Lost my best friend today
Tag: brokenheart
Spencer greatest Frenchie ever!!!!
Today I found out I need to put my baby boy (dog) Spencer to sleep. I wish I could be more joyful but unfortunately this post wonât be joyful just sad. This little Frenchie came into my life 10 years ago. He was a whirlwind of just love and energy. He slept on my bed on his pillow that I had given him with his sheets. The sheets consisted of a pink playboy blanket that was super soft that he loved. On top of him he had a Tinkerbell blanket or the Dallas Cowboys blanket. He loved sleeping with them because my room was cold. We used to go for walks in the park and he loved walking. As he got older he would get more tired but he still loved walking even if he could hardly breathe on our walks. My sister lost her dog two years after I got Spencer. While she was grieving her loss I would let Spencer comfort her. It did cause a bit of struggle between us because she basically took ownership of him. But Spencer in the end had two mothers that loved him more than life itself. He continues to fight so I just pray that God have mercy and put him to rest. It will be painful to live without him but I wouldnât trade one moment with him for not having this pain. The pain in my heart just reminds me how much I love him. In the end it is all worth the sadness and grief. So my message on this warm night is to be present in life and enjoy each moment for nothing last forever but the love we give each other. Have a beautiful day/night. ~Emma~
Till we meet again
Today my uncle passed away surrounded by his loved ones. He was not a perfect man, did many wrong things but the man loved God. His passion for loving The Lord was extraordinary. I didnât always agree in a lot of his ways, but there is no doubt He loved God and that I respected. He will be missed by all of us. But one day we all be in heaven together again. Laughing and embracing each other reminiscing of a time that past. Though tears sting my eyes my heart is filled with joy. For the pain will subside but the love will be there forever with us. Till we meet again, may God be with you till we meet again. ~Emma~
Have a blessed weekend
I know what I say doesnât really matter to many people but this week has been very disheartening for me. Watching people losing their jobs(Tucker), rejoicing in a divorce(Steven Crowder) and finding some sort of sick pleasure in being right. While these things might seem trivial to some it has weighed on my heart. Not because of the actions of the individuals this has happened to but the people responding to these events. I used to think people can be cruel but held onto hope. But this week I was reminded that maybe there isnât hope for a future. Maybe our time has come to end on this planet and it will all be over soon. I want to believe people can still be good and kind but the more I see people behave the less I believe humans are capable of being good at all. I take comfort in knowing that Jesus Christ died for this very reason. We arenât good, we are all bad and it is through the blood of Jesus Christ that we will truly be made clean. I no longer think man can redeem themselves at all. The darkness chocking this earth is too great and instead of fighting it, many have just surrendered to it. Allowing themselves to become part of the darkness, part of the sin. They revel in its power and enjoy condemning others while not even looking at themselves in the mirror. None of us are good and we are all hypocrites but there is a difference between having pleasure in your sin and having remorse. I will not call on Christians or anyone else out because in the end we are each responsible for our own journey and what we did on this earth with our time. I do pray that this Sabbath many take time to be in the Presence of God. Not dwelling on others but asking God to change the sinfulness we carry. Instead of being the ugliest parts of the human race we become the beautiful things God created. Ask God to fill your heart with His love, His Holy Spirit and that He may guide you to be the light for His Glory not your own glory but His. I really hope everyone has a beautiful blessed weekend. May you all find peace in the chaos of this world. As always be the change you want to see in the world. Donât be like everyone else, learn to be the light God made you to be, and shine in the darkness. ~Emma~
Donât be afraid
Even if you express your affection to someone and they reject it. Donât give up, someone else will accept you. So never be afraid of telling someone you like them. It makes you courageous and teaches you accept rejection with grace. Learning and growing is a part of the human experience. We must all learn and grow if not we will never be the best version of ourselves. So never stop growing, never stop learning and even in the face of rejection remember you are stronger today than you were yesterday. Everything happens for a reason, so embrace your chaos. Courage is not found in hiding who you are. Courage is found being confident in who you have become. Grow, learn and be the best version of yourself. Have a beautiful blessed day. ~Emma~
Mental health
Honestly I am so sick of this attack on anyone that calls out mental illness. I refuse to be silent and I refuse to allow others to tell me what they think I should say. I have suffered for many years with mental illness. Itâs not my fault yâall want to continue allowing ppl to step on you because you refuse to call it out for what it is. A turd is still a turd no matter how pretty you dress it up. You talk about compassion, you speak about being kind well allowing a mentally ill person to not get help for their delusion isnât compassionate at all. You are part of the problem you are the reason many wonât seek the help they need. Afraid you might offend someone at least be honest with yourself. This isnât about helping itâs about being afraid of what others will label you. Well I tell you as I sit here writing this you can call me whatever you like. I refuse to allow anyone to put me in a box or label on me. I am not afraid because God has my back. The fact that yâall canât even call a mental illness for what is it makes me know for a fact yâall are on the wrong side of history. There is nothing wrong with being sick itâs about getting help and finding ways to deal with life in a healthy way. If you canât speak that truth you are completely in the darkness and there is no helping you. Not because you canât get help but because you have chosen to stay in the darkness. ~Emma~
Today
May this day bring you wonderful new blessings. May this day be blessed with paths that will help you to grow. And may this be the day you find the strength to know you are worth it. ~Emma~
Posted a new video on YouTube
So I posted a video on YouTube and I want to make sure that I am extremely clear. This isnât about hate this isnât about anything other than mental health issues. I hope everyone seeks help. I am just highlighting the fact that changing the definition or changing the meaning doesnât change the outcome. It doesnât help to continue perpetrating your own narrative to fit in your box. People need to know to get help for any mental disorder. By changing reality you are not helping the situation, you are making it worse. Please I ask on behalf of the mental health community that we all stop allowing for this narrative to continue. It will only harm the community it keeps âsayingâ it is trying to save.
To everyone
I am extremely blessed. I am thankful for the struggles that shape me each and every single day. More than anything I thank God for giving me the strength to keep going for without Him I would be nothing. Donât give up keep fighting. Everyone is facing something so always smile and remember you arenât alone. Kindness goes very far to someone who is having a really bad day. Make a difference, be the change you want to see. Have a beautiful night/day. ~Emma~
Thoughts at 2am
We are reminded once in a while to take a step back and remember no matter how bad things are for us they could always be worse. We think we suffer but true suffering like being tortured, beaten or even starving exists while we complain about little things that annoy us. In the end we should always be grateful for what we have, not what we donât. Does it minimize our own pain I donât believe so. I think by saying life is short just enjoy it, does belittle your own pain. But there is a grain of truth in the statement. Life is short and we donât get much time here why spend it on things that cannot be changed. I do love with all that I am but sometimes some people and somethings are not worth the pain or even the time to care. Let it go itâs not worth chasing something not worth your time. Donât waste time on things or people that arenât worthy of being with you. Let it go. ~Emma~
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