angels that just help in life.
If you could meet a historical figure, who would it be and why?
Thereâs so many people like that are historical figures that I would love to meet of course Jesus Christ, King David, King Solomon, Moses. But if I was to look outside of the Bible maybe it would be Cleopatra, William Shakespeare, Beethoven, maybe even Monet. Also, I would love to have met Elvis Presley. So out of that list who would it be and why, I think I would go king David.
King David was obviously a king that suffered and struggled with his love for God. His love for God was so deep that it was ingrained in him and he fought to be a good king, but also fell into doing bad things. But it never changed his admiration and love for God.
As a fellow Christian and fellow sinner, I find David as the most interesting and relatable person in the whole Bible. He represents something thatâs bigger than what we understand and itâs something I can relate to in my own life.
I love God. God is my center. He is my foundation without him, I am nothing and though I am a flawed individual. God has given me this love in me that I just surrender everything. I am to him itâs beautiful and that is why I would choose David. Because again, even though David is flawed, he loved God so much that Jesus Christ refers to him as the one after my own heart in the New Testament. That is something that I strive for to be the one after Jesus Christâs own heart.
I asked last year around September for guidance from God. My prayer is what one of the books I read would be called âdangerous prayersâ.
Itâs not dangerous prayers that cause any danger. But itâs more along the line praying for something and not knowing how much time it will take or what you will lose in the process. Learning that itâs not going to be given in your time nor the way you want it.
A lot of Christians donât really believe in dangerous prayers I am one of the ones that has seen dangerous prayers answered over and over again..
Again, dangerous prayers are not causing danger or even asking for some sort of dangerous activity to happen. I guess you can say itâs more of be careful what youâre praying for because you might actually get what you prayed for.
So like I said last September 2023 I prayed for God to guide me closer to him no matter what. In the prayer, I asked God if there is anything in my life that is distracting me or pulling me away from you I want it removed. I donât care what I lose or the pain caused I want to be closer to You oh Lord.
So a couple months go by and I started seeing people that I was close to just kind of like disappear. So it started with a person I was close to. We spoke daily a lot and as time went on, I started to see a shift and at first I wanted to ignore it pretend like thatâs not whatâs going on, but then I started to see the distance and it was clear.
After we stop speaking and months went by earlier this year, I started to realize it was God pulling that person out of my life. The reason that God pulled that person out of my life was because that person was a distraction. Someone might say that thatâs cruel to say. But for me, my goal has always been to get closer to God. My life mission has always been to be one of Godâs Warriors.
So here we are in November 2024, a year has passed and I havenât spoken to this person in a good 10 or 11 months. Do I miss the person? Yeah sometimes. But I have also learned to mourn the relationship and move on.
Just today another thing that I loved doing became meh. I wasnât excited I wasnât thrilled to be doing it. I just felt nothing. One must be prepared that when you ask for something and you ask obstacles or anything to be removed, they will be removed. Your love for them will be taken away. Your desire to be filled with them will be destroyed if thatâs what you asked for.
There are other things that have changed. My love for a lot of things have changed. I spend more time in prayer, more time writing, more time in self-reflection, learning more about myself, and learning to grow from my past mistakes.
It is in this waiting season that I have learned that God has stripped away a lot of distractions from my life. Things that I held onto that I didnât even think were distractions, but they were. They were distractions from me, developing a relationship with God and for me developing into a better individual for myself, for my family, for society, and for God.
It is in this waiting season that I have learned to let go of things that donât matter. I have learned to forgive those that hurt me in the past. I have learned that the most important thing in life is to cherish each and every single moment you are alive.
I have learned to embrace each and every single moment. Whether itâs spending a Sunday cleaning with my niece, nephew, my sister, my mom, my dad and my brother, in the garage hanging up Christmas lights. Whether itâs spending Sabbath with my family and drinking cappuccinos with the new Nespresso machine. Itâs in those little moments that weâre making memories that will last a lifetime. Itâs in those moments that we are truly living life.
I donât know what tomorrow might bring but I definitely know. I trust God to bring me through tomorrow.
So has God answered my dangerous prayer? The answer to that is yes and no. He is definitely answering the prayer. I just havenât gotten to the end yet.
I did ask for more than just becoming closer to God. That was my main prayer and still my main objective. But thereâs one little part of that prayer that Iâm waiting for. I have constantly waited, and God has referred to this moment as the waiting season.
Sometimes we become impatient during the waiting season, but we have to remember that when you ask for something from God heâs going to deliver. Whether itâs through a dangerous prayer like I said before or just a prayer he will answer.
I know a lot of people donât believe in dangerous prayers. But I can tell you based on my own history dangerous prayers are real just be careful and be ready for the consequences of asking such prayers. Itâs all about trust baby. Itâs all about trust and having faith in Jesus Christ to answer your prayer.
Remember, God always answers in his time not our own. ïżŒ
I hope this is a lesson for you to learn and I hope you have a wonderful, beautiful blessed week. Love always, Emma. ïżŒ
Do you trust your instincts?
I absolutely trust my instincts without a doubt. I was one that used to doubt myself and my own instincts. But as I got older and more aware of how people behave it became extremely clear.
We all meet people the kind of people that donât sit right with us. Itâs not judging them without knowing them or anything like that. Itâs more like something inside you is telling you, something about this person gives off this strange vibe.
We write it off as being paranoid or just thinking about it too much. Later on we find out boom the person wasnât trust worthy, and completely backstabbed you.
I used to a be a firm believer give everyone a chance. If I am kind and loving they will be the same. Instead I lost a lot of time on people that didnât deserve to be in my life. I even lost myself for a time, chasing after a bunch of losers I thought were friends. They werenât friends, they were users.
You know the kind of people that use you for a time and then turn their back on you like if you meant nothing.
That is because you meant nothing to them. You were replaced with someone else. People like this donât deserve to be in your life. Even if they have changed and you meet again wish them luck and move on.
I feel strongly that our basic instincts are God given and Him speaking to us. But we are so used to thinking that canât be true. I strongly believe and feel that your instincts turn out right because it was God warning you. So instead of not listening to our instincts we need to learn to trust them. Because there is a reason God gave us this gift. Learn to use it to protect yourself.
I have learned many lessons the older I got and the first lesson was always trust my instincts. Because every single time it has been right. Hope you all have a beautiful day.
What was your favorite subject in school?
I think I love learning about history. Especially if you have a good history teacher that always makes it fun. Now I will say when I went back to college to finish getting my degree history has changed. Itâs not that history has changed but the way the history is taught had changed. You could see while the professor would speak he wasnât just teaching the class it was about inserting his own political beliefs while teaching about history.
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