Tag: hurt

Life is but a dream

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Ever wonder why we all feel the chaos is beyond us? I have and for a long time I questioned why.

The helpless feeling of not being able to even change one thing annoyed me. But I soon realized I could change something, I could change myself.

It was all about changing my mindset. I prayed over and over and soon found what I was looking for. The answer to my question I can’t change the chaos around me or even the world. But I could change myself and how reacted to it.

As each day goes by I get stronger and wiser learning that many things are out of my control. But learning to let things go and keep myself in control is something I must never stop doing. Self control is something you must practice till it becomes second nature.

God gave me the insight to follow Him even through the storm. Never to let go of His Hand instead to allow Him to lead me through the darkness.

I have chosen to follow Him. I hope today you all have a wonderful day. ~Emma~

Feeling down?

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When you feel down get on your knees and pray to God. When you are drowning in pain, get on your knees and pray to God. When all hope is so lost you can’t find your way, get on your knees and pray to God. I know it might seem silly. If you have to plead and yell and scream talk to God.

I know it might seem hopeless and pointless. I have one thing in life that has consistently given me the strength to keep going, that is God. I hope when you read this, you take these words to heart. Remember God is with you. Have a good night~Emma~

Worthless

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Nothing I do will ever be good enough. I will always be wrong. I have learned that now. Nothing I do will ever make you see me. You will always see my flaws and nothing I will do will change that. I am crazy, I am chaos, I am a mess but I am always myself. I don’t try to be someone I’m not. I have always been myself. I’ve never pretended to be anyone else. But nothing I say or do will ever be good enough for you always ~Emma~

Why bother?

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Trying to get through the week. It’s only Tuesday and I am so over it. Heading to bed wondering why I even care. Care for people that are selfish and only care for themselves. I put myself out there because I am told over and over again not everyone is the same. In my most recent years I have learned that’s exactly what people are all the same. There is not point in trying to build relationships with people. Regardless if it’s friendship or anything else today people are cold and uncaring. Save yourself because no one cares. I speak a lot about being the change you want to see in the world. I want to still hold on to that but I am afraid my faith is falling. I have been hurt too many times to think anyone is different. So I end my night with this post I hope your week is better than mine. ~Emma~

Letting go

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Describe the last difficult “goodbye” you said.

It was to a friend or someone I thought was a friend. I was there for this person but they turned on me. I tried to save the friendship but it was beyond saving. Because in the end I learned the only one that truly cared about our friendship was me. It was extremely painful and hard to just let go. To think that you gave your all and that person turned so quickly on you made me feel like crap.

Quote for today

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Don’t get too attached to people because in the end everyone leaves. -unknown-

You can’t hide ugly

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Always surprised how people act when speaking of my own mental illness. It’s like mentioning you have the plague. It truly shows their true character that they try to hide behind fake smiles. ~Emma~

Moody

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I have been going through a really moody time at the moment hence why I am trying to minimize the damage. I tend to become very nasty and unfiltered when I am in this mood. Not that people don’t deserve to hear it. But unfortunately being this on a down is never a good thing. I shall keep you posted. I want to be positive but at this moment I am not. So I won’t pretend to be. ~Emma~