I pray to the Almighty that He may look over this nation. May He look over all those that come across this post. May He watch over them and draw them closer to Him. Thank you for never leaving my side. Thank you for guiding me in the darkness. Thank you for allowing me to wake up this morning, for my food and everything you bestow on me. For all good times gongs come from you I would be nothing without you. May this night bring peace to all that seek it from You. May their prayers be answered according to Your Will. Let me be able to rest for I am not feeling well. Let Your Almighty hand heal me from whatever this may be but only if it is Your Will. I put myself at Your feet and Your Mercy. I ask all this not by merits or anything I can do but in the Name of Jesus Christ my Lord and Saviour. Amen. đđź
Tag: gratitude
Birthday
My birthday was the other day and it got me thinking. I am incredibly grateful for each and every single day I wake up. I know everyone doesnât get to do the things that they have or that I have. I know some people donât have the people that they have in their lives and I am extremely lucky to still have my parents and my family involved in my life.
I think after a certain age, you stop actually counting as you go up, but you are incredibly more blessed and thankful. You concentrate more on the things that you do have and not the things that you donât have.
You think of all the ways that you have survived, the battles that you fought and still walked away. With scars and sweat and blood dripping down, it made no difference because you still walked away stronger.
Life is too short to be anything but happy and filled with gratitude. Just because you donât think God exists or is working in your life doesnât mean that he isnât. God is always working in your life. God is always blessing you sometimes itâs just not the way that you expect things to be. So as I go to another year, hopefully with Godâs blessing. I hope Iâm able to do all the things that I wanna do and all the things he wants me to do. I want to show him as my greatest joy in my life because God has always and will always be my greatest love
I canât do anything if God doesnât give me the strength the will and the power to do it. I owe all of the blessings I have to my Lord and Savior. So as I reflect on the year that has passed and the year thatâs coming I hope and pray that this be the year that God grant me the one thing Iâm asking for. But either which way my life is in his hand and itâs all in his timing. ~~always, Emma~~
Summertime
My summer has been good extremely busy season. The dogs are roaring in and out so very busy time for me. Though it is a busy time I do get to enjoy the beauty of summer, then bbqs, the flies that are everywhere, the lantern flies that seem to grow bigger each year. The flowers, the birds, the ants that want invade Lunaâs living area. The heatwave, the air conditioning that I sleep so well in, my room is like a freezer.
There are so many good things and bad things but most of all I am grateful. Regardless of the bugs and the heat the summer is beautiful. It reminds us that nothing last forever and the season will become cold and dark again. So enjoy the moment or season you are in now. It wonât last but make the best of the season and be grateful for it.
You never know what is around the corner of life. So take time out today to thank God for this beautiful day. As they say time doesnât stop and is completely unforgiving to anyone. So take time to be in the moment and sit in gratitude. ~~always, Emma~~
Life update
Itâs been a really busy week. A good time of the year because weâre extremely busy, but my allergies have been making my life hard. I am still grateful for each and every single day that I get to wake up in the morning. I thank God every single day for each and every single moment that I get to spend with my mom, my dad, my sister the dog, working out, eating healthy, and and not trying to spend too much time watching C dramas
I have spent more time this week, not being on TikTok, YouTube, or any other social media platform. Mainly because thereâs a lot of reasons for you to get angry and I donât like to get angry. So for my own peace of mind, I have decided to take some time off of the social media platforms.
I am more focused on my relationship with God than I am about other people and their drama and bringing that person down and all the stuff thatâs so unnecessary right now. Life is difficult enough. We donât really need to be fighting for every single thing. I am trying to get my mom to work out more because sheâs elderly and Iâm trying to prepare her for the cruise next year.
So I spend a lot of time working out with her to get her into shape that makes her more flexible. Not just flexible, but also stronger so that she could have more stamina when weâre walking around. I donât think people realize how hard it is to take care of your parents as they get older. Itâs like dealing with toddlers. Except for toddlers, you can put your foot down but with your parents, theyâre adults and you donât want to belittle them. Theyâve worked hard all their lives, and they do deserve to kind of like sit back. Even if I disagree with all the time that they sit back and take naps.
But I am in a really good headspace right now and I think that is the best part of my life right now. I am becoming more disciplined, focusing more on getting stronger building a foundation and spending time with my family and God.
I hope you are all doing well and I hope you have a wonderful beautiful weekend. Stay blessed.~~ Emmaďżź~~
C Dramas
I am absolutely in love with C dramas. I know many are obsessed with K dramas and even though they do have a special place in my heart the C dramas are just so grand. The amount of details in the costumes and set pieces make American cinema look like crap. ďżźďżź
I know I might get crap for that but letâs be honest. Any show on Disney+, Amazon or HBO(Max) canât compare. I heard one YouTuber say she hates the C dramas because the graphics are just unrealistic. I thought to myself while watching her spew her nonsense âwow girl you really need to watch the rings of powerâ. That thing was so bad and I bet China didnât have no where near the budget of rings of power on any project.
I just absolutely love the creativity they put into the different series. I love how there arenât sex scenes in every single shot. I donât have to see fake boobs or an ass run across my screen. Itâs almost like they let your imagination take over while the couple kisses.
Somethings are better left without us having to watch the couple actually have sex. I cannot explain how bad American culture has become. Every single actress has big lips, frozen faces and perfect boobs. I am hoping there will be a shift and I wonât have to deal with it but I doubt that will happen anytime soon.
The days of the breakfast club or sixteen candles are long gone and donât worry, you will constantly be reminded every single time.
Getting back to my love for the C dramas. I do love how they make an effort to make the stories interesting and yes I am happy to live in the fantasy world even for a brief moment.
I know the actors are treated differently and I know there is a whole bunch of pressure on them constantly. Recently that happened in my k drama world with Kim Soo Hyun and the accusations he faced.
For those that donât know he was accused of doing something through hearsay and basically cancelled. Lucky for him his fans were not willing to allow him to be cancelled just on hearsay. (Yes I am one of those fans, I stand with him also.) Which by the way if you believe every single woman please donât follow me I am NOT that girl. I know exactly how vicious women can be.
The set pieces are always grand, the costumes are always beautiful. Itâs almost like watching a movie but instead itâs a series of 30-40 episodes of the whole story. Many are based on either Chinese literature, books or web toons. One great example of this is an older series called Love between the Devil and Fairy.
This wonderful piece has Dylan Wang which I think is such a cutie. Too young for me but he definitely is yummy in his Devil costume, or I should call him, Moon Supreme. Again the graphics arenât perfect and yes they might be a little cheesy for some viewers but I absolutely love it.
Itâs like watching the Terminator. Yeah it might look old and a little cheesy with the graphics but I can honestly say none of the movies have ever been better than the first one and second one. Again might be cheesy but itâs perfect.
Itâs funny how far the graphics have come yet the stories have become such garbage. Again why I love my C dramas. I know we will never be able to get the charm and beauty of the 80âs cinema or even music for that case,back. But having these fantastic series that are epic and unique have given me hope.
I love diving into a good book and the characters leave me in awe. Movies and tv shows used to do that, they donât anymore. Itâs all remakes, diversity, pushing some stupid message, and the stories are just crap.
Hence why I fell in love with my C dramas and look forward to watching more of them. China might not be perfect but they definitely are doing something right and itâs called C dramas. Thank you China for your service in helping this American girl forget the crappy movies and actors in my land. Your faithful viewer, Emma.
PS: donât start doing anything with diversity, women power or gender identity you will lose me so fast!!!
Finding freedom
There is nothing more disappointing than when you have friends and family but realize they donât have your back. Itâs sad but it also reminds us that the only one we can depend on is ourselves. It is better to be reminded of this harsh reality than to constantly think we have others by our side. Itâs the most freeing thing one can imagine. Everything you do, everything you accomplish comes from within you not from someone else. Not from those that doubted you. Not for those that never once believed in you. Not those that thought they would watch you fail. Instead those who were your biggest haters can watch from the back of the stands. Donât acknowledge them, donât even give them the satisfaction of your presence. Instead walk by them like the strangers they are. Freedom is learning to live without the fear of being alone. Embrace it and be free.
ďżź Christ is King ďżź
Jesus Christ is my Lord and Savior. He has given me, joy. He has led me through the pain. Through my darkest night and times in my life, he led me to the light. As we reflect on this Good Friday, the sacrifice that Jesus Christ did. He bore our sins so that we may have a chance at eternal life. I ask you is something missing in your life? If it is, I ask you to turn to Jesus. Jesus is the way he is the king. He is salvation. I ask you to turn to Jesus and accept the gift that he has given to you. Have a wonderful, beautiful blessed night. He is risen.
To the One with No Name
I donât think about you anymore. I know itâs hard for you to comprehend. I no longer care to have the same worthless conversations about my flaws and shortcomings. I am not perfect never pretended to be anything other than myself.
You are the one that pretended to be someone you arenât. So I go to bed with my conscience completely clear. I donât pretend to be something I am not.
I am a difficult person to love and even more difficult to understand. I am fiercely loyal and willing to move mountains for those whom I love. I am upfront and donât lie about my feelings. I am not fake and will never try to fit into a role because someone else thinks I should. I have my own personal opinions about politics. Jesus Christ is my Lord and Saviour, I will never apologize for that.
I am completely confident in myself. I know I am constantly growing and learning from my mistakes and experiences in life. I canât apologize for the past because it doesnât exist for me. I know you canât understand that and I wonât try to explain it.
I used to think maybe one day you would realize that. That I would always be there for you even in the darkest times of life. But I have mourned our relationship and have buried it.
Just as the dead cannot speak, we move on. The future is before us, will our paths cross again maybe, maybe not. Either way I hold no grudges towards you. You are in very long list of memories or times I no longer visit. Tucked away like a bookmark in a page of a book I will never read again. Always~Emma~
Donât be Used
Donât allow yourself to used. People will always take for granted the things you do. Especially if it is something that you do all the time. It might be something so small they donât really notice at all that you do it constantly for them.
Now I donât mean not doing things for others because you expect something in return, no that is not what I am saying. Usually the little things turn into bigger things. Things that are much more time consuming and the more you take on, I just ask one thing.
Does that person appreciate the time you spend on them? I donât mean by meaningless words but by actions. I have seen people both women and men do things for others that is completely ignored. They arenât appreciated for the time they lost or for the effort they put into that time.
So my question still remains are you appreciating those around you that do the little things or big things you donât notice? If not take some time to let them know that you appreciate them for all they do to make your life easier.
Also for those of you that arenât bring appreciated, give it time but not too much time. Some people will never appreciate what they have. So my advice is donât waste time on people that do not appreciate you.
Itâs one thing to allow people to grow but we all know some people will never grow. They arenât appreciated fundamentally broken inside and would rather use you than actually cherish you. So again walk away.
Life is too short and too precious to waste time on someone that only cares about themselves. Not everyone is bad but not everyone deserves the benefit of doubt.
Listen to your instincts they are usually right. Trust me I get how hard it is to be alone in this world. But it is better to be alone than around people that suck the life out of you like vampires. God created you with a purpose find out what that purpose is and go after it.
Growing is learning from our mistakes and not repeating bad behaviors of the past. I pray whoever reads this finds the courage and strength to overcome their situation. I pray God may guide you through whatever you face. May He be the light you need on your path.
Remember God wants a relationship with you. You just have to be willing to spend time together and let him show you the way. I pray you have a beautiful blessed week. ~Emma~
Surrounded
Even while sitting by people whom you love doesnât change the fact they donât see you. Doesnât matter how many times you have spoken to them you are still invisible.
I am used to people being this way around me. Doesnât change how much it still hurts. While also making me stronger for each and every single encounter that comes along.
People surround themselves with people just to stop the silence. But I find in the silence I am more comfortable. Is that good thing? I donât really have the answer for that. I do it makes me more comfortable in who I am and not whom others expect me to be.
Itâs extremely important to learn about yourself while also learning to be comfortable around others. Life is never going to go your way. So itâs best to learn how much you care and how much you donât.
That doesnât mean closing everyone off. We need people in our lives. We are built for community. So learning to be alone and learning to be comfortable around others in silence is also good.
One must learn that sometimes just being there can be a blessing. Never stop being the person God made you. Never stop growing and learning from the life He has given you. Smile and filled with gratitude always. ~Emma~
Emma the Mizfit 