It’s always remarkable to me how quickly people turn their back on you. You stand there looking out for them and it quickly becomes “I never asked you to.” Some things we learn over time. Some things we learn through nothing more than being told we cause “drama” by existing. Well I no longer care if you see me as drama. It used to be called loyalty but in a world with no true meaning of anything, I can understand why one sees as drama. The days of me sticking my neck out for others is done. Because this girl no longer cares what happens to anyone. ~Emma~
Tag: feelings
Daily message
Happy Friday, I hope everyone has a beautiful day and a wonderful weekend. Remember to stay positive and don’t allow the negativity of the world get you down. You can’t change anyone, you can only control how you react. Stay strong and stay positive. ~Emma~
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Check out the links to find the Youtube channel, the Facebook pages, twitter and everything else. I would love to hear from you guys. Remember try to be positive and be kind. Thank you for checking out the pages and for help supporting me in creating all my content. I hope you have a wonderful blessed weekend. ~Emma~
Closure
Closure
Goodbyes are not easy
Closing a chapter is hard
Ending the time, you shared
Adapting to a new environment is tricky
Letting go finally makes life move forward
Don’t allow your past define your future
Learn from the mistakes
Learn from the lessons
Learn and adapt
One can only move forward by letting go
Never looking back
The future is ahead of you not behind you
Written by: Emmanuelle-Rose Grace
Fk Peace
The worst feeling in the world is not having anyone on your side. Instead always having to defend yourself because you can’t comprehend how weak others are. It’s really not called “weakness” if you always give into others, it’s called “keeping the peace”. Until you realize you no longer have a voice because you have been silenced by the very people that pretend to be keeping the peace. Fk you I won’t be silenced by anyone!!!!! ~Emma~
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Another day
I am grateful for the strength I have been given through my time of struggles. The world is a crazy chaotic mess and some people are just plain evil. Each time I am reminded of how mean people can be, I am also reminded how amazing life is. Life is short and it is precious. Many will cause you pain. Work can stress you out, daily activities can drive you nuts. But what I have found is, showing gratitude even for the smallest thing makes it worth fighting for. I have gone through a lot of tribulations in my life. I wake up each morning and thank God for another day. I know I have said this before but it is through His strength I am here. The point is finding things to be grateful for, even when you see nothing but darkness. Being kind, finding someone that was kind to you, maybe by holding the door open while you walked out the store. Waking up to breathe air and getting out of bed, these are things that might be small but always be grateful for. Old friends that make you smile. Laughing with your sister about a silly dog pooping in someone’s mouth. (By the way that’s an actual article she read to me today.) It is in those moments we must be grateful for. Let go of the weight of negativity, people that are mean, people that don’t appreciate you for being you. Find coping skills to help you find a better way to deal with the darkness. Being grateful, seeing the glass half full, try to find the silver lining, I know it’s hard. But you are worthy, find music to make you feel happy or sad. Sometimes a good cry helps. But always keep trying to fight the darkness that wants to bring you down. Going through any mental illness isn’t easy but keep fighting. And always remember you aren’t alone. God is there even if you don’t believe in Him, He believes in you. And I believe in you and I believe you can make it because I am a walking example of how you can get out of the dark and back into the light. It won’t be easy it will be hard. You will have to fight each and every single day but never give up. I am grateful today for my family, being able to get on this blog and write to you. One person might read this and I am okay with that. Because if that one person changes their outlook by reading my words than my job is done. I have been really busy but later today I will do one of my podcasts. It will just be me talking but I do believe it is important to continue reinforcing that mental health is a huge problem and it doesn’t get enough attention. I am grateful I woke up this morning and I am drinking my coffee. Hoping to share some positive thoughts to help or at least make you laugh. Before going through your day find something to be grateful. Grateful for shelter, grateful for a bed, grateful for another day, grateful for food. Check out the YouTube video I made, it’s a 3 min video with music and pictures. You can use it for praying, mediation or just sitting still and calming your thoughts that are trying to make you feel worthless. Start somewhere only you can decide to fight. Write down your thoughts, find the strength to keep moving forward. I can’t make you fight depression or any mental illness. Only you can scream to the heavens and beg for strength. But for now dwell in the knowledge I will be praying for all of you. Let us all wake up with grateful hearts. Have a beautiful day ~Emma~
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New Poetry…
The Widow
Lying in bed with a broken heart trying to understand why I am the way I am
Looking to the right and staring at a blank wall with nothing to say
Looking to the left and staring at the pictures that once hung there
Happy faces and smiles from time shared gone bye
How do I escape the pain from not having you here?
How do I fill this empty bed where you use to lay?
I feel my throat closing as I try to breathe in the last scent of you
The sheets still hold the faint smell of us
How do I escape the touch I need so much?
How do I free my mind from the prison I sit in now?
Tears stain my red cheeks
Sadness grabs a hold of me
My breathing becomes labored
How can I get you back?
I stare at the ceiling the sun shines through the blinds
But all I feel is the pain of not having you by my side
Tell me how can I live in a world you no longer live in
How can I go on without you?
I will do anything to get you back
But I know the one place I cannot get you from is the one place you belong
I turn to the dark side of the bed and hold the pillows tight
Knowing in heaven you will be alright
Written by:
Emmanuelle-Rose Grace
Today…
Some days I just want to give up. Some days I can fight the world.
Some days I just want to be left alone.
Today I wake up with hope that things are going to get better.
Grateful for the blessings and struggles.
Keep fighting the good fight.
Tomorrow isn’t guaranteed.
But today you can make a difference even if tomorrow never comes.
Have a beautiful blessed day.
~Emma~
Can’t sleep
I am writing this at 4:23 in the morning. I can’t sleep and I am trying hard. It seems even with the medication to make me fall asleep my mind doesn’t seem to want to shut off. Skipping sleep really isn’t an option for me. The more days I go without sleeping the easier for my grip on reality will start to shift. No one ever really knows how easily it is for a bipolar person to slip, it’s the little details such as not sleeping for days. It definitely leads to a spiral. And unless you have dealt with it personally or know someone that has you have no clue. And the truth is most ppl have no clue. I am going to keep trying to use a different coping skill to help me try and relax. Wish me luck. Nite. ~Emma~
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