What do you say to a person that is your friend that you may have feelings for them? You don’t want to ruin what you have but you can feel all these things you never knew you felt. Stupid I know, that’s what I keep saying. Don’t fall into old patterns. And it’s stupid because he is not like any other person I have ever met. Is it stupid? Am I crazy? To feel like I genuinely like them. I don’t know maybe I am stupid and completely reckless with my heart. But it’s like when we speak, even speaking of him being with another person, my heart feels something. It’s dumb I know. I just don’t know anymore. He makes me question everything. He makes me feel like I can achieve my goals. I can find my own happiness and it just feels like he takes joy in me becoming a better person. I know I shouldn’t even entertain the ideas, if I do it will just mess up our friendship. I love our friendship I don’t want to ruin that I want to be honest and just love him. Maybe just being his friend is enough love and not expecting anything back. I am stupid I know but I do know I don’t want us to not be friends. He is extremely important to me and I can’t lose him. Not over emotions that I am sure he doesn’t have. So I will stay positive and allow time to do it’s thing. Just working on myself. Yes I am sharing my own personal crazy thoughts. I hope the new day brings you much love and a beautiful day. Remember be the reason smiles today. ~Emma~
Tag: letting go
Words to live by
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Dear friend: written by Emmanuelle-Rose Grace
Dear “friend”, I want to say thank you for we no longer speak. Time has passed us by and friends we never really were you see. Things change, I have changed, my heart no longer cares for any of you. It’s strange you love something till you find out it wasn’t worth your time and it never was. You learn to let go not because you have forgotten the hurt or pain but because you no longer need them at all. They no longer exist in your life. You learned a valuable lesson that your “friend” may never see but wish them well. Never look back with regret and don’t forget the only one with the power is yourself. This “friend” I write about doesn’t exist they never did. Complete figment of my imagination because the truth is, real friends would be there for you, only figments of our imagination never existed in our life. So let go of the lie this friend never existed. Tomorrow when you open your eyes it’s your world no one else’s. So erase the figment of your imagination and dive into a new world free from the lie. Stop wasting time on shadows that never existed live in the present with the love around you. Sincerely, the Black Rose
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Love you
Just because I love you doesn’t mean I want to.
Listening to music can be the most therapeutic thing for me at times
Narcissist by: Avery Anna
Out of touch with my feelings
I can’t help it if I’m happy or sad
Today I cried for no reason
Made me feel like a psychopath
I should hate you ’cause I love you
You should hate yourself for treating me like that
We both know you only love you
Did you know they have a name for that?
You say that I’m crazy
You say that you’re sorry
Won’t happen again
You say I’m dramatic
I’m overreacting
And maybe I am
And I know you’ll get over me
But can you get over yourself?
Before you go and love somebody else
You should probably get some help
My parents don’t like you
Why would they want to?
After they found me crying on the bathroom floor
I don’t even like me anymore
‘Cause you say that I’m crazy
You say that you’re sorry
Won’t happen again
You say I’m dramatic
I’m overreacting
And maybe I am
And I know you’ll get over me
But can you get over yourself?
Before you go and love somebody else
You should probably get some help
You lose your voice when you yell too much
Don’t say you love me until you mess up
Phone calls past twelve o’clock, wanting me back
Don’t you know that they got a name for that?
You say that I’m crazy
You say that you’re sorry
Won’t happen again
You say I’m dramatic
I’m overreacting
And maybe I am
And I know you’ll get over me
But can you get over yourself?
Before you go and love somebody else
You should probably get some help
The comings of tomorrow
So tomorrow I will finish putting up my Christmas decorations for the outside. I will probably start the inside but I am going to try and sneak in a podcast and tell y’all how the adventures of my vacation to florida were. But we shall see. Don’t forget I posted videos on TikTok and Instagram. Karen the Mïzfït also joined in on the fun so please check them out. We will be starting our Game of Thrones review and might even include our time watching Yellowstone. We shall give our input on that also. We might even speak about our trip so tune in this week we will have the episodes up. ~Emma~
People suck
It’s always remarkable to me how quickly people turn their back on you. You stand there looking out for them and it quickly becomes “I never asked you to.” Some things we learn over time. Some things we learn through nothing more than being told we cause “drama” by existing. Well I no longer care if you see me as drama. It used to be called loyalty but in a world with no true meaning of anything, I can understand why one sees as drama. The days of me sticking my neck out for others is done. Because this girl no longer cares what happens to anyone. ~Emma~
Closure
Closure
Goodbyes are not easy
Closing a chapter is hard
Ending the time, you shared
Adapting to a new environment is tricky
Letting go finally makes life move forward
Don’t allow your past define your future
Learn from the mistakes
Learn from the lessons
Learn and adapt
One can only move forward by letting go
Never looking back
The future is ahead of you not behind you
Written by: Emmanuelle-Rose Grace
Emma the Mizfit 