Push yourself

What fears have you overcome and how?

The fear of trying new things. After being sick for so long I was afraid to stray outside my comfort zone. After years of trying I just couldn’t do it but finally about a year ago I started to push myself more and more outside my comfort zone. It started with making books that would help others with mental health issues. Books for coloring, books with puzzles, crosswords anything to use as a coping mechanism. I learned during my own time these things helped me. By November of last year I started a YouTube channel Emma the Mizfit. Again pushing myself further out, the channel is small. Doesn’t have many members but I did it to help others that struggle like me. It has music videos for healing that I made. I even share my own experiences. Recently, I started an Etsy store, again pushing myself out more and more. The fear of failing never entering my mind because my focus is to try and get out of my safe space. The only way to get rid of the fear is to try and overcome it. If you fail you can always try again. will it be easy no, but it’s worth trying so you can grow to become the better version of yourself. Have a blessed day.

Spencer greatest Frenchie ever!!!!

Today I found out I need to put my baby boy (dog) Spencer to sleep. I wish I could be more joyful but unfortunately this post won’t be joyful just sad. This little Frenchie came into my life 10 years ago. He was a whirlwind of just love and energy. He slept on my bed on his pillow that I had given him with his sheets. The sheets consisted of a pink playboy blanket that was super soft that he loved. On top of him he had a Tinkerbell blanket or the Dallas Cowboys blanket. He loved sleeping with them because my room was cold. We used to go for walks in the park and he loved walking. As he got older he would get more tired but he still loved walking even if he could hardly breathe on our walks. My sister lost her dog two years after I got Spencer. While she was grieving her loss I would let Spencer comfort her. It did cause a bit of struggle between us because she basically took ownership of him. But Spencer in the end had two mothers that loved him more than life itself. He continues to fight so I just pray that God have mercy and put him to rest. It will be painful to live without him but I wouldn’t trade one moment with him for not having this pain. The pain in my heart just reminds me how much I love him. In the end it is all worth the sadness and grief. So my message on this warm night is to be present in life and enjoy each moment for nothing last forever but the love we give each other. Have a beautiful day/night. ~Emma~

? Daily what ?

I know I am loving person. I try and go out of my way to be a kind individual. I know we each are fighting our own internal battle. Sometimes I even find myself going down the rabbit hole of why do we have to go through all this. The mundane things in life, getting up each morning, working all day, eating, bathing and heading to bed to sleep. Why do we have to do all these things? I know how easy it is to ask why, but you won’t get an answer. Many try to tell you what to do or how to feel, these are things that I think pretty much everyone has asked. Honestly I don’t think anyone knows the real answer. I guess today I am feeling a little curious to find out what others think. I know I can’t be the only one that feels that way. Or even questioning why do we have to continue doing the same exact things daily. But I guess these are things we will not know. Either way I hope you have a blessed day. ~Emma~

Quiet Friday

This week has not been a good week. With the loss of my uncle at the start of the week to just a lot going on my mind. Its just been everywhere is pretty hard to explain. It’s hard to find anything positive when we look at our world. So tonight I ask for you to take time for some self care. I don’t care if it’s sitting in a room reading a book, listening to some peaceful music while playing games, just simply take time to calm your mind. It can be extremely easy to fall into bad habits when we lose focus on our goals. It’s easy to become super depressed when there is a loss. You question how fragile life is and why do we have to endure such pain? These are questions we might never find answers to but try to find some sort of peace in this moment. For tomorrow we are not guaranteed to wake up and tell the ones we love that we did love them. So tell them you love them and look in the mirror and say you are loved. You might not believe it, you might find you will never find love. But we can change our mind the more you repeat it, you will change your perspective. Have a beautiful Friday night. May the peace of God fill your hearts. I know it’s not easy but life was never supposed to be easy. Be grateful for this moment and for even being able to read this post. Many blessings to you all. ~Emma~

Politics…

Honestly the way political parties are today is extremely sickening. I am a conservative but the Republican Party has always been the party that never fit me. I won’t even go off on the dems because that’s pointless at this point. Both are corrupt only looking out for themselves and their own interests. It’s why I loved Trump. He spoke like the way New Yorkers speak and though many will pretend they don’t speak like that, they do. 😂 trust me I know. Anyway getting back to my point this is how I got to voting for Trump and why I believe he will be the best man for the job. I would never speak for anyone or tell anyone else how to vote. Nor will I judge anyone. We all have different backgrounds, different things that have shaped our own lives. I just hope that regardless of how bad things may get or seem, we are all still human beings in the end. We are all created by One God. So remember as the chaos looms over our country or world, remember that you are here for a reason. It’s okay to have different views but never turn to violence, kindness is the way to truly change hearts and minds. So I hope today you go out and be the change you want to see in the world. Through love, kindness and even some funny memes. Remember words can’t kill you but sometimes they can hurt. So try to be as kind as you can. Some people have hard shells and others don’t. Just remember you can be the change. Have a blessed day. ~Emma~

Perfect sleeping weather

How do you feel about cold weather?

I love the cold weather I won’t lie it’s my favorite season. I do love spring, summer, and fall but my favorite will always be winter. The fresh cold air that keeps my room cold. To all the warms soft blankets I slip under to keep me warm while I sleep. It’s the best.

Till we meet again

Today my uncle passed away surrounded by his loved ones. He was not a perfect man, did many wrong things but the man loved God. His passion for loving The Lord was extraordinary. I didn’t always agree in a lot of his ways, but there is no doubt He loved God and that I respected. He will be missed by all of us. But one day we all be in heaven together again. Laughing and embracing each other reminiscing of a time that past. Though tears sting my eyes my heart is filled with joy. For the pain will subside but the love will be there forever with us. Till we meet again, may God be with you till we meet again. ~Emma~