Tag: feelings

Garbage

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I am a human being

I am a woman

I am Puerto Rican

I am a Christian

I am daughter

I am a sister

I am an aunt

I am a niece

I am a dog lover

I am a cat owner

I am a writer

I am a poet

I am a conservative

I am a free thinker

I am suspicious of anyone that doesn’t love dogs

I am a believer of miracles

I am a dog sitter

I am a business owner

I am a content creator

I am a warrior for God

I am a rebel

I am free Speech absolutist

I am pro life

I am an American

I am MAGA

I am a Trump Supporter

Does that make me garbage, or not intelligent?

Does that make me a cult member?

Does that make me crazy?

Or does that make me a person that believes in freedom?

What I can say is I am not telling you how to live your life. Even if I think you are stupid and dumb I would never tell you are not allowed to be that way. Because I believe in freedom. Freedom comes at a cost. Make sure to vote this November 5! This election is a fight against corruption and for the freedom of this Country. Your vote counts!

The Twins

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The twins came by, being around them always makes me happy. I will never understand how women can say they will be happy without having kids. I mean I know I have no choice in the matter and many women face that reality every day. But for those that actively seek to not have kids I will never understand.

I remember when the twins were born what it was like holding them. Having them napping on top of me was the best feeling in the world. Even watching them grow up is a joy. When they took their first steps to talking, they are some of the best memories I have.

For me it’s even better because I don’t remember my past. So when the twins were born it was like the first time I got to hold my niece or nephew. Now that isn’t true because I have an older niece but the truth is I don’t remember the memories with her.

Though I don’t remember them I know she was extremely important to me. I have heard stories of how close we were but the illness took that all from me.

Being with the twins even for an hour or two reminds me each day is precious. We may never get another chance to enjoy being around the ones we love. Life is extremely short and goes by so fast. The best moments are just being able to enjoy sharing silly moments with each other.

Even if that’s trying on different wigs or playing GTA, for me those are the best moments. ~Emma~

No one

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When you think of the word “successful,” who’s the first person that comes to mind and why?

I guess it would depend on what I feel true success looks like. For instance I believe successful for me would be to have gotten married, had kids, raised those kids, taking care of my parents and family while also having a good strong relationship with my husband and God. Now have I gotten that no. But I have been successful in overcoming the obstacles that were in my way of life. I know many people that are successful in different areas but for me one person does not come to mind because my view of “success” no one has reached.

One of those days

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I am going to get my nails done today. I am attending a costume party later in the week. Today I woke up knowing I was just in one of my moods. I am grateful to God that today I get to get up, but it doesn’t change the feeling of being in one of those moods. I won’t dwell in the feeling and I will still force myself to go get my nails done. But I hate the days I wake up this moody. Just one of those days. 🤷‍♀️

You’re Not Alone

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Sang by: Meredith Andrews

I searched for love when the night came and it closed in

I was alone, but You found me where I was hiding

And now I’ll never ever be the same

It was the sweetest voice that called my name, saying

You’re not alone for I am here

Let me wipe away your every fear

My love, I’ve never left your side

I have seen you through the darkest night

And I’m the One who’s loved you all your life

All your life

You cry yourself to sleep

‘Cause the hurt is real and the pain cuts deep

All hope seems lost with heartache your closest friend

And everyone else long gone

You’ve had to face the music on your own

But there is a sweeter song that calls you home, saying

You’re not alone for I am here

Let me wipe away your every tear

My love, I’ve never left your side

I have seen you through the darkest night

And I’m the One who’s loved you all your life

All your life

Faithful and true forever

My love will carry you

You’re not alone for I, I am here

Let me wipe away your every fear

My love, I’ve never left your side

I have seen you through the darkest night

Your darkest night

And I’m the One who’s loved you all your life

All your life

Foot check?!?

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So today I went to doctor to get my foot checked. Not only is there a tear in a ligament but I also have a deep sprain in one of the ligaments that are “strongest” ones in the foot. I am going to have to do therapy and walk with the stupid foot corset till it gets better. 

It’s funny since I was young I have always been accident prone. I have always blamed Satan 🤣. I always would say “damn Satan is really trying to take me out” not just take me out but with walls, floors, kitchen island, chairs, stairs, doors, sidewalks, my cat. It’s endless the ways he has tried. 

I laugh about it now but in reality I have always felt that way. Still I am grateful that regardless of all the “accidents” I have had I am still alive to write this blog. Not only alive but grateful for each and every scar that I have gotten on this journey called life. 

We must always be grateful for the good and bad moments in life. It’s through the bad moments we learn to cherish the good moments even more. So even though I will end up in therapy for my foot, hopefully I will learn to tolerate the pain and get through each moment smiling. 

For each day we wake up is a good day.  ~Emma~ 

Time with God

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What could you do more of?

I need to spend more time fasting and praying. I know it’s something I have kind of have been thinking of doing but have put to the side. Fasting and praying is one of the best ways to feed your mind and soul of God’s grace. It gives you clarity and absolute peace. It’s like entering in the most holy place with the Creator of the universe. It’s personal and it’s time you spend with just you and God. It’s so powerful and I need to do that more.

Goodness of God: sang by CeCe Winans

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I love You, Lord
Oh, Your mercy never fails me
All my days, I've been held in Your hands
From the moment that I wake up
Until I lay my head
Oh, I will sing of the goodness of God

And all my life You have been faithful
And all my life You have been so, so good
With every breath that I am able
Oh, I will sing of the goodness of God

I love Your voice
You have led me through the fire
And in darkest night You are close like no other
I've known You as a Father
I've known You as a Friend
And I have lived in the goodness of God, yeah

And all my life You have been faithful, oh
And all my life You have been so, so good
With every breath that I am able
Oh, I will sing of the goodness of God, yeah

'Cause Your goodness is running after, it's running after me
Your goodness is running after, it's running after me
With my life laid down, I'm surrendered now
I give You everything
'Cause Your goodness is running after, it's running after me, oh-oh
'Cause Your goodness is running after, it's running after me
Your goodness is running after, it's running after me
With my life laid down, I'm surrendered now
I give You everything
'Cause Your goodness is running after, it keeps running after me

And all my life You have been faithful
And all my life You have been so, so good
With every breath that I am able
Oh, I'm gonna sing of the goodness of God
I'm gonna sing, I'm gonna sing
Oh, 'cause
'Cause all my life You have been faithful
And all my life You have been so, so good
With every breath that I am able
Oh, I'm gonna sing of the goodness of God
Oh, I'm gonna sing of the goodness of God

Christmas

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How do you celebrate holidays?

We usually celebrate the holidays by going all out. For Christmas I will say we start the outside decorations in the last week of September or first week of October. It’s due mainly because it starts to get cold by me very fast. Some times the fall weather can last longer but sometimes winter just blasts in. So for us starting the decorations especially hanging of lights and stuff is just better earlier. We love to making the house all colorful and filled with Christmas cheer. I know most think it’s silly but for me especially Christmas is very magical. I know it’s not the actual date of Jesus Christ birth but celebrating like it’s His birthday makes it so much more special.

Talking to God

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How do you relax?

I spend each night talking to God. It helps me feel better and unburdened. I can tell Him anything, give him my worries and not be afraid. I don’t feel like I have to pretend to be someone I’m not. I don’t feel like I have to censor myself. I can just be me in front of him and he still loves me. The most relaxing thing you can find, is a place that you find peace in. My peace is found talking to God. I find that is the only time I am truly relaxed and can be my complete self. This is why it’s the last thing I do before I go to bed. I like to fall asleep feeling at peace.