Tag: depression

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How have you adapted to the changes brought on by the Covid-19 pandemic?

I started paying attention to politics right before Trump got elected. But after COVID the tyranny I saw happening during that time by some of our politicians really changed the way I view freedom. God gave me my rights not the government. Politicians have the power We the People give them, it’s time for We the People need to take the power back. Because it’s clear the government can’t help us. It must be our responsibility as Americans fight for our freedom and our rights. I also learned during the COVID thing is life is short and we must embrace the beauty of life before it’s gone. Be the change you want to see in the world.

Mental health

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Honestly I am so sick of this attack on anyone that calls out mental illness. I refuse to be silent and I refuse to allow others to tell me what they think I should say. I have suffered for many years with mental illness. It’s not my fault y’all want to continue allowing ppl to step on you because you refuse to call it out for what it is. A turd is still a turd no matter how pretty you dress it up. You talk about compassion, you speak about being kind well allowing a mentally ill person to not get help for their delusion isn’t compassionate at all. You are part of the problem you are the reason many won’t seek the help they need. Afraid you might offend someone at least be honest with yourself. This isn’t about helping it’s about being afraid of what others will label you. Well I tell you as I sit here writing this you can call me whatever you like. I refuse to allow anyone to put me in a box or label on me. I am not afraid because God has my back. The fact that y’all can’t even call a mental illness for what is it makes me know for a fact y’all are on the wrong side of history. There is nothing wrong with being sick it’s about getting help and finding ways to deal with life in a healthy way. If you can’t speak that truth you are completely in the darkness and there is no helping you. Not because you can’t get help but because you have chosen to stay in the darkness. ~Emma~

Posted a new video on YouTube

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So I posted a video on YouTube and I want to make sure that I am extremely clear. This isn’t about hate this isn’t about anything other than mental health issues. I hope everyone seeks help. I am just highlighting the fact that changing the definition or changing the meaning doesn’t change the outcome. It doesn’t help to continue perpetrating your own narrative to fit in your box. People need to know to get help for any mental disorder. By changing reality you are not helping the situation, you are making it worse. Please I ask on behalf of the mental health community that we all stop allowing for this narrative to continue. It will only harm the community it keeps “saying” it is trying to save.

Faithfully

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Faithfully- Journey

Highway run into the midnight sun

Wheels go ’round and ’round, you’re on my mind

Restless hearts, sleep alone tonight

Sendin’ all my love along the wire

They say that the road ain’t no place to start a family

Right down the line, it’s been you and me

And lovin’ a music man ain’t always what it’s supposed to be

Oh, girl, you stand by me

I’m forever yours

Faithfully

Circus life under the big-top world

We all need the clowns to make us smile

Through space and time, always another show

Wonderin’ where I am lost without you

And being apart ain’t easy on this love affair

Two strangers learn to fall in love again

I get the joy of rediscovering you

Oh, girl, you stand by me

I’m forever yours

Faithfully

Whoa-oh, oh-oh

Whoa-oh, oh-oh, oh

Whoa-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh

Faithfully

I’m still yours

I’m forever yours

Forever yours

Faithfully

Today and everyday

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What is the last thing you learned?

You might feel alone but God is always with you.

One day at a time

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What is one question you hate to be asked? Explain.

Why are you still single, have never been married or had kids? You are too pretty to not be married. Explanation: I became extremely sick around the age of 21. Spent the next 10-15 years fighting a severe depression. Constantly being hospitalized, under lots of medication, and getting treatment with ECT. So yeah I didn’t have time to get married, have kids or enjoy life during the hell I was going through.

Letting go

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Describe the last difficult “goodbye” you said.

It was to a friend or someone I thought was a friend. I was there for this person but they turned on me. I tried to save the friendship but it was beyond saving. Because in the end I learned the only one that truly cared about our friendship was me. It was extremely painful and hard to just let go. To think that you gave your all and that person turned so quickly on you made me feel like crap.

Moody

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I have been going through a really moody time at the moment hence why I am trying to minimize the damage. I tend to become very nasty and unfiltered when I am in this mood. Not that people don’t deserve to hear it. But unfortunately being this on a down is never a good thing. I shall keep you posted. I want to be positive but at this moment I am not. So I won’t pretend to be. ~Emma~

Not okay

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I wish I could write a happy note and be positive but it has escaped me. Right at this very moment I am extremely hurt. I can’t even begin to explain the pain I feel but it has taken a hold of me. When you find that you have loved someone so much but they have disregarded you as piece of shit it is soul crushing. It makes me mad, angry, and just utterly broken. I will never be like that no matter how broken I feel. I won’t be like that person or the people that defend this person. I have lost a part of my heart probably to never find it again. All I can do is mourn it and let it go eventually. There is no point in trying to find or let anyone understand what you feel. They see things through their eyes and only their eyes, you can’t change that. It’s just heartbreaking and I am not okay with it. ~Emma~