The moment you realize you don’t need a person to make you happy. You are happy being alive and filled with God’s love making you feel complete. Have a beautiful day filled with love. ❤️ ~Emma~ 🌹
Tag: depression
Quote:
“You knew what you were doing and you know it would hurt me but somehow that still didn’t stop you.”
Please help me
I ask please for you all to go to YouTube and subscribe to the channel I need a 1k on YouTube channel before it will get monetize. So please help me out. Thank you all and have a beautiful wonderful day. ~ Emma~
Embrace the Chaos
When the world is mean and makes you full of sadness, remember how special you are to God. He will never leave your side, He will always love you. He will always accept your kind of crazy because He knows you are enough being you. Embrace the chaos that is you, because it’s beautiful when it is you. Don’t let anyone take that from you. ~Emma~
CLOSE: written by Emmanuelle -Rose Grace
He touches my hand
I feel nervous at his side
I can feel the chemistry course through my veins inside
It’s almost like an electric current
I look into his eyes but turn away
He pulls at my face leaning in
Utters words I want to hear him say
“Don’t be afraid darling I won’t hurt you.”
Many have pretended to be there
His words feel like magic filling the air
The rain is all over us, the splat splat splat sounds makes me shiver
He pulls my close and tells me sweet words
“You are my flame together we will burn forever.”
I look into the distance and see the lights of the city
But as we walk together in the rain I feel my heart just patter
He grabs my hand and we run through the drops of water
Getting all wet seems so silly
But finally we reach his place
He covers me in blankets to make me feel safe
He leans down grabs my face
As his lips touch over my cheek
I start to feel warm inside
And he pulls up my face looking into my eyes
Green on blue he kisses me taking me deep inside
Oh how I love being with him this way
Our lips touching feeling each other out
Feeling his tongue slide over my neck
Makes me buzzed on a high
Damn what is it about him that makes me feel so alive
~Emma~
New video
Words to live by
Stay tuned
I was going to write my blog today but decided to make a video about it. So stay tuned.
Pretending to be okay
Even when people think you are the happiest doesn’t hide the tears in your heart. Even with all the smiles we try to pretend everything is okay, even if we feel like we can’t go on. They say time heals all wounds but it’s hard to believe when your chest is bleeding on the floor. It’s hard to truly believe anyone will ever be by your side, when you look and don’t see a soul around you. I know how hard it is to stay positive and on my down days that is how I feel. That is how I feel at this moment. Completely and utterly useless, it’s hard to pretend to be fine when you feel that way. It’s hard to talk, it’s hard to think, it’s hard to explain, it’s hard to exist. But we cannot give up because the enemy wins. At the end of the day, we need to keep fighting to stay calm and in the light. It is through the light we find a little bit of peace. ~Emma~
Positive Christmas turn
Last night was fun and today is peaceful. I am grateful to have my family that accepts me even at my worst. I knew the other day I lashed out it had been a while since I went so down so fast. Maybe it was being sick and down that drove to lose control so easily. But the truth is I still need to find better coping skills to keep me ahead of the twists and turns. Life is extremely unpredictable and I need to learn to cope with I can control which is myself. There will always be a trigger always something will change my moods. It’s learning and finding new ways to adapt to the chaos that I must learn to master in myself. I know I am not alone, I trust in God and I know somewhere someone else may be experiencing the same thing. It is through that I must learn to find ways to keep fighting. The mood swings can happen but learning to keep calm and being aware is something we must all learn. Learning to lean on those that support us is a good thing. Therapist, group therapy, God, family, friends whatever it is keep finding good coping skills to help you find the strength you have. I learned last night not only God gave me the strength but my family did also. It was through that support I have in place that gave me the chance to speak to them, to trust in them and allow myself to vulnerable with them. Having the conversation and being completely open with them helped me enjoy being in the moment with the whole family. It was truly an amazing night that I will remember for a long time. I hope your Christmas was blessed. As I said to everyone yesterday remember we celebrate Christmas because it was the gift that we got from God in Jesus Christ who came and died to save us. We celebrated His birth. You might not believe but this what I believe and I am willing to stand on that rock always. God has given me so much and Jesus isn’t just my king, he is my friend, the lover of my soul, He knows me in ways no one will ever know and it’s a comfort for me. To have trust and faith in someone I can feel in my heart. Without God I would not be here it is through his love and Grace that I am at peace tonight. I send you some of that peace that maybe you can have that inner peace starting this new week. Have a wonderful week, filled with many blessings. ~Emma~
Emma the Mizfit 