When you have lost all interest in everyone around you simply because you’re fkin tired of 🐂 💩!
Tag: hurt
Feeling down?
When you feel down get on your knees and pray to God. When you are drowning in pain, get on your knees and pray to God. When all hope is so lost you can’t find your way, get on your knees and pray to God. I know it might seem silly. If you have to plead and yell and scream talk to God.
I know it might seem hopeless and pointless. I have one thing in life that has consistently given me the strength to keep going, that is God. I hope when you read this, you take these words to heart. Remember God is with you. Have a good night~Emma~
Worthless
Nothing I do will ever be good enough. I will always be wrong. I have learned that now. Nothing I do will ever make you see me. You will always see my flaws and nothing I will do will change that. I am crazy, I am chaos, I am a mess but I am always myself. I don’t try to be someone I’m not. I have always been myself. I’ve never pretended to be anyone else. But nothing I say or do will ever be good enough for you always ~Emma~
Why bother?
Trying to get through the week. It’s only Tuesday and I am so over it. Heading to bed wondering why I even care. Care for people that are selfish and only care for themselves. I put myself out there because I am told over and over again not everyone is the same. In my most recent years I have learned that’s exactly what people are all the same. There is not point in trying to build relationships with people. Regardless if it’s friendship or anything else today people are cold and uncaring. Save yourself because no one cares. I speak a lot about being the change you want to see in the world. I want to still hold on to that but I am afraid my faith is falling. I have been hurt too many times to think anyone is different. So I end my night with this post I hope your week is better than mine. ~Emma~
Letting go
Describe the last difficult “goodbye” you said.
It was to a friend or someone I thought was a friend. I was there for this person but they turned on me. I tried to save the friendship but it was beyond saving. Because in the end I learned the only one that truly cared about our friendship was me. It was extremely painful and hard to just let go. To think that you gave your all and that person turned so quickly on you made me feel like crap.
Quote for today
Don’t get too attached to people because in the end everyone leaves. -unknown-
I’m done trying to get you
You can’t hide ugly
Always surprised how people act when speaking of my own mental illness. It’s like mentioning you have the plague. It truly shows their true character that they try to hide behind fake smiles. ~Emma~
Moody
I have been going through a really moody time at the moment hence why I am trying to minimize the damage. I tend to become very nasty and unfiltered when I am in this mood. Not that people don’t deserve to hear it. But unfortunately being this on a down is never a good thing. I shall keep you posted. I want to be positive but at this moment I am not. So I won’t pretend to be. ~Emma~
Not okay
I wish I could write a happy note and be positive but it has escaped me. Right at this very moment I am extremely hurt. I can’t even begin to explain the pain I feel but it has taken a hold of me. When you find that you have loved someone so much but they have disregarded you as piece of shit it is soul crushing. It makes me mad, angry, and just utterly broken. I will never be like that no matter how broken I feel. I won’t be like that person or the people that defend this person. I have lost a part of my heart probably to never find it again. All I can do is mourn it and let it go eventually. There is no point in trying to find or let anyone understand what you feel. They see things through their eyes and only their eyes, you can’t change that. It’s just heartbreaking and I am not okay with it. ~Emma~
Emma the Mizfit 