Three favorite meals

What are your family’s top 3 favorite meals?

Chicken sautéed with peppers and onions with white rice. Pasteles with fries and a fried egg, which is a Puerto Rican dish. A nice medium cooked steak with asparagus and a baked potato with butter. My favorite three meals. It also kind of depends if we’re talking about like on morning-lunch or dinner time because it changes but those are my favorite three meals for like dinner.

It’s hard

What do you do when you are searching for yourself? Trying to become the best version of yourself. Meanwhile trying to find who that person truly is. I became lost long ago. Years went by and now finally I am becoming a better version of myself. Disciplining myself, finding ways to become more independent and more confident in everything I do. For so long, I realized I could not truly be in a relationship as an adult, because I still acted like a child. It’s only through the last few years and especially the last few months that I realize that in order to become a better version of myself, I needed to set goals. I needed to discipline myself. I needed to learn or should I say relearn better coping skills, how to be able to communicate properly with others and not try to fall into old patterns. Patterns that were not healthy but instead create new healthier habits. Create healthier coping skills. Learning to communicate my own feelings, my own thoughts, without getting angry or hurt. While also taking into consideration that not everything will go my way. There are just some things that I just need to let go and learn to accept them as nothing more than fleeting memories, fleeting moments, with fleeting people. Friendships live and friendships die. Time will tell but in the end it is I that will be stronger. Which makes all the pain worth all the lessons I needed to learn to grow. It’s hard I won’t pretend it will be easy. Nothing worth having is ever easy.

Walking

What is your favorite form of physical exercise?

I love speed walking while listening to jams. It’s probably my favorite because you are outside in the outdoors, listening to music and just not thinking of anything but being inside the moment. Not to mention when you are outside you just feel good especially in the fall and spring, I even love the winter season. But that’s just me maybe not for everyone else.

Becoming the best version of myself

What have you been working on?

I have been working on myself. Trying to learn from my mistakes. Trying to live a healthy lifestyle. Trying to learn how to communicate better. Trying to push myself out of own comfort zones. Learning new coping techniques to try and not keep myself back. Always trying to keep growing to become a version of myself than I was yesterday. Sounds silly I know but it’s the truth. The only way I can find my place in this life is to find myself. For so long I had no idea who I was and I think finally, I am coming to understand who I am and who I want to be. Because there is a difference, I don’t just want to be myself I want to be the best version of myself.

Energy

What things give you energy?

Working out gives me energy, going through one of my bipolar highs gives me a lot of energy. Maybe sometimes a little too much energy it can be overwhelming for others. But two things that give me a lot of energy.

Finding my own way…

Are there things you try to practice daily to live a more sustainable lifestyle?

After I became sick I was on many medications that made me gain a lot of weight. Always being thin I had no clue how it felt to gain so much weight. After years later and I started getting better at controlling my moods I also started to control my weight. Seeing how all the weight was gained because of the medications, I was slowly taken off most of them. With my doctor’s approval. I lost so much weight but I am no where near the weight I was before becoming sick. So I spend my time dog sitting(my business) which helps to keep me active. It keeps me walking and constantly moving. It has helped me mentally and physically taking care of the dogs. I eat healthy meals and focused my goal to return to me original weight. It’s harder now that I am older but I refuse to give up. Learning to live life after being sick and learning ways to combat the slide of any mental illness is not easy. It’s a constant battle for me each day. Dog sitting is one example of my many ways of trying to live a sustainable lifestyle. I find different things to keep me growing into a better version of the person I was yesterday while also learning to live a better day today. It’s not easy but I try to keep my focus and just ask God to help me each day. It takes time to learn how to find a balance within yourself. But it can be done, again not easy but totally worth it when you get there. Finding the path to a healthy lifestyle while growing, learning to become a stronger person mentally, emotionally and physically will be beautiful when I reach my goal. As for now I take it one day at a time, one walk at a time, one meal at a time, one coping skill at a time. It’s hard especially when you want to give up when life gets so dark but you must never giveyes up. My number one thing I do each day is thank God for waking me up and I ask to give me the strength and He does. I am still learning to not suffocate people instead enjoy the silence alone. I am trying to learn to take time for myself. I am also trying to learn to allow space for myself for my feelings for my thoughts. While also learning to give people the space that they need. While also learning to give people the space that they need. These are some of the things I do to help me live a sustainable lifestyle. Learning to respect myself and others, and giving time for things to grow. I hope the reading this you can learn something to. Have a beautiful night\day. ~Emma~

Politics…

Honestly the way political parties are today is extremely sickening. I am a conservative but the Republican Party has always been the party that never fit me. I won’t even go off on the dems because that’s pointless at this point. Both are corrupt only looking out for themselves and their own interests. It’s why I loved Trump. He spoke like the way New Yorkers speak and though many will pretend they don’t speak like that, they do. 😂 trust me I know. Anyway getting back to my point this is how I got to voting for Trump and why I believe he will be the best man for the job. I would never speak for anyone or tell anyone else how to vote. Nor will I judge anyone. We all have different backgrounds, different things that have shaped our own lives. I just hope that regardless of how bad things may get or seem, we are all still human beings in the end. We are all created by One God. So remember as the chaos looms over our country or world, remember that you are here for a reason. It’s okay to have different views but never turn to violence, kindness is the way to truly change hearts and minds. So I hope today you go out and be the change you want to see in the world. Through love, kindness and even some funny memes. Remember words can’t kill you but sometimes they can hurt. So try to be as kind as you can. Some people have hard shells and others don’t. Just remember you can be the change. Have a blessed day. ~Emma~

Start the day in a positive direction

Today is a new day so begin the week with a smile and a positive attitude. No matter how hard life may seem right now you aren’t alone. Remember you are loved. I know things may get dark and I know how it feels to be so broken over things you can’t change. You can change how you react. Stay focused on a positive goal and keep reaching for it. Don’t give up. May this week being you many blessings. ~Emma~

Mediation helps

It’s been an extremely busy week. I was so tired last night I passed out around 9:30pm. Today woke up feeling a bit off. Prayed before I got out of bed asking God for the strength to get through the day. I am trying to get through the whole putting the computer together while trying to figure out wth I am doing wrong. 🤣 I am not super tech savvy so it is what it is. So after fighting with the computer and getting super frustrated I went for a with one of the dogs staying with us. Came back and sat on my bed and just tried to calm my mind. I sat there breathing in and out just clearing my mind. It’s about 2:03 in the afternoon and even though I am still busy working and doing a bunch of other things I am calm. And yes I do have a point, finding a moment to mediate or find a way to clear your mind even for a few mins does help. Not only does it give you the strength you need to keep going. It gives you the clarity to feel more confident in yourself. So do make time to mediate, talk to God, clear your mind and find something to keep your focus on. This way you won’t give up on yourself. Have a beautiful blessed day. ~Emma~