Anime

What’s your favorite cartoon?

I love anime. Mr favorite cartoons growing up was watching Batman and the Superman animated series. I still watch them from time to time. Even now I still make time to watch each new DC animated movie. Even if they suck I will watch them.

I recently watched an anime called My Happy Marriage. Loved the the love story between the two and the magic components. I hope the second season will be just as good as the first one.

Shhh 🤫

What could you do less of?

Share less about myself. I am trying to grow into a better version of myself. I have learned that some mysteries are better left not knowing. It builds the intrigue of the person. The only way to accomplish that is by learning to stay silent. So that’s exactly what I am trying to do.

Doing good

One of the most annoying things about people during the holiday season is how selfish some people can be. They don’t even realize how selfish they are acting. They going around not helping others while they party, go to dinners, go shopping while others are working their asses off trying to get everything ready.

People constantly say it’s team work that gets the job done. But team work consists of you actually having to put in the work for the team. You deciding to walk away and complaining about stuff not getting done isn’t teamwork.

It’s this selfish attitude that really gets under my skin. Not only it’s not productive for anyone to advance. It frustrates the ones going out of their way to try and make life better.

If I can offer some advice don’t wait for someone to ask for help. Helping others not only helps the person you offer the help to but it helps your soul. Helping others is food for the soul. So during this season as we approach the giving season. Learn to give to others. Don’t expect anything from others, do it because you want to do it. If you’re incapable of doing that, well I can’t help you.

Have a good day. ~Emma~

Dogs

Who are your current most favorite people?

Dogs are my favorite. I would say ā€œpeopleā€ suck. Dogs are like little angels that just help in life.

When you used to…

I asked last year around September for guidance from God. My prayer is what one of the books I read would be called ā€œdangerous prayersā€.

It’s not dangerous prayers that cause any danger. But it’s more along the line praying for something and not knowing how much time it will take or what you will lose in the process. Learning that it’s not going to be given in your time nor the way you want it.

A lot of Christians don’t really believe in dangerous prayers I am one of the ones that has seen dangerous prayers answered over and over again..

Again, dangerous prayers are not causing danger or even asking for some sort of dangerous activity to happen. I guess you can say it’s more of be careful what you’re praying for because you might actually get what you prayed for.

So like I said last September 2023 I prayed for God to guide me closer to him no matter what. In the prayer, I asked God if there is anything in my life that is distracting me or pulling me away from you I want it removed. I don’t care what I lose or the pain caused I want to be closer to You oh Lord.

So a couple months go by and I started seeing people that I was close to just kind of like disappear. So it started with a person I was close to. We spoke daily a lot and as time went on, I started to see a shift and at first I wanted to ignore it pretend like that’s not what’s going on, but then I started to see the distance and it was clear.

After we stop speaking and months went by earlier this year, I started to realize it was God pulling that person out of my life. The reason that God pulled that person out of my life was because that person was a distraction. Someone might say that that’s cruel to say. But for me, my goal has always been to get closer to God. My life mission has always been to be one of Godā€˜s Warriors.

So here we are in November 2024, a year has passed and I haven’t spoken to this person in a good 10 or 11 months. Do I miss the person? Yeah sometimes. But I have also learned to mourn the relationship and move on.

Just today another thing that I loved doing became meh. I wasn’t excited I wasn’t thrilled to be doing it. I just felt nothing. One must be prepared that when you ask for something and you ask obstacles or anything to be removed, they will be removed. Your love for them will be taken away. Your desire to be filled with them will be destroyed if that’s what you asked for.

There are other things that have changed. My love for a lot of things have changed. I spend more time in prayer, more time writing, more time in self-reflection, learning more about myself, and learning to grow from my past mistakes.

It is in this waiting season that I have learned that God has stripped away a lot of distractions from my life. Things that I held onto that I didn’t even think were distractions, but they were. They were distractions from me, developing a relationship with God and for me developing into a better individual for myself, for my family, for society, and for God.

It is in this waiting season that I have learned to let go of things that don’t matter. I have learned to forgive those that hurt me in the past. I have learned that the most important thing in life is to cherish each and every single moment you are alive.

I have learned to embrace each and every single moment. Whether it’s spending a Sunday cleaning with my niece, nephew, my sister, my mom, my dad and my brother, in the garage hanging up Christmas lights. Whether it’s spending Sabbath with my family and drinking cappuccinos with the new Nespresso machine. It’s in those little moments that we’re making memories that will last a lifetime. It’s in those moments that we are truly living life.

I don’t know what tomorrow might bring but I definitely know. I trust God to bring me through tomorrow.

So has God answered my dangerous prayer? The answer to that is yes and no. He is definitely answering the prayer. I just haven’t gotten to the end yet.

I did ask for more than just becoming closer to God. That was my main prayer and still my main objective. But there’s one little part of that prayer that I’m waiting for. I have constantly waited, and God has referred to this moment as the waiting season.

Sometimes we become impatient during the waiting season, but we have to remember that when you ask for something from God he’s going to deliver. Whether it’s through a dangerous prayer like I said before or just a prayer he will answer.

I know a lot of people don’t believe in dangerous prayers. But I can tell you based on my own history dangerous prayers are real just be careful and be ready for the consequences of asking such prayers. It’s all about trust baby. It’s all about trust and having faith in Jesus Christ to answer your prayer.

Remember, God always answers in his time not our own. ļæ¼

I hope this is a lesson for you to learn and I hope you have a wonderful, beautiful blessed week. Love always, Emma. ļæ¼

One of those days

I am going to get my nails done today. I am attending a costume party later in the week. Today I woke up knowing I was just in one of my moods. I am grateful to God that today I get to get up, but it doesn’t change the feeling of being in one of those moods. I won’t dwell in the feeling and I will still force myself to go get my nails done. But I hate the days I wake up this moody. Just one of those days. šŸ¤·ā€ā™€ļø

You’re Not Alone

Sang by: Meredith Andrews

I searched for love when the night came and it closed in

I was alone, but You found me where I was hiding

And now I’ll never ever be the same

It was the sweetest voice that called my name, saying

You’re not alone for I am here

Let me wipe away your every fear

My love, I’ve never left your side

I have seen you through the darkest night

And I’m the One who’s loved you all your life

All your life

You cry yourself to sleep

‘Cause the hurt is real and the pain cuts deep

All hope seems lost with heartache your closest friend

And everyone else long gone

You’ve had to face the music on your own

But there is a sweeter song that calls you home, saying

You’re not alone for I am here

Let me wipe away your every tear

My love, I’ve never left your side

I have seen you through the darkest night

And I’m the One who’s loved you all your life

All your life

Faithful and true forever

My love will carry you

You’re not alone for I, I am here

Let me wipe away your every fear

My love, I’ve never left your side

I have seen you through the darkest night

Your darkest night

And I’m the One who’s loved you all your life

All your life

Foot check?!?

So today I went to doctor to get my foot checked. Not only is there a tear in a ligament but I also have a deep sprain in one of the ligaments that are ā€œstrongestā€ ones in the foot. I am going to have to do therapy and walk with the stupid foot corset till it gets better. 

It’s funny since I was young I have always been accident prone. I have always blamed Satan 🤣. I always would say ā€œdamn Satan is really trying to take me outā€ not just take me out but with walls, floors, kitchen island, chairs, stairs, doors, sidewalks, my cat. It’s endless the ways he has tried. 

I laugh about it now but in reality I have always felt that way. Still I am grateful that regardless of all the ā€œaccidentsā€ I have had I am still alive to write this blog. Not only alive but grateful for each and every scar that I have gotten on this journey called life. 

We must always be grateful for the good and bad moments in life. It’s through the bad moments we learn to cherish the good moments even more. So even though I will end up in therapy for my foot, hopefully I will learn to tolerate the pain and get through each moment smiling. 

For each day we wake up is a good day.  ~Emma~ 

Who Am I to Stand in Your Way

Song by: Chester See

Forgive me

I may have said things

That aren’t exactly

The way that I feel

I told you I’d be strong

I said that I’d moved on

But it doesn’t take long

To realize

That I’m not over you

But if there is somebody that makes you feel happy

Tends to your heart in the ways I’d been lacking

Then who am I who am I to stand in your way…

To stand in your way…

To stand in your way…

I won’t stand in your way…

I know it sounds crazy

But I need you to trust me

If it’s how it must be

Then I’ll fade away

When it finally feels true

Then do what you have to

‘Cause I’ll never blame you

For not choosing me

But I’m not over you

But If there is somebody that makes you feel happy

Tends to your heart in the ways I’d been lacking

Then who am I who am I to stand in your way

That I feel is no longer your burden

If there is someone that can make you feel perfect

Then who am I who am I to stand in your way…

To stand in your way…

To stand in your way…

I won’t stand in your way…

Down the road someone will ask me if I know you

I’ll pause for a moment I’ll smile and say that I used… to

If there is somebody that makes you feel happy

Tends to your heart in the ways I’d been lacking

Then who am I who am I to stand in your way

That I feel is no longer your burden

If there is someone that can make you feel perfect

Then who am I who am I to stand in your way…

To stand in your way…

To stand in your way…

I won’t stand in your way…

I won’t stand in your way

I won’t stand in your way

Moody girl

I woke up this morning in such a mood. As I went through the day I felt it was just progressively getting worse. As I sit here at 4:15 pm in the afternoon I can honestly say it’s gotten a lot better. Even earlier when I made my video for the day I said I wasn’t in a good mood. It was just one of those moody days.

I still woke up grateful and thanked God for the new day. Even after slamming my wrist into a window causing my wrist to swell up and see stars. I was able to get the internet to finally work with the help of the technician that came to the house. He helped me with hooking up my Mac book and everything. It was such a help on a day that was just not going well.

Even just chatting with the guy was helpful we spoke about Japan and how I should definitely go visit. šŸ˜‚

So I say again just because your day might start out moody or crappy, be grateful. It is through the grateful heart that God changed my day.

I even was yelling at God this afternoon, after slamming my wrist. I was like oh it’s pick on Emma today. lol it was a joke and I really didn’t think it was going to change anything and yet here I am grateful for the better mood.

I think sometimes letting out your frustrations out to God as if He is there with you, even if you think He might not be listening, you find out soon enough He is always listening. So have a little faith and just chat with Him. Tell Him your frustrations, tell Him how you feel, let Him know everything and you might be surprised when He does answer.

I hope everyone has a beautiful blessed day.