What are 5 everyday things that bring you happiness?

One- waking up in the morning no matter how crappy I feel waking up makes me happy.

Two- having my first cup of coffee in the morning makes me happy.

Three- spending time with my mom and dad as they get older I know how precious the time we have left is. I don’t take any of that for granted.

Four- my sister. She is my best friend and even when we fight and she doesn’t understand me I know she will always be there for me regardless.

Five- every morning I wake up I thank God for each new day and for the strength to get through it. At night before bed no matter how tired I am I always sit on my bed and just talk to Him. It might sound weird but I never once think He isn’t there with me. I talk to Him like he is the only one that will ever truly understand me. He is the only one that will ever truly love me the way I am. And honestly that is the happiness moment each day I have.

He is Risen

I hope everyone has a beautiful blessed day. While enjoying the time with family and friends remember it was through the sacrifice of Jesus Christ dying for us that we rejoice in. He died for our sins and rose from the grave for us to have eternal life. Have a blessed day. ~Emma~

Today and everyday

What is the last thing you learned?

You might feel alone but God is always with you.

Just three things

What are three objects you couldn’t live without?

-God

– The Bible

-notebook or paper to write all my thoughts and poems out

Quote for today

Don’t get too attached to people because in the end everyone leaves. -unknown-

Walk on sunshine

Today is going to be a good day. I refuse to allow anything to bring my mood down. Instead I will be walking on sunshine. Does that mean everything will go right? Does that mean it will be an easy day? No but I am choosing that regardless of the day I will still have a good day. I will not allow anything to bring me down. I hope today you have a beautiful day filled with love and lots of blessings. ~Emma~

Positive Christmas turn

Last night was fun and today is peaceful. I am grateful to have my family that accepts me even at my worst. I knew the other day I lashed out it had been a while since I went so down so fast. Maybe it was being sick and down that drove to lose control so easily. But the truth is I still need to find better coping skills to keep me ahead of the twists and turns. Life is extremely unpredictable and I need to learn to cope with I can control which is myself. There will always be a trigger always something will change my moods. It’s learning and finding new ways to adapt to the chaos that I must learn to master in myself. I know I am not alone, I trust in God and I know somewhere someone else may be experiencing the same thing. It is through that I must learn to find ways to keep fighting. The mood swings can happen but learning to keep calm and being aware is something we must all learn. Learning to lean on those that support us is a good thing. Therapist, group therapy, God, family, friends whatever it is keep finding good coping skills to help you find the strength you have. I learned last night not only God gave me the strength but my family did also. It was through that support I have in place that gave me the chance to speak to them, to trust in them and allow myself to vulnerable with them. Having the conversation and being completely open with them helped me enjoy being in the moment with the whole family. It was truly an amazing night that I will remember for a long time. I hope your Christmas was blessed. As I said to everyone yesterday remember we celebrate Christmas because it was the gift that we got from God in Jesus Christ who came and died to save us. We celebrated His birth. You might not believe but this what I believe and I am willing to stand on that rock always. God has given me so much and Jesus isn’t just my king, he is my friend, the lover of my soul, He knows me in ways no one will ever know and it’s a comfort for me. To have trust and faith in someone I can feel in my heart. Without God I would not be here it is through his love and Grace that I am at peace tonight. I send you some of that peace that maybe you can have that inner peace starting this new week. Have a wonderful week, filled with many blessings. ~Emma~

Christmas message

It’s the night for me before Christmas Eve. It should be one filled with joy and happiness. Unfortunately with me being sick most of the month I haven’t felt joyful to say the least. I have been reading this Bible plan which talks about Christmas and the true meaning and how much we have forgotten about what it truly means. I guess that’s why I am truly sad about. Christmas no longer is about Christ’s birth. No it’s about gifts and it’s about dinners and what to wear how to dress what to decorate. Today I worked my ass off decorating our family room making sure it is perfect for anyone coming over. As I did that my sister took off with my niece and brother. I guess it wouldn’t bother me so much but the fact that here I am trying to make it perfect for no one. Because the truth is no one cares. I cared and put all my effort into something no one will give a shit about. It broke my heart and made me super angry. Why do I continue the cycle of insanity of trying to make others happy even as I feel like complete crap? Why am I still freaking doing everything I can to make them happy when in the end you truly have no one that actually cares or is even willing to give you the time you want. This used to be my favorite season and I wish I could say it has been one thing that took that from me but it wasn’t. No it’s been a long month of crap that just stripped it all from me and it was today that I decided I don’t want any part of it. My sister and mother say it’s just me throwing my usual tantrum but they don’t get it. How hard it has been on me personally but the truth is they don’t care. No one cares how you feel or how your mind turns. They only care of themselves and what they are going through to actually care about others. They don’t care about you they say they do but the truth is when you feel the loneliest no one is there. So my my friends tonight might be my last post for a few days. But regardless of how my Christmas will be I do hope for you all to have a wonderful one. I wish I could give you a positive attitude but at this moment I am too down to actually be positive about anything. God is my strength and with him I will carry on. No matter how anyone makes me feel I will hold hope by holding his hand. And I hope for the rest of you that feel the way I do at this moment you do the same. Hope by holding the hand of God, you have nothing to lose by holding on to him for strength. That’s the only thing I can give you. Merry Christmas everyone. ~Emma~