Tag: coping skills
Another day
I am grateful for the strength I have been given through my time of struggles. The world is a crazy chaotic mess and some people are just plain evil. Each time I am reminded of how mean people can be, I am also reminded how amazing life is. Life is short and it is precious. Many will cause you pain. Work can stress you out, daily activities can drive you nuts. But what I have found is, showing gratitude even for the smallest thing makes it worth fighting for. I have gone through a lot of tribulations in my life. I wake up each morning and thank God for another day. I know I have said this before but it is through His strength I am here. The point is finding things to be grateful for, even when you see nothing but darkness. Being kind, finding someone that was kind to you, maybe by holding the door open while you walked out the store. Waking up to breathe air and getting out of bed, these are things that might be small but always be grateful for. Old friends that make you smile. Laughing with your sister about a silly dog pooping in someone’s mouth. (By the way that’s an actual article she read to me today.) It is in those moments we must be grateful for. Let go of the weight of negativity, people that are mean, people that don’t appreciate you for being you. Find coping skills to help you find a better way to deal with the darkness. Being grateful, seeing the glass half full, try to find the silver lining, I know it’s hard. But you are worthy, find music to make you feel happy or sad. Sometimes a good cry helps. But always keep trying to fight the darkness that wants to bring you down. Going through any mental illness isn’t easy but keep fighting. And always remember you aren’t alone. God is there even if you don’t believe in Him, He believes in you. And I believe in you and I believe you can make it because I am a walking example of how you can get out of the dark and back into the light. It won’t be easy it will be hard. You will have to fight each and every single day but never give up. I am grateful today for my family, being able to get on this blog and write to you. One person might read this and I am okay with that. Because if that one person changes their outlook by reading my words than my job is done. I have been really busy but later today I will do one of my podcasts. It will just be me talking but I do believe it is important to continue reinforcing that mental health is a huge problem and it doesn’t get enough attention. I am grateful I woke up this morning and I am drinking my coffee. Hoping to share some positive thoughts to help or at least make you laugh. Before going through your day find something to be grateful. Grateful for shelter, grateful for a bed, grateful for another day, grateful for food. Check out the YouTube video I made, it’s a 3 min video with music and pictures. You can use it for praying, mediation or just sitting still and calming your thoughts that are trying to make you feel worthless. Start somewhere only you can decide to fight. Write down your thoughts, find the strength to keep moving forward. I can’t make you fight depression or any mental illness. Only you can scream to the heavens and beg for strength. But for now dwell in the knowledge I will be praying for all of you. Let us all wake up with grateful hearts. Have a beautiful day ~Emma~
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Just a lucky girl showing how much she loves her mom…
Not everyone gets to have an amazing mom but I do. She is my rock, she is my world, without her I would have been lost long ago. She has never given up on me and still pushes me and my dreams forward. She can be unpredictable and she can be straight out scary mean. But more than anything she is a woman of pure love. I have done many things wrong in my life. I have also learned a valuable lesson you only get one mom and she won’t live forever. So, make sure you take the time to tell her how amazing she is. Show her how loved she is, how without her you wouldn’t be here. Mom’s get a day to celebrate. But the truth is they should be celebrated every day. Life is too short and we don’t live forever so make sure you hug her and kiss her and let her know she is the best thing you have ever had. I love you mom in so many ways words will never do justice. So, on this day I wanted to say thank you for being you. I love you ~~Always, Emma~~
Can’t sleep
I am writing this at 4:23 in the morning. I can’t sleep and I am trying hard. It seems even with the medication to make me fall asleep my mind doesn’t seem to want to shut off. Skipping sleep really isn’t an option for me. The more days I go without sleeping the easier for my grip on reality will start to shift. No one ever really knows how easily it is for a bipolar person to slip, it’s the little details such as not sleeping for days. It definitely leads to a spiral. And unless you have dealt with it personally or know someone that has you have no clue. And the truth is most ppl have no clue. I am going to keep trying to use a different coping skill to help me try and relax. Wish me luck. Nite. ~Emma~
how I am doing…
It has been a very difficult year for me especially the last five months. I did not notice I had gone into a depression until I was in the middle of it. I am working hard with my books and creating content, so I really thought I was fine. It wasn’t till about around my birthday that I realized, I was not just depressed, I was extremely depressed. I have joined group therapy again which is helping me a lot. I am trying some new coping skills to try and change my behavior. The fact that I didn’t even notice I was going through a depression is extremely alarming to me. I can’t afford to allow it to take me over. I spent over 10 years fighting a very dark depression. So, for me being proactive is the only way I can keep myself from falling that deep again. Therapy has always been my go to, coloring, writing, working out all kept me focus. I really thought with the busy schedule, I was doing much better. Now I realized I wasn’t. Why share this? Simple you are not alone. I was so busy trying to focus on the future, what I was doing and how to get there. I wasn’t taking the time to focus on myself. You need to focus on yourself not just work, not just the future and what you want to do. Being proactive when you know you suffer from any mental illness will keep you from losing complete control. It’s important to establish ways to cope and find help when you need it. I made my appointments, told my family and I am going to each session. It is not something I can afford to lose control of, so today I decided to share that with you. Don’t be afraid to fall and seek help when needed. It is not weak to ask for help or find help for yourself. Remember fighting mental illness is a fight that never stops. You wake up, it is part of you and you have to learn to fight it every day. No day will be easy, no day will be lite, each day is worth fighting for. Some people don’t have that battle but it is my battle and if it is your battle don’t give up. You are not alone no matter how many times you feel alone. Keep fighting because each day is worth living. ~~Emma~~
Words to live by
Be the light in someone’s darkness.
Storms Wrath
Storms Wrath
Her heart breaks at his words
Crushing the red dried roses that were once hers
Leaving nothing but dark red broken petals falling towards the grass
As the she lets out a howl from deep within
Crushed by his hateful words of deceit
The stab wounds going deep in her soul
She goes blue like a chill from winter’s brutal cold
Pain freezing her every thought
As her heart stops beating so damn hard
Tears staining her face with marks
She tries to understand what came her way
Lost for words with nothing left to say
Falling to the ground, she grabs the wounds on her way
His words of hate, breaking her once beautiful face
Written by: Emmanuelle-Rose Grace
Emma the Mizfit 