I pray to the Almighty that He may look over this nation. May He look over all those that come across this post. May He watch over them and draw them closer to Him. Thank you for never leaving my side. Thank you for guiding me in the darkness. Thank you for allowing me to wake up this morning, for my food and everything you bestow on me. For all good times gongs come from you I would be nothing without you. May this night bring peace to all that seek it from You. May their prayers be answered according to Your Will. Let me be able to rest for I am not feeling well. Let Your Almighty hand heal me from whatever this may be but only if it is Your Will. I put myself at Your feet and Your Mercy. I ask all this not by merits or anything I can do but in the Name of Jesus Christ my Lord and Saviour. Amen. šš¼
Tag: family
Expectations
Why is loyalty an expensive expectation? Itās not like itās not earned. It is something you have to work for and when itās given to you, it should be cherished. Yet so many are not loyal. Not loyal friends not loyal to their family not loyal to their country Not loyal to their partners.
If I myself asking this question over and over again, why canāt people be loyal? Is it because of the disloyalty of Adam and Eve? Are we meant to carry the same sin of disloyalty towards others?
It might be that simple maybe not I could be wrong. I hope Someone proves me wrong. If not, I will die knowing that loyalty is something many just donāt get.
Birthday
My birthday was the other day and it got me thinking. I am incredibly grateful for each and every single day I wake up. I know everyone doesnāt get to do the things that they have or that I have. I know some people donāt have the people that they have in their lives and I am extremely lucky to still have my parents and my family involved in my life.
I think after a certain age, you stop actually counting as you go up, but you are incredibly more blessed and thankful. You concentrate more on the things that you do have and not the things that you donāt have.
You think of all the ways that you have survived, the battles that you fought and still walked away. With scars and sweat and blood dripping down, it made no difference because you still walked away stronger.
Life is too short to be anything but happy and filled with gratitude. Just because you donāt think God exists or is working in your life doesnāt mean that he isnāt. God is always working in your life. God is always blessing you sometimes itās just not the way that you expect things to be. So as I go to another year, hopefully with Godās blessing. I hope Iām able to do all the things that I wanna do and all the things he wants me to do. I want to show him as my greatest joy in my life because God has always and will always be my greatest love
I canāt do anything if God doesnāt give me the strength the will and the power to do it. I owe all of the blessings I have to my Lord and Savior. So as I reflect on the year that has passed and the year thatās coming I hope and pray that this be the year that God grant me the one thing Iām asking for. But either which way my life is in his hand and itās all in his timing. ~~always, Emma~~
Summertime
My summer has been good extremely busy season. The dogs are roaring in and out so very busy time for me. Though it is a busy time I do get to enjoy the beauty of summer, then bbqs, the flies that are everywhere, the lantern flies that seem to grow bigger each year. The flowers, the birds, the ants that want invade Lunaās living area. The heatwave, the air conditioning that I sleep so well in, my room is like a freezer.
There are so many good things and bad things but most of all I am grateful. Regardless of the bugs and the heat the summer is beautiful. It reminds us that nothing last forever and the season will become cold and dark again. So enjoy the moment or season you are in now. It wonāt last but make the best of the season and be grateful for it.
You never know what is around the corner of life. So take time out today to thank God for this beautiful day. As they say time doesnāt stop and is completely unforgiving to anyone. So take time to be in the moment and sit in gratitude. ~~always, Emma~~
Life update
Itās been a really busy week. A good time of the year because weāre extremely busy, but my allergies have been making my life hard. I am still grateful for each and every single day that I get to wake up in the morning. I thank God every single day for each and every single moment that I get to spend with my mom, my dad, my sister the dog, working out, eating healthy, and and not trying to spend too much time watching C dramas
I have spent more time this week, not being on TikTok, YouTube, or any other social media platform. Mainly because thereās a lot of reasons for you to get angry and I donāt like to get angry. So for my own peace of mind, I have decided to take some time off of the social media platforms.
I am more focused on my relationship with God than I am about other people and their drama and bringing that person down and all the stuff thatās so unnecessary right now. Life is difficult enough. We donāt really need to be fighting for every single thing. I am trying to get my mom to work out more because sheās elderly and Iām trying to prepare her for the cruise next year.
So I spend a lot of time working out with her to get her into shape that makes her more flexible. Not just flexible, but also stronger so that she could have more stamina when weāre walking around. I donāt think people realize how hard it is to take care of your parents as they get older. Itās like dealing with toddlers. Except for toddlers, you can put your foot down but with your parents, theyāre adults and you donāt want to belittle them. Theyāve worked hard all their lives, and they do deserve to kind of like sit back. Even if I disagree with all the time that they sit back and take naps.
But I am in a really good headspace right now and I think that is the best part of my life right now. I am becoming more disciplined, focusing more on getting stronger building a foundation and spending time with my family and God.
I hope you are all doing well and I hope you have a wonderful beautiful weekend. Stay blessed.~~ Emmaļæ¼~~
The Culture of Me
What does one do when they are simply tired of all the people around them? We are surrounded by the people we love yet if the burden is too big why do we have to carry it alone?
I find myself hating each and every single day because of the people around me. Does that make me a bad person? I want to be happy I want to help others. But itās extremely difficult to find happiness in doing such things when others make your life so much more difficult.
We try to excuse the behavior but the truth is they are just lazy and donāt care. Which puts you right in the center of my battle. I care how the house looks, I care about taking care of my mom, I care about not having an invasion of ants in the house.
I consistently do each thing not because of anyone else but myself. But it becomes exhausting when you live with people that just donāt care. They are not willing to help with other things that the household might need. So it all falls on one person instead of every one doing their part to make it easier for all.
We all live here itās our house so why not find something to do for the house instead of waiting on one person to do it all. Together we could accomplish a lot more than if just one person is doing all the work. I guess that is a task that will never happen instead it will continue to lie at the feet of one person.
Which does bring me to the larger problem in our society. The idea that I come first, second and last no one comes before me, itās all about what I want, what I need and how I feel. Never a thought of the fellow man just simply a me, me, me mentality.
Itās something I know I cannot change I can only change how I react. But God Almighty it is exhausting having to deal with these morons.
Finding freedom
There is nothing more disappointing than when you have friends and family but realize they donāt have your back. Itās sad but it also reminds us that the only one we can depend on is ourselves. It is better to be reminded of this harsh reality than to constantly think we have others by our side. Itās the most freeing thing one can imagine. Everything you do, everything you accomplish comes from within you not from someone else. Not from those that doubted you. Not for those that never once believed in you. Not those that thought they would watch you fail. Instead those who were your biggest haters can watch from the back of the stands. Donāt acknowledge them, donāt even give them the satisfaction of your presence. Instead walk by them like the strangers they are. Freedom is learning to live without the fear of being alone. Embrace it and be free.
Names
Today and gone tomorrow will you remember my name.
Will you whisper it to the wind?
Will you shout it from the rooftop?
Will you know what it meant?
Will you remember how I felt?
Will it ever make you mad?
Or will you just be sad?
Time will know the pain but darling will you remember my name?
~Emmanuelle-Rose Grace~
ļæ¼ Christ is King ļæ¼
Jesus Christ is my Lord and Savior. He has given me, joy. He has led me through the pain. Through my darkest night and times in my life, he led me to the light. As we reflect on this Good Friday, the sacrifice that Jesus Christ did. He bore our sins so that we may have a chance at eternal life. I ask you is something missing in your life? If it is, I ask you to turn to Jesus. Jesus is the way he is the king. He is salvation. I ask you to turn to Jesus and accept the gift that he has given to you. Have a wonderful, beautiful blessed night. He is risen.
To the One with No Name
I donāt think about you anymore. I know itās hard for you to comprehend. I no longer care to have the same worthless conversations about my flaws and shortcomings. I am not perfect never pretended to be anything other than myself.
You are the one that pretended to be someone you arenāt. So I go to bed with my conscience completely clear. I donāt pretend to be something I am not.
I am a difficult person to love and even more difficult to understand. I am fiercely loyal and willing to move mountains for those whom I love. I am upfront and donāt lie about my feelings. I am not fake and will never try to fit into a role because someone else thinks I should. I have my own personal opinions about politics. Jesus Christ is my Lord and Saviour, I will never apologize for that.
I am completely confident in myself. I know I am constantly growing and learning from my mistakes and experiences in life. I canāt apologize for the past because it doesnāt exist for me. I know you canāt understand that and I wonāt try to explain it.
I used to think maybe one day you would realize that. That I would always be there for you even in the darkest times of life. But I have mourned our relationship and have buried it.
Just as the dead cannot speak, we move on. The future is before us, will our paths cross again maybe, maybe not. Either way I hold no grudges towards you. You are in very long list of memories or times I no longer visit. Tucked away like a bookmark in a page of a book I will never read again. Always~Emma~
Emma the Mizfit 