Be the light

What is your mission?

To find the path God wants me on. I want to be an explain of His love and His patience. He has given me so much I want to repay that by showing what He had done for me. I want to be the light He gave me in my darkest moments. Also to bring awareness to the mental health issues and how is the only answer.

All fun and games

Do you play in your daily life? What says “playtime” to you?

Play games yes it’s my time to kind of just relax. I take care of dogs I guess you can consider playtime with me chasing them. But playtime I think isn’t important as long as you have fun whatever it may be. Anything that makes you laugh till your belly hurts or you can’t breathe is a good sign you are having a beautiful moment. Enjoy it and cherish it.

Not really

Describe a man who has positively impacted your life.

Well if it has to be someone that I have never met per as without a spiritual connection it would have to be Jesus Christ. He gives me the direction I must go. Fills my heart when I am sad and hopeless. He gives me hope that no matter how dark times maybe He will always be by my side. As for a man not counting Jesus Christ, a few have come and gone that have left impressions and lessons I have learned from them. But to be honest I have never met anyone other than Jesus that has positively influenced my life. Again don’t get me wrong few have come and helped me to grow into a better person. But if I weigh that against how they made me feel or the way the spoke to me or treated me, it would be a hard not enough to justify them being in my life at all.

Random thoughts

I try hard to keep up. You have never made it easy so I gave up. Time has lost all its luster and my feelings are dead. I stop caring after learning you can careless. It’s like the quote goes from How I met your mother…

“You may think your only choices are to swallow your anger or throw it in someone’s face, but there’s a third option: you can just let it go, and only when you do that is it really gone, and you can move forward.” – Ted Mosby

Cry for love : The Mary Onettes

Because of your mother

I can’t seem to forget

That our love is a trembling one

And healthy to my soul

Because of your father

You’ve got a hole in your trust

And when I see you hide it I wish I could

Remove it from your heart

In silence I make promises

I’m lying still in the dark

And because of your peaceful soul

I keep thinking to myself

Don’t, don’t, don’t cry for love

Cry for love

Don’t, don’t, don’t cry for love

Cry for love

Don’t you cry for love

It’s a part of our path

Think about the way

Things were left to be

It’s a raging sea

And colors that you won’t be

Here to see

And it’s just a matter of time

Till they put me in the grave

Till they put you in the grave

So I don’t, don’t, don’t, cry for love

I don’t cry for love

Happy Thanksgiving

Happy Thanksgiving. Remember to be grateful for everything in your life even the hard times. Everything has a season and a grateful heart is one filled with joy and the love of God. Hope you all have a blessed one.

Living blissfully

What’s something most people don’t know about you?

What I really am facing each and every single day. They think they know they think they understand but the truth is they have no idea. I won’t share it because it’s pointless because they will never understand nor would they ever truly care to understand. I have family that think they know what I go through they think that. Truth is they don’t and I won’t shatter the illusion they have of me. Let them think what they want. Let them believe what they want. No matter what I do I will never live up to the expectations they have of me. So it’s better to let them live in ignorance because ignorance is bliss and they would rather live there than in reality.