
Accepting facts!!!!


Came in from a rainy Thursday on the avenue
Thought I heard you talking softly
I turned on the lights, the TV, and the radio
Still I can’t escape the ghost of you
What has happened to it all?
Crazy, some’d say
Where is the life that I recognise? (Gone away)
But I won’t cry for yesterday
There’s an ordinary world
Somehow I have to find
And as I try to make my way
To the ordinary world
I will learn to survive
Passion or coincidence once prompted you to say
“Pride will tear us both apart”
Well, now pride’s gone out the window
Cross the rooftops, run away
Left me in the vacuum of my heart
What is happening to me?
Crazy, some’d say
Where is my friend when I need you most? (Gone away)
But I won’t cry for yesterday
There’s an ordinary world
Somehow I have to find
And as I try to make my way
To the ordinary world
I will learn to survive
Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh
Ahh-ah-ahh
Away-ay, ay-ay-ay-ay
Oh, oh
Papers in the roadside tell of suffering and greed
Fear today, forgot tomorrow
Ooh-ooh
Here besides the news of holy war and holy need
Ours is just a little sorrowed talk
And I don’t cry for yesterday
There’s an ordinary world
Somehow I have to find
And as I try to make my way
To the ordinary world
I will learn to survive
(Every world is my world)
I will learn to survive
(Any world is my world)
I will learn to survive
(Any world is my world)
(Every world is my world)
If you could be someone else for a day, who would you be, and why?
I know this is going to sound silly but honestly I wouldn’t want to be someone else. What has made me unique, what has made me, ME, are my life experiences. The dark times I have gone through, the happy times and the times of complete insanity shaped me into who I am today. I love completely, I hide nothing, I trust easily, I try to live with no regrets and move forward. I have an open heart and don’t hide my feelings well. I don’t act fake and won’t pretend to be fake. It is a weakness and a strength. So I wouldn’t want to be someone else even for a day.
What advice would you give to your teenage self?
The advice I would give myself as a teenager would be, “don’t allow anyone to control you. That starts by learning to not react to others. Learn self discipline and learn to control yourself. Learn that you can’t change anyone. Learn that you can’t control the circumstances of life. Learn to grow from each situation. Each thing that happens in life will be for a reason, even if you can’t see that now. Allowing your emotions to cloud your mind, leads to you making choices you might never have chosen if you had a clear mind. So allow yourself time to reflect. Allow yourself time to hurt. Allow yourself time to be alone, away from others. Allow yourself to be comfortable in the quietness of yourself. Never give anyone the power over you and that can only start by controlling yourself. Most of all don’t forget that no matter what, you are never truly alone. God will always be with you.”
Do you need a break? From what?
I need a break from my feelings. I am one of those people that cares about everything and everyone. Constantly worried about people that no longer have a place in my life. I worry about them not knowing if they are okay or doing well. It’s just a super annoying feeling to constantly have feelings about other people. Especially people that can’t even be bothered to care about you. I know I shouldn’t care, I know I shouldn’t worry, I know I should just ignore it all but I still care. So yeah I wish I could take a break from feeling anything. I wish I could be as heartless as others. I wish I could be free from feelings, unfortunately I am not and it is part of who I am.
The most important invention in your lifetime is…
FaceTime it allows you to see your loved ones no matter where they are in the world. Though it will never be the same as holding and hugging the people you love. It gives you the opportunity to speak to them daily. It better than cellphones. Because again you can be with the person see their face enjoy the time together even though you are in different parts of the country or even the world. It’s definitely the greatest invention during my time.
How do significant life events or the passage of time influence your perspective on life?
Each life event we go through as human beings we either learn and grow from that experience. Or we learn nothing and stay in a perpetual state of victimhood. We are all struggling, fighting our own demons or just simply fighting life. It is through these trials that we become stronger and learn from our past mistakes. Not taking the time to learn from our past mistakes will allow us to continue making the same mistakes over and over again. I have learned in life that we must change our perspective, focus on the goals we wish to obtain and let go of the things that we cannot change. Doing this, I have allowed myself to become stronger and not defined by my past. This has also allowed me to be open about my feelings, my sickness and not hide who I am. It’s given me great strength. It has me freed me to be myself. Growing constantly into a better version of myself. It has given me the confidence that I need to be comfortable in my own skin. I may not be perfect, I am extremely flawed and extremely chaotic but I have learned there’s only one like me. Through time life events are like scars, they never really go away, but they fade. They stay a part of you as a lesson, but overtime you can hardly see them.
I know you think that I shouldn’t still love you
Or tell you that
But if I didn’t say it, well I’d still have felt it
Where’s the sense in that?
I promise I’m not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were
I will go down with this ship
And I won’t put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I’m in love and always will be
I know I left too much mess and
Destruction to come back again
And I caused nothing but trouble
I understand if you can’t talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of it’s over
Then I’m sure that that makes sense
I will go down with this ship
And I won’t put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I’m in love and always will be
And when we meet
Which I’m sure we will
All that was there
Will be there still
I’ll let it pass
And hold my tongue
And you will think
That I’ve moved on
I will go down with this ship
And I won’t put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I’m in love and always will be
I will go down with this ship
And I won’t put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I’m in love and always will be
I will go down with this ship
And I won’t put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag abobe my door
I’m in love and always will be
What do you complain about the most?
I am always complaining about how feminism has ruined our society. Women have shaped our society into a very weak, passive aggressive, crap talking, sitting in the corner, waiting for the approval of other people to make them feel better about themselves. It’s all about projecting to others how they feel. I know other women will get mad about it but honestly it has become this constant conversation of just strong independent woman that don’t need a man. I am sick of it. I have nephew and two nieces and I fear the society they are growing up in. This is not a good thing. Instead of raising boys to become men, strong and take care of their families, they are raising boys into little girls. It’s insane and what is even more insane is how we have continued to allow this insanity to go on. We have let it happen due to our own tolerance. We are now allowing men into women’s sports, into women’s bathrooms, into women’s changing rooms in the name of tolerance. What even angers me more is the biggest loudest feminist are the ones that are constantly saying you are some sort of “ism” if you don’t believe it. Well as a woman I say woman and men are different. We compliment each other and are made that way on purpose. I do believe the woman belongs at home taking care of the kids. If we had more moms taking care of kids and not dropping them off in public schools to be indoctrinated we would have a better society. Now before everyone starts yelling about how I want women to be abused or something, which I am not saying that. I personally feel that women have not helped our society thrive instead it has destroyed the one thing that kept our society thriving. Women were made to be the care givers of the home. My mom is loved us, my dad provided for us. She is our rock, she our foundation, she is the heart of our home. That is what every mom should be but today that is not celebrated that is not the standard. That is where women have failed. Now I want to be clear I wasn’t always thinking this way, it wasn’t till I got older I saw the errors in my thinking. As I have grown and learned more I saw the truth. I am not asking for women to be treated as a second class citizen or to be hiding and not talking. I again believe that feminism is what destroyed what is means to truly be a woman. It has downgraded us and now future generations will have to pay for our mistakes.
What is your mission?
To find the path God wants me on. I want to be an explain of His love and His patience. He has given me so much I want to repay that by showing what He had done for me. I want to be the light He gave me in my darkest moments. Also to bring awareness to the mental health issues and how is the only answer.