Share a story about someone who had a positive impact on your life.

My mother was poor growing up but still loved her life. She looks back at all of it as a magical memory. Which has taught me that being poor or being rich doesn’t make life magical or beautiful. Finding time to spend with your family the memories you make with them have shaped how I view life. I am extremely lucky I get to have those close to me and make memories each days with them. It is truly impacted how I view worth in life. I would rather spend dinner night chatting with my sister at not the most fancy restaurant yet being together makes each moment the greatest.

Happy Mother’s Day

There are many things that be grateful for. On Friday I spoke about not knowing the love of man or knowing how to love in a relationship with a man. With that all said my mom is a superhero. My mother has shown me unconditional love. She has shown me sacrifice, she has taught me the unconditional love that only a mother can give. She has shown me that no matter how much I am wrong or mess up, she will always love me. She has shown me what it is to give your heart and never get what you give in return. A mother’s love is unlike any other love. It is unchanging, it is stronger than anything in life. A mother is one that is willing to give everything to her child and only wants the best for her child. My mother is the best example of what a mom truly is. Though she might disagree with a lot of my life choices, she has always supported me. Mom, I might not say it enough but you are truly an inspiration and I hope I can be half of the amazing woman you are. You are my superhero and you are my rock. Words can never express how much I love you and how much you are appreciated. Always ~Emma~

Happy Mother’s Day to all you amazing Mom’s out there. I hope you have a beautiful blessed day.

Changing my mood

I wish I woke up in a better mood but I am not in a good mood. Unfortunately my mood has been sour but I am trying to change that. Spending some time listening to music, meditate and going to spend my day praying to God. It is through that I will get into a better mood. So I hope your day is blessed with lots of good positive thoughts. ~Emma~

I am the chaos and the chaos is me….

How does one ever truly learn to treat others than not by the people around them? How can a girl learn how a man is to treat her if the men around her weren’t strong or a good example? How can she learn what love looks like when she doesn’t know? Questions I have asked myself a dozen times. I have never truly found love or been loved by a man because I don’t know what that feels like. Though I might not have the love of a father that showed me how to love and be loved, my mother showed me a different kind of love. It’s weird because my father has always provided for us but has never truly been there, if that makes any sense. I guess it’s why I have never truly found a man to love me. It’s because I have never seen a strong relationship around me. With that said my mother has shown me love beyond words. But I will save that for Mother’s Day. But today my blog is about not having a strong man to show me how love is suppose to be like. Am I doomed to never know what love is? I have given my heart to men that have never deserved my heart. But was I truly in love if I have never known what love was? Love is more than butterflies in your stomach or feeling happy to see someone. It’s a connection, more than just a connection it’s respect, it’s unconditional, and it’s something worth fighting for I assume. Maybe not knowing how to love is a good thing. A chaotic soul as myself will surely find it easier being alone when you feel no one can truly hold you down. It’s easy to fall in and out of love with men I will never truly give my heart to. It’s easy to love someone far away like on the other side of the country because you will never be with them. Falling in love with their soul is easy but it’s truly never real. It’s easy to feel like it is real for the time because it does feel real but as time moves you know it is not real. In the end you learn it was just a connection you had with someone but never truly loved them. So on this Friday night I wonder will I ever fall in love or learn what that feels like. I guess only time will tell for as the night passes, my mind wanders into the chaos of stars in the sky. As the warm temperatures are high I know one day all my questions will be answered. But on this day, this night I sit in the quiet peace of the chaotic soothing sound of silence. Have a blessed weekend my friends. ~Emma~

Change how you see the world.

Woke up this morning feeling good. Grateful to be alive and grateful for sleeping all night. It is extremely important that we are always grateful and practice gratitude. Life is hard it isn’t easy. Each day can be extremely tough on our minds, hearts and soul. But we must also learn to be grateful for the small things in life that bring us joy. The practice of gratitude is something that is small but can change how we see our world. Learning to focus our energy on something as little as being grateful for what we have and not we don’t have changes us. It changes our perspective on how we see the world and how we see our life. I hope today you have a beautiful blessed day. Stay strong you are not alone. ~Emma~

Start the day in a positive direction

Today is a new day so begin the week with a smile and a positive attitude. No matter how hard life may seem right now you aren’t alone. Remember you are loved. I know things may get dark and I know how it feels to be so broken over things you can’t change. You can change how you react. Stay focused on a positive goal and keep reaching for it. Don’t give up. May this week being you many blessings. ~Emma~

Christmas

What is your favorite holiday? Why is it your favorite?

Christmas is my favorite holiday. I know it’s not the birth day of his actual birth but just the fact that each year we get to celebrate his birth makes me happy. To sit back and remember that the King of kings came to be with His people. It’s such a beautiful reason to be happy. In a world filled with such darkness I hold onto that. A king giving himself for everyone. Maybe if more ppl believed that maybe our world wouldn’t look so dark. it’s why I love celebrating the Christmas season because it’s the birth of Jesus Christ My King.

Never lose hope

As each day goes by, I am reminded that people are not good. I try to think the good will eventually win I mean I believe in God, so I do believe that good will eventually win. But I also see the darkness that is spreading around. I see it seeping into the souls of people, pettiness, the evil thoughts that they just become. I don’t doubt God I don’t doubt that one day this will all end. It’s impossible for us to continue to walk in this darkness. I do have to say that I am disheartened by the reality of the people that I see in the world. It breaks my heart to see a generation growing up, looking at this future that is just so grim. I do hope that the future is better. I do hope tomorrow is better. I do hope and I will continue to hope that each day gets better. It’s weird when I was young I used to not think so much. As an adult, you’re constantly thinking of everything, thinking of life, thinking the choices you’ve made, thinking of just every single thing. I was once called a romantic because I believe in happy endings. I guess I am the kind of person that does believe that good does prevail at the end of the day, even if that’s not what happens in reality. I think if we lose that hope the grim reality of darkness takes a hold of us and we become the monsters that are running the earth now. I hope tomorrow is a beautiful day not just for you, but also for me. I hope each new day gets better for all of us, and I hope we never lose that hope. Have a blessed night. ~Emma~

Mental Health Awareness Month

As Mental Health Awareness Month begins, I hope everyone finds time to reach across to someone who might be in need of help. Just call a friend, check in see how they are doing. Sometimes kindness goes a long way so please again just reach out to your neighbors, friends or family. It’s okay to not be okay. You are not alone. Have a blessed day. ~Emma~