What is your mission?
To find the path God wants me on. I want to be an explain of His love and His patience. He has given me so much I want to repay that by showing what He had done for me. I want to be the light He gave me in my darkest moments. Also to bring awareness to the mental health issues and how is the only answer.
When are you most happy?
I am the most happiest when I am able to be myself comfortably and completely without having to constantly say I am sorry for being myself. It’s not easy having bipolar, I tend to repeat things and go in circles a lot. I use coping skills and try to constantly remind myself to not do it but I do fail at times. So it’s nice when I can just be myself without worrying about wasting someone’s time. I can actually say I don’t get to be that happy most of the time. The world is constantly asking for people to be themselves but the truth is when it comes to mental health it’s still a topic no one truly wants to understand. Instead they would rather ignore the person or the problem. So I am forced a lot of the time to not speak in order to contain myself. Even around the people I feel the most comfortable with, I am still forced to not be myself. I guess I hope one day I can find someone I can be myself with. If that day comes cool if it doesn’t it’s because it was never meant to be. Someone told me a few days ago faith is my thing not theirs, and yes it is. I believe the Creator of the Universe has a purpose for each person. He removes things in your life for a reason. Is it faith to believe that the path I walk on, is something I might have to walk alone without a man possibly. But I am never alone, I have God with me so it’s okay to accept that journey with just Him by my side. Because regardless if no one ever can truly make feel comfortable or love me being myself God does. He loves everything about me and accepts me the way I am. For me that is all I need.
Happy Thanksgiving. Remember to be grateful for everything in your life even the hard times. Everything has a season and a grateful heart is one filled with joy and the love of God. Hope you all have a blessed one.
When you find so many in your life that are fake AF you know it’s time to start over somewhere else.
What is good about having a pet?
They love you unconditionally. Even dogs that have been beaten by their owners still are loyal to them. It’s fascinating how a dog can love their owner so much. We only have them in our lives for a short period of years. For them you are their entire existence to the day they die. I have loved many pets loved many dogs buried many loves. It’s incredibly heartbreaking when you lose them but damn it is so amazing loving them. No matter what they love you and that is something you may never find on this earth. I have said it before I think dogs are like little angels sent from God to show us what true unconditional love looks like.
Do you need time?
Everyone needs time. Time to heal, time to think, time to relax, time to pray, time to be alone, time to be around people you love. It’s like each season, as the summer finishes the autumn breeze sets in, after the autumn breeze has settled, the chill of the winter sneaks in. Time is the only thing that is constant in this world. I also believe that time is only on the planet earth. As a believer in God. God does not exist in time nor does anything else around him. Only the humans trapped in this world experience time. It’s how we keep a hold of when and how we began or when it will all end. But it’s pretty clear in the writing of the Bible God does not exist in time. So I am confident in saying that I don’t believe anything outside our world is based on time. Science can try to calculate, they can try to figure out but the truth is no one will know till our time has ended. So that is pretty much my own thinking of time.
You have three magic genie wishes, what are you asking for?
World peace, for Jesus Christ to come already, and last but not least that everyone gets to make it to heaven. I know to some that might sound silly but there is reason to my madness. One money will not matter if we are always in wars and fighting each other. Eventually we all be poor trying to survive in a world filled with hate. I want Jesus Christ to come back because He promised He would. I don’t see a positive future much longer. I would like Him to come soon. Last but not least I would like everyone to make to heaven. I know it’s possible technically, but I also know it is written in the Word of God that one must believe in God and accept Jesus Christ. I do hope everyone takes that chance. It might sound ridiculous and extremely naive but I would rather see the ugliness in the world with sunshine and lots of rainbows. For after every storm there is always a rainbow even if you can’t see it.
What are you most proud of in your life?
The day I got baptized and gave my soul to God. It was the best thing I have ever done and the only thing that made me feel absolutely powerful. He not only helped me that day, He also has given me the strength to keep going every single day. No matter the struggle He gives me the strength.
What have you been working on?
I have been working on myself. Trying to learn from my mistakes. Trying to live a healthy lifestyle. Trying to learn how to communicate better. Trying to push myself out of own comfort zones. Learning new coping techniques to try and not keep myself back. Always trying to keep growing to become a version of myself than I was yesterday. Sounds silly I know but it’s the truth. The only way I can find my place in this life is to find myself. For so long I had no idea who I was and I think finally, I am coming to understand who I am and who I want to be. Because there is a difference, I don’t just want to be myself I want to be the best version of myself.
List 10 things you know to be absolutely certain.
List 10 things you know to be absolutely certain
One- I believe without a doubt that there is a God.
Two- I don’t know what life was like before I became sick, but I also don’t know what life is like without my chaos.
Three- People are flawed and you just learn to accept that or move on.
Four- Love can only be felt when you have met and known God. For without knowing God one cannot truly know what love is.
Five- Showing kindness to a stranger can truly change their day.
Six- Falling in love with a face is easy but falling in love with the person’s soul that’s epic.
Seven- Death pardons no one. Cherish each moment in life for it is precious.
Eight- You never stop learning from life. For if one is not learning each day, they will never grow as a person.
Nine- Loyalty cannot be bought.
Ten- Trust is given but once it’s betrayed it will never be the same.
Emma the Mizfit 