Pretending to be okay

Even when people think you are the happiest doesn’t hide the tears in your heart. Even with all the smiles we try to pretend everything is okay, even if we feel like we can’t go on. They say time heals all wounds but it’s hard to believe when your chest is bleeding on the floor. It’s hard to truly believe anyone will ever be by your side, when you look and don’t see a soul around you. I know how hard it is to stay positive and on my down days that is how I feel. That is how I feel at this moment. Completely and utterly useless, it’s hard to pretend to be fine when you feel that way. It’s hard to talk, it’s hard to think, it’s hard to explain, it’s hard to exist. But we cannot give up because the enemy wins. At the end of the day, we need to keep fighting to stay calm and in the light. It is through the light we find a little bit of peace. ~Emma~