Be yourself

If you could be someone else for a day, who would you be, and why?

I know this is going to sound silly but honestly I wouldn’t want to be someone else. What has made me unique, what has made me, ME, are my life experiences. The dark times I have gone through, the happy times and the times of complete insanity shaped me into who I am today. I love completely, I hide nothing, I trust easily, I try to live with no regrets and move forward. I have an open heart and don’t hide my feelings well. I don’t act fake and won’t pretend to be fake. It is a weakness and a strength. So I wouldn’t want to be someone else even for a day.

Advice to my teen self…

What advice would you give to your teenage self?

The advice I would give myself as a teenager would be, “don’t allow anyone to control you. That starts by learning to not react to others. Learn self discipline and learn to control yourself. Learn that you can’t change anyone. Learn that you can’t control the circumstances of life. Learn to grow from each situation. Each thing that happens in life will be for a reason, even if you can’t see that now. Allowing your emotions to cloud your mind, leads to you making choices you might never have chosen if you had a clear mind. So allow yourself time to reflect. Allow yourself time to hurt. Allow yourself time to be alone, away from others. Allow yourself to be comfortable in the quietness of yourself. Never give anyone the power over you and that can only start by controlling yourself. Most of all don’t forget that no matter what, you are never truly alone. God will always be with you.”

Growing old

What were your parents doing at your age?

Getting older and sicker as they grow old. We take our parents for granted forgetting one day they will no longer be around. I want to enjoy as much time with them before they are gone. Hear all the stories of the past and learn things from each memory they share with me. Keep and cherish our time together. Because tomorrow isn’t promised but today we can hold onto each other and share the moment.

Evil is what you are…

Yesterday another shooter with gun in a “church”. It’s not the guns fault a lunatic decided to shoot a church. It’s not the fault of the gun that a lunatic decided he was going to shoot Christians. It wasn’t the guns fault a lunatic decided to point the gun into people just because they don’t believe his stupid ideology. I am sick and tired of people constantly blaming guns. It’s not the guns. The problem stems from the lack of God in people’s lives. This lunatic decided to do this because they are evil. Evil exists and instead of calling it evil we paint a brush over it calling it mental illness. This isn’t just a mental health problem it’s a problem that is based in a society that has completely forgotten its moral foundation. Our society lacks the basic morals of a functioning society. It saddens me that people use the tag mental health when this is evil. This man was evil, what he did was evil. He has no morals. He has no humanity for the life of other people. He deserves to be in cage all his life and treated like the animal he is. Evil is not mental illness nor is mental illness evil. If you have a mental health issue and decide to not get help but to continue to live in a delusional world, encouraged by people feeding into your delusions, you are evil and so are they. It’s time people start holding this evil accountable and stop blaming everyone in the mental health community. This lunatic is evil and I pray to God that people learn a lesson from this man. He is evil and everyone that encourages this type of behavior is just as evil. #eviliswhatyouare

Changing laws

If you had the power to change one law, what would it be and why?

If I had the power to change one law it would be every United States Citizen can carry a gun no matter what state. No matter where, inside the USA every citizen that has not committed a crime should be able to carry. I think this alone will not only benefit the country it will also help females. Especially from getting killed or raped if they were allowed to carry. A civil free society is one that knows every citizen can carry a gun. People are less likely to commit a crime if they don’t know if anyone else is carrying a weapon. Again this is based on my belief that God grants us the right to free speech as well the right to bear arms. It should not be decided by anyone else. We are constitutional republic and our constitution specifically states God grants this right, not the state, not the government nor any politician. This is a right we all have and should constantly be fighting for. For a citizen without the right to protect themselves allows for us to become completely dependent on the government which we know is corrupt.

Favorite Candy

What’s your favorite candy?

Favorite candy that’s a hard one. I love smarties they are my favorite. They are pure sugar and are so not good for you. But I did love them and are probably still my favorite candy. I don’t eat a lot of candy. I have chocolate in moderation but candy I really don’t eat anymore.

Feelings

Do you need a break? From what?

I need a break from my feelings. I am one of those people that cares about everything and everyone. Constantly worried about people that no longer have a place in my life. I worry about them not knowing if they are okay or doing well. It’s just a super annoying feeling to constantly have feelings about other people. Especially people that can’t even be bothered to care about you. I know I shouldn’t care, I know I shouldn’t worry, I know I should just ignore it all but I still care. So yeah I wish I could take a break from feeling anything. I wish I could be as heartless as others. I wish I could be free from feelings, unfortunately I am not and it is part of who I am.

FaceTime

The most important invention in your lifetime is…

FaceTime it allows you to see your loved ones no matter where they are in the world. Though it will never be the same as holding and hugging the people you love. It gives you the opportunity to speak to them daily. It better than cellphones. Because again you can be with the person see their face enjoy the time together even though you are in different parts of the country or even the world. It’s definitely the greatest invention during my time.

Scars Fade

How do significant life events or the passage of time influence your perspective on life?

Each life event we go through as human beings we either learn and grow from that experience. Or we learn nothing and stay in a perpetual state of victimhood. We are all struggling, fighting our own demons or just simply fighting life. It is through these trials that we become stronger and learn from our past mistakes. Not taking the time to learn from our past mistakes will allow us to continue making the same mistakes over and over again. I have learned in life that we must change our perspective, focus on the goals we wish to obtain and let go of the things that we cannot change. Doing this, I have allowed myself to become stronger and not defined by my past. This has also allowed me to be open about my feelings, my sickness and not hide who I am. It’s given me great strength. It has me freed me to be myself. Growing constantly into a better version of myself. It has given me the confidence that I need to be comfortable in my own skin. I may not be perfect, I am extremely flawed and extremely chaotic but I have learned there’s only one like me. Through time life events are like scars, they never really go away, but they fade. They stay a part of you as a lesson, but overtime you can hardly see them.