Dear “friend”, I want to say thank you for we no longer speak. Time has passed us by and friends we never really were you see. Things change, I have changed, my heart no longer cares for any of you. It’s strange you love something till you find out it wasn’t worth your time and it never was. You learn to let go not because you have forgotten the hurt or pain but because you no longer need them at all. They no longer exist in your life. You learned a valuable lesson that your “friend” may never see but wish them well. Never look back with regret and don’t forget the only one with the power is yourself. This “friend” I write about doesn’t exist they never did. Complete figment of my imagination because the truth is, real friends would be there for you, only figments of our imagination never existed in our life. So let go of the lie this friend never existed. Tomorrow when you open your eyes it’s your world no one else’s. So erase the figment of your imagination and dive into a new world free from the lie. Stop wasting time on shadows that never existed live in the present with the love around you. Sincerely, the Black Rose
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Love you
Just because I love you doesn’t mean I want to.
Listening to music can be the most therapeutic thing for me at times
Narcissist by: Avery Anna
Out of touch with my feelings
I can’t help it if I’m happy or sad
Today I cried for no reason
Made me feel like a psychopath
I should hate you ’cause I love you
You should hate yourself for treating me like that
We both know you only love you
Did you know they have a name for that?
You say that I’m crazy
You say that you’re sorry
Won’t happen again
You say I’m dramatic
I’m overreacting
And maybe I am
And I know you’ll get over me
But can you get over yourself?
Before you go and love somebody else
You should probably get some help
My parents don’t like you
Why would they want to?
After they found me crying on the bathroom floor
I don’t even like me anymore
‘Cause you say that I’m crazy
You say that you’re sorry
Won’t happen again
You say I’m dramatic
I’m overreacting
And maybe I am
And I know you’ll get over me
But can you get over yourself?
Before you go and love somebody else
You should probably get some help
You lose your voice when you yell too much
Don’t say you love me until you mess up
Phone calls past twelve o’clock, wanting me back
Don’t you know that they got a name for that?
You say that I’m crazy
You say that you’re sorry
Won’t happen again
You say I’m dramatic
I’m overreacting
And maybe I am
And I know you’ll get over me
But can you get over yourself?
Before you go and love somebody else
You should probably get some help
The comings of tomorrow
So tomorrow I will finish putting up my Christmas decorations for the outside. I will probably start the inside but I am going to try and sneak in a podcast and tell y’all how the adventures of my vacation to florida were. But we shall see. Don’t forget I posted videos on TikTok and Instagram. Karen the Mïzfït also joined in on the fun so please check them out. We will be starting our Game of Thrones review and might even include our time watching Yellowstone. We shall give our input on that also. We might even speak about our trip so tune in this week we will have the episodes up. ~Emma~
Fear Death
Death is all I see
Death is all I smell
Death is all I taste
The vipers hanging from the well
Haunting and hissing making the rounds
Chasing me down
In my dreams
In my past
In my life
Death is all I feel when I look around
As daggers pierce my eyes
There is no love here
Never to be found
Death doesn’t pardon any one of us
Even the good ones
Faced stained with blood
Lips sown shut
Fears of darkness consuming all of us
Death to dust fighting time for every night
Close my eyes and see your face
Hallowed and empty you no longer play
Death found you months ago
Leaving a hole where in my soul
Death took you from me and I have no where to go
Written by: Emmanuelle-Rose Grace
Love letters-Always the Huntress
Dear Sweet Love,
I wonder what you are doing right now. So much time has passed since our last real conversation. A year has gone by it seems like time flies right by. I could tell you so much has happened but I know we no longer share any connection. I used to think that maybe life would bring us back together, but if wishes were fishes we would all live in the sea. I am trying hard to forget everything you made me feel. I know it’s for the best and if I am honest with myself I know you did me the favor. You knew I would not be able to let go, so you did it for me. I will never be able to thank you for what you did but I am so grateful. Thank you for knowing me better than I knew myself. The year has been filled with tears, heartache, and pain but it has also been filled with lots of new adventures. Learning to fly is exactly what I needed to do. I will be forever grateful for falling in love with you. Moving forward I look at our time fondly but no longer want to repeat the time spent together. My heart no longer aches for you. I miss your laugh, smile and countless times we spent talking. You even make guest appearances in my dreams. Thank you for being the person I needed and for being the friend that let me go. I look forward to my future and know our paths will never cross again. You will always have a place in my heart even if we never see each other again. My dear sweet darling, I wish you nothing but love and the best.
Always the Huntress
Written by: Emmanuelle-Rose Grace
The Unicorn
My dearest love,
I know these words will find you one day, after I have long forgotten the way you taste. But in order to let you go I must tell you how much of my mind you once held in your hands. My love for you was one of the purest forms of lust, you will never get to know. For you were driven by the need for wealth, greed and to be so the great. Never knowing, you were the greatest to me and wealth is a matter of the value you place on someone’s heart. Most people search the world all their lives for the devotion I was willing to give you. But you felt your calling was bigger than what we could have had. As sadness fills my heart I still wonder what might have been if you had made the right choices. Maybe that’s the one of the things we will never truly know. It is true life spins us in different circles and love doesn’t pay bills or feed you but my sweet love, living the life you have now is not living. Well, what does selfishness, greed, loveless relationships, meaningless sex, drugs, alcohol, or the endless admiration, truly cost? The only thing that life brings is a huge hole inside yourself, that you are constantly trying to fill with anything that will give instant gratification. The problem with instant gratification is just that, it doesn’t last, at the end of the rush and when the dust settles you are left empty and hollowed inside. Thinking to yourself what am I missing? I have money, women, houses, cars, I can travel anywhere, I am doing good in the world, I am fighting for those without a voice, I am fighting for the world, what am I missing???? I would say me but to be honest the truth is your missing God. I myself, my sweet love, found myself in the very same dilemma you find yourself in now. I had everything, meaningless sex, empty relationships, men giving me what I want, money, anything could have been mine. But I lost myself in that life and found the only thing that I was truly missing was God. So, as these words reach you and you find yourself wondering who is this from? Could this be from the unicorn I have searched for so long, the missing piece I need to be complete? The unicorn writes to you to say, I can never make you happy! For you have no idea what love truly is, as I myself did not know what love was till the day I found God. Through finding Him, I found what love truly is and I was able to see my love for you was not love. Just a desire to be with you, to kiss you, to touch you, to feel your hands in mine, my legs wrapped around you, to have tasted you, to have smelled you, to have run my hands through your hair, to have had you inside me, nothing more than desire. An animal instinct to be with you, a carnal demand. The truth of the matter is I would have gotten bored and tossed you aside like the others. The relationship I have with God has freed me to be the person I am today. Compassionate to others, willing to let my feelings be hurt so others feel better, setting my dreams aside to let another shine, to love others with no expectations of receiving love in return, and seeing the world for all it is. My eyes were opened, I enjoy fighting with my family, making up with them, laughing with them, being passionate about things people think are completely crazy and I love being different. I love being me with all my scars inside and out. I love sitting on my bed at night staring into the ceiling speaking to the Creator of the Universe, and knowing He is there listening to every word even when I rant for an hour. My endless need to find the truth and knowing in my heart only God holds the answers I seek. If there is anything I wish you to take from this is the book of Psalms. During the worse parts of my dark life that book was my life line. And to this day the book of Psalms is my favorite book of the Bible. King David was a very bad man but regardless of being such a bad man Jesus refers to David as the one after his heart. Even with King David’s flaws God saw into his heart and reading that book you can feel David’s pain, his passion, his sadness and his love for God. As I started writing this I had no intention of saying any of this but God is at the center of my heart and I can’t help it, He is My Lord. So, as I end this hoping one day these words will reach you. I pray you do find Him. There is no secret way of finding God, there is no number you can call, there is no one single place to find Him. Get on your knees and call to Him. Tefillah which means prayer in Hebrew. Prayer is the only way to talk to God. On your knees cry out to God open your heart completely to Him and you will see Him show up. You have to be willing to listen to His Words, not what you want to hear. For His Words might not be what you want to hear and most of the time His Plans are never what you think your plans should be. Open your heart to Him, my sweet, I pray this finds one day.
Nothing but Love,
The Unicorn
Written by: Emmanuelle-Rose Grace
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