Expectations

Why is loyalty an expensive expectation? It’s not like it’s not earned. It is something you have to work for and when it’s given to you, it should be cherished. Yet so many are not loyal. Not loyal friends not loyal to their family not loyal to their country Not loyal to their partners.

If I myself asking this question over and over again, why can’t people be loyal? Is it because of the disloyalty of Adam and Eve? Are we meant to carry the same sin of disloyalty towards others?

It might be that simple maybe not I could be wrong. I hope Someone proves me wrong. If not, I will die knowing that loyalty is something many just don’t get.

I did admire

What profession do you admire most and why?

People in the military. They give up everything to fight for our country freedoms. Not everyone has the courage or balls to do it. Strong men are made in tough times. Weak men are made in good times.

Many of the men I see today are extremely weak. They have absolutely no back bone. They are bent to the will of these feminists that have destroyed our society.

I think it’s extremely sad what feminism has really done today in our society. It’s has pushed back women rights.

In reality they have tried to destroy the genders and have made women equal to men and causing men to takeover women spaces.

This is the flaw in the feminist theory men and women are equal. The truth is men and women are very different but compliment each other.

It’s the way God made them. Adam and Eve were meant to be one. In being one that meant they were to be the half of each side. What he lacked she filled, what she lacked he filled making them one. Feminism has destroyed that. So now you have a complete destruction of the roles men and women play.

Is that progress no instead what it has truly done is make the world worse. This ideology has ruined thousands of children and will continue to destroy many others.

Because feminism doesn’t build anything it’s true nature is to destroy women and everything around them. It’s a lie told to girls and boys but what it’s true power is deception in the form of equality and tolerance.

The military was strong throughout our history, though today it’s probably a place filled with weak men and women. Because like I said before hard times create strong men, good times create weak men. Just how the way of the world works.

I did admire the military and the mindset of dying to save others. It’s the most Christ like thing you can do for your neighbor. They put their own lives on the line for our freedoms, but today it seems that isn’t what the military is anymore. It’s extremely sad.

What it’s the truth?!?

Someone writes me to tell me how could I be so cold. I completely cut off communication with this individual and they didn’t understand why. Well this person refused to even ask themselves why I would even respond when they haven’t written me in months. Since I decided not to respond to the person instead block them. I will write them here. This message will probably never be read by them but for me it’s therapeutic to close the chapter. I don’t like wasting my time. If I spend time on you, talking to you, making myself available for you and that is taken for granted I will cut you out and move on. Like I have said before many times, I am not a fake person. I will not pretend to be a friend when I am not. I can tolerate people but pretending to be a friend when I am not is something I cannot do. With that said, if you cannot find time to write me or even ask how I am doing for MONTHS after me constantly extending myself to you, please explain to me why I should even care when you slide into my dms. I wish you well, I hope you thrive, for many healthy years to come but again I am not looking back. My focus is on the future, I am doing a lot of different things, my time is extremely limited. So for you to think I am wasting anymore time on this, you should really know me better. Sincerely ~Emma~Mizfit Queen~

Quote:

“You knew what you were doing and you know it would hurt me but somehow that still didn’t stop you.”

Dear friend: written by Emmanuelle-Rose Grace

Dear “friend”, I want to say thank you for we no longer speak. Time has passed us by and friends we never really were you see. Things change, I have changed, my heart no longer cares for any of you. It’s strange you love something till you find out it wasn’t worth your time and it never was. You learn to let go not because you have forgotten the hurt or pain but because you no longer need them at all. They no longer exist in your life. You learned a valuable lesson that your “friend” may never see but wish them well. Never look back with regret and don’t forget the only one with the power is yourself. This “friend” I write about doesn’t exist they never did. Complete figment of my imagination because the truth is, real friends would be there for you, only figments of our imagination never existed in our life. So let go of the lie this friend never existed. Tomorrow when you open your eyes it’s your world no one else’s. So erase the figment of your imagination and dive into a new world free from the lie. Stop wasting time on shadows that never existed live in the present with the love around you. Sincerely, the Black Rose

You know Nothing!!!

Today was a long day. Sitting here about to have a conversation with God and wanted to drop few lines. I finished reading the first Dune book. It was really good and I really enjoyed it. I am looking forward to the next book in the series. I watched the whole Tim Pool/Kayne thing last night. My heart goes out to Kayne. Unfortunately, the world is extremely cruel to ppl with a mental illness disorder. They don’t understand and they are extremely dismissive about anything coming from someone that has any mental health issue. I really do feel for him because unlike many others that assume to know how it feels or understand, you don’t. It’s not easy and you can be compassionate, understanding and love the person that suffers. But at the end of the day you have no clue how hard it is for them to fight to be heard. You have no idea how hard life is for them. You can watch all you like and judge however you like. But unless you are suffering and fighting every day with mental health problems you have no idea. So please do me a favor to all the ppl that think they know….shut up! You know nothing. What that person needs is love, kindness, compassion, understanding, to feel like they are heard and God. If you can’t be any of those things in that person’s life stfu and walk away. I have zero tolerance for ppl that pretend to know how it feels or how they think it is. You have no clue, so stop. My prayers go out to Kayne and all of you whom suffer from any mental disorder. It’s not an easy fight. You fight each and every day but don’t give up. You are not alone. Never forget you are not alone!!! I might be one but together we are many. Always, Emma~

Listening to music can be the most therapeutic thing for me at times

Narcissist by: Avery Anna

Out of touch with my feelings

I can’t help it if I’m happy or sad

Today I cried for no reason

Made me feel like a psychopath

I should hate you ’cause I love you

You should hate yourself for treating me like that

We both know you only love you

Did you know they have a name for that?

You say that I’m crazy

You say that you’re sorry

Won’t happen again

You say I’m dramatic

I’m overreacting

And maybe I am

And I know you’ll get over me

But can you get over yourself?

Before you go and love somebody else

You should probably get some help

My parents don’t like you

Why would they want to?

After they found me crying on the bathroom floor

I don’t even like me anymore

‘Cause you say that I’m crazy

You say that you’re sorry

Won’t happen again

You say I’m dramatic

I’m overreacting

And maybe I am

And I know you’ll get over me

But can you get over yourself?

Before you go and love somebody else

You should probably get some help

You lose your voice when you yell too much

Don’t say you love me until you mess up

Phone calls past twelve o’clock, wanting me back

Don’t you know that they got a name for that?

You say that I’m crazy

You say that you’re sorry

Won’t happen again

You say I’m dramatic

I’m overreacting

And maybe I am

And I know you’ll get over me

But can you get over yourself?

Before you go and love somebody else

You should probably get some help

Storms Wrath

Storms Wrath

Her heart breaks at his words

Crushing the red dried roses that were once hers

Leaving nothing but dark red broken petals falling towards the grass

As the she lets out a howl from deep within

Crushed by his hateful words of deceit

The stab wounds going deep in her soul

She goes blue like a chill from winter’s brutal cold

Pain freezing her every thought

As her heart stops beating so damn hard

Tears staining her face with marks

She tries to understand what came her way

Lost for words with nothing left to say

Falling to the ground, she grabs the wounds on her way

His words of hate, breaking her once beautiful face

Written by: Emmanuelle-Rose Grace

Two headed Snake

Two headed Snake 

Liar liar is all one sees

Tall tales is what thou repeats

No words of truth fall from thee

Just tales of lies thou sows and weaves

Spinning tales of deceit 

Deception of how good to be

Making others wonder how thou can be

Manipulation is truly thy greatest masterpiece 

Telling lies how great one can be 

Twisting and turning people to fit the monster’s needs 

Liar liar that is all thou will ever be 

Today mine eyes were opened to see 

The two-headed trickster dining at my feet 

Written by: Emmanuelle-Rose Grace