Stop waiting for people that don’t give a crap about you to accept you. You look for validation from people that should not even be on your radar. So my advice, from my own personal experience is to just move on, do not look back. Whoever is left behind, never deserved to be in your presence. Have a blessed weekend. ~Emma~
Tag: feelings
List three books that have had an impact on you. Why?
The Bible, it’s impact has changed the lost girl in the darkness to one filled with hope. The flowers in the attic is second because of it’s dark tale. A twisted story of love, hate, family and how abused the kids would never really grow up to be normal. So many I have read throughout the years. Last is probably lord of the rings. Though it is more than one book yeah maybe I can’t include it because it is a series of books. Prayer Warriors that’s a solo book. It’s a really good book about praying and when asking God we must be careful. He speaks about the most dangerous prayers to ask God. It truly is a book worth reading. I guess series books would be in another category. Though flowers in the attic is technically a series you can read the one book and never read the others. I did that for a long time and it was fine with the story of the escape. But there are many books I could write down but I will stop here.
Push yourself
What fears have you overcome and how?
The fear of trying new things. After being sick for so long I was afraid to stray outside my comfort zone. After years of trying I just couldn’t do it but finally about a year ago I started to push myself more and more outside my comfort zone. It started with making books that would help others with mental health issues. Books for coloring, books with puzzles, crosswords anything to use as a coping mechanism. I learned during my own time these things helped me. By November of last year I started a YouTube channel Emma the Mizfit. Again pushing myself further out, the channel is small. Doesn’t have many members but I did it to help others that struggle like me. It has music videos for healing that I made. I even share my own experiences. Recently, I started an Etsy store, again pushing myself out more and more. The fear of failing never entering my mind because my focus is to try and get out of my safe space. The only way to get rid of the fear is to try and overcome it. If you fail you can always try again. will it be easy no, but it’s worth trying so you can grow to become the better version of yourself. Have a blessed day.
Broken Trust : written by Emmanuelle-Rose Grace
Black arrows go piercing through the night
Screaming in agony as blood pours out her mouth
The shots piercing close to the heart
Hiding in the shadows she tries to run
He points the arrows to hit again
With disgust in his eyes
Tears fall as she cries
Pleading and begging for her life
He leans back with his bow
Shoots her right through the leg
She falls to the ground
No expression as he walks down
The death of her merely an inconvenience he tries to say
Abandoned and laying in a pool of blood
Her eyes filled with suffering the unbearable pain
She looks to the star filled sky as her breathing starts to fade
Looking down at her
He bends down to whisper words for her to hear
“You were never worthy of being here with me”
He reaches and grabs one more arrow
His hand sweeps her tear filled face
He sticks the arrow deep within her heart
Tear stained cheeks as life leaves her behind
With pity he looks back his head facing down
Sorry for the chaos of putting her down
Sorrow sweeps into his heart
The smell of her scent
The way she smiled
The way she laughed
The way she felt in his arms
The memories rush to him like hitting a brick wall
But as cold as ice he simply pushes them away
He no longer can afford to care
No one will get that close he vows to the sky
She is the last one to ever make him feel alive
Consumed by death he walks away
Never to return to the way of light
He walks in the darkness never to see the day
For the light he once held is gone and dead
No longer left to shine in his world
Walking back he tries to forget her face
But he looks back one more time and turns away.
One simple act
Describe one simple thing you do that brings joy to your life.
When I wake up I smile to my ceiling and thank God for another day. No matter how hard the day might be, no matter whatever it has in store for me I am happy to be alive.
Lost my best friend today
What jobs have you had?
Too many to count. I love working but what I do now it’s the best.
Spencer greatest Frenchie ever!!!!
Today I found out I need to put my baby boy (dog) Spencer to sleep. I wish I could be more joyful but unfortunately this post won’t be joyful just sad. This little Frenchie came into my life 10 years ago. He was a whirlwind of just love and energy. He slept on my bed on his pillow that I had given him with his sheets. The sheets consisted of a pink playboy blanket that was super soft that he loved. On top of him he had a Tinkerbell blanket or the Dallas Cowboys blanket. He loved sleeping with them because my room was cold. We used to go for walks in the park and he loved walking. As he got older he would get more tired but he still loved walking even if he could hardly breathe on our walks. My sister lost her dog two years after I got Spencer. While she was grieving her loss I would let Spencer comfort her. It did cause a bit of struggle between us because she basically took ownership of him. But Spencer in the end had two mothers that loved him more than life itself. He continues to fight so I just pray that God have mercy and put him to rest. It will be painful to live without him but I wouldn’t trade one moment with him for not having this pain. The pain in my heart just reminds me how much I love him. In the end it is all worth the sadness and grief. So my message on this warm night is to be present in life and enjoy each moment for nothing last forever but the love we give each other. Have a beautiful day/night. ~Emma~
? Daily what ?
I know I am loving person. I try and go out of my way to be a kind individual. I know we each are fighting our own internal battle. Sometimes I even find myself going down the rabbit hole of why do we have to go through all this. The mundane things in life, getting up each morning, working all day, eating, bathing and heading to bed to sleep. Why do we have to do all these things? I know how easy it is to ask why, but you won’t get an answer. Many try to tell you what to do or how to feel, these are things that I think pretty much everyone has asked. Honestly I don’t think anyone knows the real answer. I guess today I am feeling a little curious to find out what others think. I know I can’t be the only one that feels that way. Or even questioning why do we have to continue doing the same exact things daily. But I guess these are things we will not know. Either way I hope you have a blessed day. ~Emma~
Good at
What are you good at?
I am good at writing poetry, loving unconditionally and being completely hopeful that things will eventually work out for the good.
Emma the Mizfit 