How does one ever truly learn to treat others than not by the people around them? How can a girl learn how a man is to treat her if the men around her weren’t strong or a good example? How can she learn what love looks like when she doesn’t know? Questions I have asked myself a dozen times. I have never truly found love or been loved by a man because I don’t know what that feels like. Though I might not have the love of a father that showed me how to love and be loved, my mother showed me a different kind of love. It’s weird because my father has always provided for us but has never truly been there, if that makes any sense. I guess it’s why I have never truly found a man to love me. It’s because I have never seen a strong relationship around me. With that said my mother has shown me love beyond words. But I will save that for Mother’s Day. But today my blog is about not having a strong man to show me how love is suppose to be like. Am I doomed to never know what love is? I have given my heart to men that have never deserved my heart. But was I truly in love if I have never known what love was? Love is more than butterflies in your stomach or feeling happy to see someone. It’s a connection, more than just a connection it’s respect, it’s unconditional, and it’s something worth fighting for I assume. Maybe not knowing how to love is a good thing. A chaotic soul as myself will surely find it easier being alone when you feel no one can truly hold you down. It’s easy to fall in and out of love with men I will never truly give my heart to. It’s easy to love someone far away like on the other side of the country because you will never be with them. Falling in love with their soul is easy but it’s truly never real. It’s easy to feel like it is real for the time because it does feel real but as time moves you know it is not real. In the end you learn it was just a connection you had with someone but never truly loved them. So on this Friday night I wonder will I ever fall in love or learn what that feels like. I guess only time will tell for as the night passes, my mind wanders into the chaos of stars in the sky. As the warm temperatures are high I know one day all my questions will be answered. But on this day, this night I sit in the quiet peace of the chaotic soothing sound of silence. Have a blessed weekend my friends. ~Emma~
Tag: dreams
Don’t be afraid
Even if you express your affection to someone and they reject it. Don’t give up, someone else will accept you. So never be afraid of telling someone you like them. It makes you courageous and teaches you accept rejection with grace. Learning and growing is a part of the human experience. We must all learn and grow if not we will never be the best version of ourselves. So never stop growing, never stop learning and even in the face of rejection remember you are stronger today than you were yesterday. Everything happens for a reason, so embrace your chaos. Courage is not found in hiding who you are. Courage is found being confident in who you have become. Grow, learn and be the best version of yourself. Have a beautiful blessed day. ~Emma~
Today
May this day bring you wonderful new blessings. May this day be blessed with paths that will help you to grow. And may this be the day you find the strength to know you are worth it. ~Emma~
Posted a new video on YouTube
So I posted a video on YouTube and I want to make sure that I am extremely clear. This isn’t about hate this isn’t about anything other than mental health issues. I hope everyone seeks help. I am just highlighting the fact that changing the definition or changing the meaning doesn’t change the outcome. It doesn’t help to continue perpetrating your own narrative to fit in your box. People need to know to get help for any mental disorder. By changing reality you are not helping the situation, you are making it worse. Please I ask on behalf of the mental health community that we all stop allowing for this narrative to continue. It will only harm the community it keeps “saying” it is trying to save.
To everyone
I am extremely blessed. I am thankful for the struggles that shape me each and every single day. More than anything I thank God for giving me the strength to keep going for without Him I would be nothing. Don’t give up keep fighting. Everyone is facing something so always smile and remember you aren’t alone. Kindness goes very far to someone who is having a really bad day. Make a difference, be the change you want to see. Have a beautiful night/day. ~Emma~
Today
Today has been an extremely busy day for me. I am working on like 4 different projects. I would like to say that keeping as busy as I am now, does distract me from feeling anything. Which I would like to say is a good thing for the moment. Sometimes the best way to keep from thinking or dwelling on something is to keep busy. So if you are having a rough day just remember you aren’t alone. Many feel the way you feel. Just try to focus on one blessing today. One victory no matter how small it may be. You can get through this day you just need to believe in yourself. Have a beautiful blessed day. ~Emma~
One word
What is one word that describes you?
Romantic
Thoughts at 2am
We are reminded once in a while to take a step back and remember no matter how bad things are for us they could always be worse. We think we suffer but true suffering like being tortured, beaten or even starving exists while we complain about little things that annoy us. In the end we should always be grateful for what we have, not what we don’t. Does it minimize our own pain I don’t believe so. I think by saying life is short just enjoy it, does belittle your own pain. But there is a grain of truth in the statement. Life is short and we don’t get much time here why spend it on things that cannot be changed. I do love with all that I am but sometimes some people and somethings are not worth the pain or even the time to care. Let it go it’s not worth chasing something not worth your time. Don’t waste time on things or people that aren’t worthy of being with you. Let it go. ~Emma~
I don’t know why by Imagine Dragons
We could be strangers in the night
We could be passing in the shadows
We couldn’t be closer if we tried
When we’re caught in the headlights
We could be faces in the crowd
We could be passing in the shadows
Upping the risk of being found
When we’re caught in the headlights
Dangerous
Your love is always dangerous
And now I’m lost in us
We’re livin’ in a lying trust
I don’t know why, but I guess it’s got something to do with you
To do with you
I don’t know why, but I guess it’s got something to do with you
To do with you
I was a faking alibi
Trading the truth in for a lie, oh
We were the essence of desire
And we’re caught in the headlights
Dangerous
Your love is always dangerous
And now I’m lost in us
We’re livin’ in a lying trust
I don’t know why, but I guess it’s got something to do with you
To do with you
I don’t know why, but I guess it’s got something to do with you
To do with you (I don’t know why)
I don’t know why, but I guess it’s got something to do with you (I don’t know)
To do with you (I don’t know why)
I don’t know why, but I guess it’s got something to do with you
To do with you
That you love me
Tell me that you love me
Tell me that you love me
Tell me that you love me
Tell me that you love me (dangerous)
Tell me that you love me
Tell me that you love me (your love is always dangerous)
Tell me that you love me
I don’t know why
I don’t know why, but I guess it’s got something to do with you (I don’t know)
To do with you (I don’t know why)
I don’t know why, but I guess it’s got something to do with you (do with, do with, do with)
To do with you (I don’t know why)
I don’t know why, but I guess it’s got something to do with you (I don’t know)
To do with you (I don’t know why)
I don’t know why, but I guess it’s got something to do with you
To do with you
Faithfully
Faithfully- Journey
Highway run into the midnight sun
Wheels go ’round and ’round, you’re on my mind
Restless hearts, sleep alone tonight
Sendin’ all my love along the wire
They say that the road ain’t no place to start a family
Right down the line, it’s been you and me
And lovin’ a music man ain’t always what it’s supposed to be
Oh, girl, you stand by me
I’m forever yours
Faithfully
Circus life under the big-top world
We all need the clowns to make us smile
Through space and time, always another show
Wonderin’ where I am lost without you
And being apart ain’t easy on this love affair
Two strangers learn to fall in love again
I get the joy of rediscovering you
Oh, girl, you stand by me
I’m forever yours
Faithfully
Whoa-oh, oh-oh
Whoa-oh, oh-oh, oh
Whoa-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh
Faithfully
I’m still yours
I’m forever yours
Forever yours
Faithfully
Emma the Mizfit 