Stop waiting for people that don’t give a crap about you to accept you. You look for validation from people that should not even be on your radar. So my advice, from my own personal experience is to just move on, do not look back. Whoever is left behind, never deserved to be in your presence. Have a blessed weekend. ~Emma~
Tag: darkness
Broken Trust : written by Emmanuelle-Rose Grace
Black arrows go piercing through the night
Screaming in agony as blood pours out her mouth
The shots piercing close to the heart
Hiding in the shadows she tries to run
He points the arrows to hit again
With disgust in his eyes
Tears fall as she cries
Pleading and begging for her life
He leans back with his bow
Shoots her right through the leg
She falls to the ground
No expression as he walks down
The death of her merely an inconvenience he tries to say
Abandoned and laying in a pool of blood
Her eyes filled with suffering the unbearable pain
She looks to the star filled sky as her breathing starts to fade
Looking down at her
He bends down to whisper words for her to hear
“You were never worthy of being here with me”
He reaches and grabs one more arrow
His hand sweeps her tear filled face
He sticks the arrow deep within her heart
Tear stained cheeks as life leaves her behind
With pity he looks back his head facing down
Sorry for the chaos of putting her down
Sorrow sweeps into his heart
The smell of her scent
The way she smiled
The way she laughed
The way she felt in his arms
The memories rush to him like hitting a brick wall
But as cold as ice he simply pushes them away
He no longer can afford to care
No one will get that close he vows to the sky
She is the last one to ever make him feel alive
Consumed by death he walks away
Never to return to the way of light
He walks in the darkness never to see the day
For the light he once held is gone and dead
No longer left to shine in his world
Walking back he tries to forget her face
But he looks back one more time and turns away.
Spencer greatest Frenchie ever!!!!
Today I found out I need to put my baby boy (dog) Spencer to sleep. I wish I could be more joyful but unfortunately this post won’t be joyful just sad. This little Frenchie came into my life 10 years ago. He was a whirlwind of just love and energy. He slept on my bed on his pillow that I had given him with his sheets. The sheets consisted of a pink playboy blanket that was super soft that he loved. On top of him he had a Tinkerbell blanket or the Dallas Cowboys blanket. He loved sleeping with them because my room was cold. We used to go for walks in the park and he loved walking. As he got older he would get more tired but he still loved walking even if he could hardly breathe on our walks. My sister lost her dog two years after I got Spencer. While she was grieving her loss I would let Spencer comfort her. It did cause a bit of struggle between us because she basically took ownership of him. But Spencer in the end had two mothers that loved him more than life itself. He continues to fight so I just pray that God have mercy and put him to rest. It will be painful to live without him but I wouldn’t trade one moment with him for not having this pain. The pain in my heart just reminds me how much I love him. In the end it is all worth the sadness and grief. So my message on this warm night is to be present in life and enjoy each moment for nothing last forever but the love we give each other. Have a beautiful day/night. ~Emma~
Have a blessed weekend
I know what I say doesn’t really matter to many people but this week has been very disheartening for me. Watching people losing their jobs(Tucker), rejoicing in a divorce(Steven Crowder) and finding some sort of sick pleasure in being right. While these things might seem trivial to some it has weighed on my heart. Not because of the actions of the individuals this has happened to but the people responding to these events. I used to think people can be cruel but held onto hope. But this week I was reminded that maybe there isn’t hope for a future. Maybe our time has come to end on this planet and it will all be over soon. I want to believe people can still be good and kind but the more I see people behave the less I believe humans are capable of being good at all. I take comfort in knowing that Jesus Christ died for this very reason. We aren’t good, we are all bad and it is through the blood of Jesus Christ that we will truly be made clean. I no longer think man can redeem themselves at all. The darkness chocking this earth is too great and instead of fighting it, many have just surrendered to it. Allowing themselves to become part of the darkness, part of the sin. They revel in its power and enjoy condemning others while not even looking at themselves in the mirror. None of us are good and we are all hypocrites but there is a difference between having pleasure in your sin and having remorse. I will not call on Christians or anyone else out because in the end we are each responsible for our own journey and what we did on this earth with our time. I do pray that this Sabbath many take time to be in the Presence of God. Not dwelling on others but asking God to change the sinfulness we carry. Instead of being the ugliest parts of the human race we become the beautiful things God created. Ask God to fill your heart with His love, His Holy Spirit and that He may guide you to be the light for His Glory not your own glory but His. I really hope everyone has a beautiful blessed weekend. May you all find peace in the chaos of this world. As always be the change you want to see in the world. Don’t be like everyone else, learn to be the light God made you to be, and shine in the darkness. ~Emma~
Silver Lining
I have been in such a bad mood. I have tried to get out of it unfortunately it’s been holding on to me. I went for my usual long walk with my sister to see if I could shake it. 2miles later still felt like crap. It does seem to happen around a certain time of the month which I am sure that ties into it. I try to be a positive force for others that might be going through the same but unfortunately even I can’t be that positive force all the time. I just wanted to share that even though I cannot be that positive force all the time there are people around me that try to be when they know I am not in a good place. So even though I am still in a very negative mood. I hope your day is filled with people that help you get into a better mind set. It’s not easy nothing in life is but never give up. Not every day is filled with sunshine and rainbows but each day of life is a new day to find hope and a silver lining. May your day be filled with both. ~Emma~
Never give up
Never stop being the best version of yourself. Many will try to change you. Many will find ways to convince you that you are not good enough. Many will try to let you believe that you are too broken to be loved. Don’t let that thinking keep you from shining the light God put inside you. Instead keep fighting the darkness that is trying to destroy you. Only you can fight that darkness. Only you have the power to keep fighting. Stay strong. You are not alone. ~Emma~
How would you improve your community?
In the mental community I would like to keep spreading positivity and trying to encourage others to seek help. Many don’t seek help because they are afraid of being labeled. Also they will be considered weak. Not to mention the amount of people that refuse to get help because they will lose their right to bare arms.
How have you adapted to the changes brought on by the Covid-19 pandemic?
I started paying attention to politics right before Trump got elected. But after COVID the tyranny I saw happening during that time by some of our politicians really changed the way I view freedom. God gave me my rights not the government. Politicians have the power We the People give them, it’s time for We the People need to take the power back. Because it’s clear the government can’t help us. It must be our responsibility as Americans fight for our freedom and our rights. I also learned during the COVID thing is life is short and we must embrace the beauty of life before it’s gone. Be the change you want to see in the world.
Mental health
Honestly I am so sick of this attack on anyone that calls out mental illness. I refuse to be silent and I refuse to allow others to tell me what they think I should say. I have suffered for many years with mental illness. It’s not my fault y’all want to continue allowing ppl to step on you because you refuse to call it out for what it is. A turd is still a turd no matter how pretty you dress it up. You talk about compassion, you speak about being kind well allowing a mentally ill person to not get help for their delusion isn’t compassionate at all. You are part of the problem you are the reason many won’t seek the help they need. Afraid you might offend someone at least be honest with yourself. This isn’t about helping it’s about being afraid of what others will label you. Well I tell you as I sit here writing this you can call me whatever you like. I refuse to allow anyone to put me in a box or label on me. I am not afraid because God has my back. The fact that y’all can’t even call a mental illness for what is it makes me know for a fact y’all are on the wrong side of history. There is nothing wrong with being sick it’s about getting help and finding ways to deal with life in a healthy way. If you can’t speak that truth you are completely in the darkness and there is no helping you. Not because you can’t get help but because you have chosen to stay in the darkness. ~Emma~
Silence
It’s always annoying when you can’t speak your mind without being attacked. People say they want truth. People say they want honesty. But the truth is people don’t want the truth they want lies that make them feel better. But hey I am the crazy one so don’t listen to anything I say because again I am the crazy one. ~Emma~
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