Goodness of God: sang by CeCe Winans

I love You, Lord
Oh, Your mercy never fails me
All my days, I've been held in Your hands
From the moment that I wake up
Until I lay my head
Oh, I will sing of the goodness of God

And all my life You have been faithful
And all my life You have been so, so good
With every breath that I am able
Oh, I will sing of the goodness of God

I love Your voice
You have led me through the fire
And in darkest night You are close like no other
I've known You as a Father
I've known You as a Friend
And I have lived in the goodness of God, yeah

And all my life You have been faithful, oh
And all my life You have been so, so good
With every breath that I am able
Oh, I will sing of the goodness of God, yeah

'Cause Your goodness is running after, it's running after me
Your goodness is running after, it's running after me
With my life laid down, I'm surrendered now
I give You everything
'Cause Your goodness is running after, it's running after me, oh-oh
'Cause Your goodness is running after, it's running after me
Your goodness is running after, it's running after me
With my life laid down, I'm surrendered now
I give You everything
'Cause Your goodness is running after, it keeps running after me

And all my life You have been faithful
And all my life You have been so, so good
With every breath that I am able
Oh, I'm gonna sing of the goodness of God
I'm gonna sing, I'm gonna sing
Oh, 'cause
'Cause all my life You have been faithful
And all my life You have been so, so good
With every breath that I am able
Oh, I'm gonna sing of the goodness of God
Oh, I'm gonna sing of the goodness of God

Always prepare for the worse.

Create an emergency preparedness plan.

I have always been a prepper extra waters and non perishable food. Candles, batteries, matches, first aid kit on and on.

I have been doing it for a while now. It’s funny during Sandy when we lost power for over 2 weeks it was because of my prepping that led us to not need anything from the outside.

I do think every person should have sort of plan for any emergency. Power outage you should have a plan. Civil war breaks out you should have a plan of escape.

I am not saying that is what I want but one must be prepared for the worse. It’s like buying insurance for a car or house. You may never use the full amount or at all. But you will be happy you have it if you’re house burns down or if you car is completely destroyed.

Making plans for an emergency is always smart. I suggest everyone have a plan. Where to go, a bag prepared to leave with, emergency supplies it’s just responsible especially when you have family that depend on you.

Chasing you? Nope that’s a hard pass!

Disappointed is some thing I have become very familiar with. Just when you start to feel comfortable around people you find out that they are complete jerks. You want to try to do your best, you wanna to fit in but when you realize that you don’t, it’s doesn’t seem to matter as much. As I have gotten older I realize that I’m more comfortable in my skin. As time flows by I realize that the people that I want in my life, won’t ask to be in it. If you don’t want to be in my life, leave. I will never ask you to be in it. If you feel that you want to leave, I am not going to hold you back. I want you to be able to want to stay. I don’t want to be second place, I don’t wanna be the default choice I want to be the one that you choose. If you can’t do that, and if you feel like you’re missing out then by all means walk away. If you think that I’m going to sit here and beg you to stay, you’re wrong. I’m an extremely loyal person and if I can’t get that loyalty back, I don’t want you in my life. It’s not about making the wrong choices. It’s about knowing my worth and I know I am worthy of being loved and being happy. Surrounded by people that want to be with me. Surrounded by people that love me for me. Surrounded by people that accept me for me.

People are like seasons, in the summer you feel the heat of some peoples love. In the winter, you feel the chill and cold you see the real face of people that hide it so much to not show. In the spring, you might find the warmth of the sun that makes you think people can change. Like a rose that is blooming. But just like the autumn season, you see the beautiful colors of change and right before winter the leaves die, the flowers die, and everything dies right before the cold of winter. People are exactly the same way. You may never get to see their real cold side. You may never get to see the blooming rose in the spring and you may never feel the heat of summer, but you definitely get to feel the autumn right before the winter when everything has died.

Some things need to be let go of, I won’t hold you to your word. I won’t even try to win you back. I won’t even try to talk to you to reason with you. Because in the end I chose me. And my choice, I chose to walk away. Because in the end you are not worth fighting for. If you feel, I am not worth fighting for I think we are exactly where we are supposed to be. On the opposite of friendship. You make time for the people who mean something to you. Let this be a lesson to learn that letting go or walking away is more powerful than being surrounded by snakes.

I wish you the best always ~Emma~

Bring back shame!!!

What would you change about modern society?

I would make everyone stop sharing what their sexual pleasures are!!! I mean honestly there is absolutely no shame any more for people who walk around naked in front of children. It’s my biggest beef with the society we are living in. We have no shame and have allowed ourselves to be brainwashed into a state of fake tolerance. The only tolerance that exists right now is the tolerance from the ones trying to destroy our society. Because anyone that has morals or simply doesn’t want certain things to be before kids are considered to have some sort of phobia. It’s ridiculous and I am so over it. Can I watch House of the dragon without having two girl kiss absolutely not why because it’s now become the norm. No story needed just add two girl making out just because. I am up to the point I have sworn off all American tv from my list. I am watching C dramas, k dramas why because majority of it is clean. There is no kissing no naked people jumping around and the best part is the storyline. They actually have a reason for each character to be where they are. I have given up on exploring any tv from America. It’s absolutely shameful the writing in these shows. House of the Dragon was a waste of time don’t bother!!! I should have stuck to my first instinct and not even bother.

To my sister

Today I got the chance to enjoy the day celebrating the birthday of my sister. She is extremely annoying and completely drives me insane at times. But without my sister I would be lost. I love her more than words can ever say. She is smart, beautiful and kindhearted. Though most times we stand on opposite sides of most things in life, she is the only one I have. So to my amazing sister I wish a wonderful birthday filled with many blessings. May God grant you many healthy years ahead with many wonderful blessings in the future. Love always, Emma

For me.

Describe your most memorable vacation.

I don’t have memories so it’s hard to say. I don’t actually remember and to compare them to what I have done recently wouldn’t be fair. So I would rather describe what my favorite getaway would be like.

Vacation time is the best spent relaxing. Not running around through a park or museum or anything like that. For me spending time doing nothing but enjoying time with family or outside is the best.

The last few days I have gotten to enjoy a mini vacation. I didn’t go anywhere fancy but waking up late was awesome. Sleeping late, drinking coffee on the porch, chatting with my mom and dad was absolutely divine.

That’s what I call a good vacation.

Always grateful

Waking up in the morning, listening to the fan above my head spin and the air conditioning sound cool my room. I turn to the window the sun is really bright today. Well it’s summer and we are going through a heatwave so I guess sunshine is expected. Today I lay in bed a little longer for only I got to sleep in my bed. No dogs to share the sheets with just me.

The day is starting for me and soon another little puppy angel will be gracing us with her love later in the day.

As I look at the fan spin on the ceiling I say Thank You God. Today is new day and thank you for waking me up.

It might seem like a silly task to do daily but for me being grateful even for just waking up starts me off in a good mood. No matter what lies ahead in the day I prepare myself with thank you for life.

It might be a good day and hard day but either way I am alive to go through it.

Make sure to take time today and be grateful for the day. Not everyone gets the chance to wake up. Not everyone gets the chance to actually get out of bed. Having the right mind set to tackle the day sets you up to overcome whatever obstacles you will face.

So wake up grateful and thank God. I hope you all have a beautiful blessed day.

My Moms laugh

Describe one of your favorite moments.

One of my favorite moments is definitely when I am laughing with my mom. I am talking about those moments when you are both laughing so hard your belly starts to hurt and feel like you are about to pee on yourself. She has such a good laugh and watching her laugh makes me light up. It’s one of the most beautiful moments you can share with your mother and I love it every single time. I am one of the lucky ones that gets to still enjoy that. I am incredibly grateful for that. God has truly blessed me with her.

Dream

Had a dream the other night. Saw a man and woman standing in front of me. Beside me I can hear a male voice. He whispered in my ear Star Dust over and over again. I looked to see but saw no one there. The woman and man wore white. Above the sky was gold stars they weren’t just yellow stars they were gold by the way they glittered. Again I heard the voice star dust, star dust. What it meant have no clue. Maybe I will find the meaning soon enough.

Mother’s Day

It’s Mother’s Day again and here I am about to tell you all how amazing my mother is. But before I do that I must remind everyone that having a mom is privilege and I know how lucky I am to have her in my life.

My mother has sacrificed so much for all her kids but when you ask her she wouldn’t change any of it. I can never understand that kind of love because I don’t have kids and probably never will.

It’s a love that is profound and not every single woman that has a child is like my mom. She can be my biggest cheerleader and my harshest critic. She can be my anchor and also that one kills my dreams in a second.

She is beautiful and only gets more beautiful as she gets older. With each year passing by my mother shows me how to love more.

During my sickness my mother was there for me far beyond anyone on this planet. She saw me at my worst and loved me harder each time. The sicker I got the more she tried to pull me back.

Though my childhood was stolen from me and my memories taken. The pain I saw on my mother talking about what I went through broke my heart. Because even though I went through it I don’t remember it, but she does. I love my mother more than words can ever express. She isn’t just my mom, she is my best friend.

I don’t know if you have a mom like that or not but if you do remember these words. Love her, cherish her, let her know how much you love her. Because life is short and mom won’t always be around, so let her know today and every day how amazing she truly is. Mami thank you for showing me love. For showing me strength, for loving me regardless of flaws, for never leaving my side. You are my hero and one of kind. I dedicate this day and everyday to the most precious amazing woman I will ever know. I love Mami~always your daughter~