It’s been a struggle for me the last few months with the ups and downs of the bipolar. I have decided again to try and find another therapist and try to find another group therapy to get into. I know I was doing much better during that time period but the program was cut because of funds. Ofc as we know mental health is the first program that get cut in the health industry. Especially when the state is making decisions as to where money goes. It’s been something I have struggled with for the last 2 years mainly because of the fact that my psychiatrist of many years died in 2020 and my therapist died two years ago. Bipolar ppl don’t deal good with changes and this year losing my another good therapist due to funding in hospital program along with my group therapy that I attended weekly. Adding the loss of my dog, uncle and losing friends. So for a few months the lack of therapy has definitely taken a toll and finally I have no choice but to try and find myself both. Without any therapy I will end up spiraling completely out of control so I know I must get back to the basics and find another. Unfortunately it’s not easy and exhausting to constantly look for another group or even just a good therapist. I write this blog to vent my frustrations with just the whole process and lack of help that is out there for myself and ppl like me. People wonder why there is such a crisis when it comes to mental health, I don’t. I know the main problems but unfortunately I cannot solve them. I have tried endlessly to speak out but no one actually wants to help the mental health community or the effects it has on people. They just don’t care. As in life we must choose to either get ourselves up or let life devour us. I know my story seems silly but unfortunately it’s the truth. I at least have my faith in God which is unwavering. So I know in the end I still hold onto hope. I hope if you read this and have no hope you find some strength inside yourself, ask God for help but do ask for help. hope you have a blessed weekend.
Tag: Grateful
Be the light
What is your mission?
To find the path God wants me on. I want to be an explain of His love and His patience. He has given me so much I want to repay that by showing what He had done for me. I want to be the light He gave me in my darkest moments. Also to bring awareness to the mental health issues and how is the only answer.
Pro life
How have your political views changed over time?
As I have gotten older I have become more conservative. When I was younger g I wouldn’t say I was super liberal but somewhat. As time has passed my views changed. Especially when it came to abortion. The fact that the baby isn’t even considered a human being makes me extremely sad. Many women never get the chance to have a child of their own and you have some women just aborting babies. I am sorry if it comes off as judgmental but the killing of an innocent child should never be celebrated or praised as a good thing. Becoming a warrior for Christ meant defending the innocent. I don’t wish harm on others especially those that have committed such acts. That is between them and God. But as long as I have breath I will continue advocating as a pro-lifer and one that advocates for the mentally ill.
Dancing to a puppy tune
What was the last thing you did for play or fun?
The last thing I did for fun was dance to Christmas music with three dogs trying to jump on me. They danced at my legs trying to climb on me. It was so nice and fun to just dance in the living room with all their little faces looking at me. I did it today by the way, and it was epic. 🤣🐶❤️
What to eat?
What are your feelings about eating meat?
I love eating meat had a beautiful steak Saturday night. As you can see with the picture, it was juicy and delicious.
Happy Thanksgiving
Happy Thanksgiving. Remember to be grateful for everything in your life even the hard times. Everything has a season and a grateful heart is one filled with joy and the love of God. Hope you all have a blessed one.
Did it my way…
What’s the coolest thing you’ve ever found (and kept)?
That’s a hard one. Let me think. The coolest thing I have found and kept is the ability to be myself and not conform to what someone else thinks I should be. Even in my youth I always went against the followers. It’s like the song goes by Frank Sinatra
My friend, I’ll say it clear
I’ll state my case, of which I’m certain
I’ve lived a life that’s full
I traveled each and every highway
And more, much more than this
I did it my way
Podcasts
What podcasts are you listening to?
Listen to Louder with Crowder, sometimes Rogan, some of my fellow YouTubers, Tim Pool, PBD, and a few others.
Three years
What will your life be like in three years?
To be honest I have no clue. I can hope for certain things in life. But the truth of the matter is we plan our future but life happens. So I will keep planning for my future but will any of my goals happen I don’t know. Because I can only my control each day and none of us our promised tomorrow. The world seems really dark and I prefer to try to keep seeing the light. So what will my life be like in 3 years only God knows I just hope I will be happy and still grateful for each moment I am alive.
What everyone should know
What’s something you believe everyone should know.
Everyone should know that everything you wish for, you probably won’t get. Everything you work hard for, you probably will never have. Everything you sacrificed for, probably won’t bring you happiness. Everything you lost in the process is going to make you stronger. Every time you fail, you will be more determined to succeed. Every single time you fall, you will get back up. Because life isn’t easy so keep going no matter how difficult. In the end only the strong survive the journey.
Emma the Mizfit 