Expectations

Why is loyalty an expensive expectation? It’s not like it’s not earned. It is something you have to work for and when it’s given to you, it should be cherished. Yet so many are not loyal. Not loyal friends not loyal to their family not loyal to their country Not loyal to their partners.

If I myself asking this question over and over again, why can’t people be loyal? Is it because of the disloyalty of Adam and Eve? Are we meant to carry the same sin of disloyalty towards others?

It might be that simple maybe not I could be wrong. I hope Someone proves me wrong. If not, I will die knowing that loyalty is something many just don’t get.

Live Show in Atlantic City

What was the last live performance you saw?

Well it depends on what you consider live performance. Last time I was in Atlantic City I saw a live band. They are not famous. They weren’t this huge group, but it was really good. It was very entertaining. The music was wonderful. They were playing like older music by other artists but it was so good. It was live and everybody was having fun and it was so good to watch and enjoy the music. So I would definitely say that was the last live performance that I saw.

Three favorite meals

What are your family’s top 3 favorite meals?

Chicken sautéed with peppers and onions with white rice. Pasteles with fries and a fried egg, which is a Puerto Rican dish. A nice medium cooked steak with asparagus and a baked potato with butter. My favorite three meals. It also kind of depends if we’re talking about like on morning-lunch or dinner time because it changes but those are my favorite three meals for like dinner.

It’s hard

What do you do when you are searching for yourself? Trying to become the best version of yourself. Meanwhile trying to find who that person truly is. I became lost long ago. Years went by and now finally I am becoming a better version of myself. Disciplining myself, finding ways to become more independent and more confident in everything I do. For so long, I realized I could not truly be in a relationship as an adult, because I still acted like a child. It’s only through the last few years and especially the last few months that I realize that in order to become a better version of myself, I needed to set goals. I needed to discipline myself. I needed to learn or should I say relearn better coping skills, how to be able to communicate properly with others and not try to fall into old patterns. Patterns that were not healthy but instead create new healthier habits. Create healthier coping skills. Learning to communicate my own feelings, my own thoughts, without getting angry or hurt. While also taking into consideration that not everything will go my way. There are just some things that I just need to let go and learn to accept them as nothing more than fleeting memories, fleeting moments, with fleeting people. Friendships live and friendships die. Time will tell but in the end it is I that will be stronger. Which makes all the pain worth all the lessons I needed to learn to grow. It’s hard I won’t pretend it will be easy. Nothing worth having is ever easy.

Becoming the best version of myself

What have you been working on?

I have been working on myself. Trying to learn from my mistakes. Trying to live a healthy lifestyle. Trying to learn how to communicate better. Trying to push myself out of own comfort zones. Learning new coping techniques to try and not keep myself back. Always trying to keep growing to become a version of myself than I was yesterday. Sounds silly I know but it’s the truth. The only way I can find my place in this life is to find myself. For so long I had no idea who I was and I think finally, I am coming to understand who I am and who I want to be. Because there is a difference, I don’t just want to be myself I want to be the best version of myself.

Sleepless nights

Every night I head to bed, take my medication to help me sleep but recently haven’t been able to sleep the whole night. I used to think it was the stress I am under. I am doing a lot of different projects at once and that could be the reason. On the other hand I was sleeping just fine a couple of months ago. So what changed? At this very moment I have no clue I fell asleep about 12:30-1:00am. I was tired and had a long day taking care of the dogs. So again I was tired, played my games and headed to bed. Now here I am at 4:04 am in the morning wondering how is this my new normal. I went from sleeping the whole night to sleeping just a few hours. Like I said fell asleep around 12-1 and I woke up about 3:30 half hour later I am still trying to fall back asleep. I really can’t shut my mind off and I praying God helps me. Let’s hope. I will try to head to bed again hoping this time will be the moment I fall asleep. I will let you know how good that works tomorrow. Nite ~Emma~

Start the day with a smile 😊

There will always be those people in the world that relish in causing misery. They don’t enjoy seeing other people happy or mildly content. It’s like some thing they refuse to comprehend. Instead of changing their own perspective. They dwell in the mentality that my life is crap so who cares. It’s an extremely narcissistic view of life and completely selfish. It’s quite sad when you think about it. Life is too short to be mad and hateful towards anyone. We all carry our own burdens and inner demons, that we must fight each day. Most don’t seem to understand that there are so many opportunities to find happiness in the little things. Such as the beauty of the day that you have just started. Instead, they’re too busy focusing on poor me and my woes. So today, I hope you have a wonderful beautiful day regardless of the crappy people in the world whom try to cause misery. I hope your day is filled with sunshine and rainbows. I hope that it will be a beautiful bright day for you. I also hope that you make someone else smile today. Be the change you want to see in the world. And maybe just maybe things will change for the better. ~Emma~

Today

Today has been an extremely busy day for me. I am working on like 4 different projects. I would like to say that keeping as busy as I am now, does distract me from feeling anything. Which I would like to say is a good thing for the moment. Sometimes the best way to keep from thinking or dwelling on something is to keep busy. So if you are having a rough day just remember you aren’t alone. Many feel the way you feel. Just try to focus on one blessing today. One victory no matter how small it may be. You can get through this day you just need to believe in yourself. Have a beautiful blessed day. ~Emma~

Daily positive advice….

I hope everyone has a blessed day filled with love and blessings. Spread as much love as you can and kindness to others it’s the only way to truly change the world. ~Emma~

Daily message

Happy Friday, I hope everyone has a beautiful day and a wonderful weekend. Remember to stay positive and don’t allow the negativity of the world get you down. You can’t change anyone, you can only control how you react. Stay strong and stay positive. ~Emma~