How does one ever truly learn to treat others than not by the people around them? How can a girl learn how a man is to treat her if the men around her weren’t strong or a good example? How can she learn what love looks like when she doesn’t know? Questions I have asked myself a dozen times. I have never truly found love or been loved by a man because I don’t know what that feels like. Though I might not have the love of a father that showed me how to love and be loved, my mother showed me a different kind of love. It’s weird because my father has always provided for us but has never truly been there, if that makes any sense. I guess it’s why I have never truly found a man to love me. It’s because I have never seen a strong relationship around me. With that said my mother has shown me love beyond words. But I will save that for Mother’s Day. But today my blog is about not having a strong man to show me how love is suppose to be like. Am I doomed to never know what love is? I have given my heart to men that have never deserved my heart. But was I truly in love if I have never known what love was? Love is more than butterflies in your stomach or feeling happy to see someone. It’s a connection, more than just a connection it’s respect, it’s unconditional, and it’s something worth fighting for I assume. Maybe not knowing how to love is a good thing. A chaotic soul as myself will surely find it easier being alone when you feel no one can truly hold you down. It’s easy to fall in and out of love with men I will never truly give my heart to. It’s easy to love someone far away like on the other side of the country because you will never be with them. Falling in love with their soul is easy but it’s truly never real. It’s easy to feel like it is real for the time because it does feel real but as time moves you know it is not real. In the end you learn it was just a connection you had with someone but never truly loved them. So on this Friday night I wonder will I ever fall in love or learn what that feels like. I guess only time will tell for as the night passes, my mind wanders into the chaos of stars in the sky. As the warm temperatures are high I know one day all my questions will be answered. But on this day, this night I sit in the quiet peace of the chaotic soothing sound of silence. Have a blessed weekend my friends. ~Emma~
Tag: advice
Change how you see the world.
Woke up this morning feeling good. Grateful to be alive and grateful for sleeping all night. It is extremely important that we are always grateful and practice gratitude. Life is hard it isn’t easy. Each day can be extremely tough on our minds, hearts and soul. But we must also learn to be grateful for the small things in life that bring us joy. The practice of gratitude is something that is small but can change how we see our world. Learning to focus our energy on something as little as being grateful for what we have and not we don’t have changes us. It changes our perspective on how we see the world and how we see our life. I hope today you have a beautiful blessed day. Stay strong you are not alone. ~Emma~
Start the day in a positive direction
Today is a new day so begin the week with a smile and a positive attitude. No matter how hard life may seem right now you aren’t alone. Remember you are loved. I know things may get dark and I know how it feels to be so broken over things you can’t change. You can change how you react. Stay focused on a positive goal and keep reaching for it. Don’t give up. May this week being you many blessings. ~Emma~
Admire
List the people you admire and look to for advice…
God, my mom, my sister and maybe I will chat with a friend. But for the most part I try to speak to God and try to get the best advice I can. I know it might be weird for some but for me He is the only One that truly understands me and He is the only One that can direct me to be a better person.
Christmas
What is your favorite holiday? Why is it your favorite?
Christmas is my favorite holiday. I know it’s not the birth day of his actual birth but just the fact that each year we get to celebrate his birth makes me happy. To sit back and remember that the King of kings came to be with His people. It’s such a beautiful reason to be happy. In a world filled with such darkness I hold onto that. A king giving himself for everyone. Maybe if more ppl believed that maybe our world wouldn’t look so dark. it’s why I love celebrating the Christmas season because it’s the birth of Jesus Christ My King.
Never lose hope
As each day goes by, I am reminded that people are not good. I try to think the good will eventually win I mean I believe in God, so I do believe that good will eventually win. But I also see the darkness that is spreading around. I see it seeping into the souls of people, pettiness, the evil thoughts that they just become. I don’t doubt God I don’t doubt that one day this will all end. It’s impossible for us to continue to walk in this darkness. I do have to say that I am disheartened by the reality of the people that I see in the world. It breaks my heart to see a generation growing up, looking at this future that is just so grim. I do hope that the future is better. I do hope tomorrow is better. I do hope and I will continue to hope that each day gets better. It’s weird when I was young I used to not think so much. As an adult, you’re constantly thinking of everything, thinking of life, thinking the choices you’ve made, thinking of just every single thing. I was once called a romantic because I believe in happy endings. I guess I am the kind of person that does believe that good does prevail at the end of the day, even if that’s not what happens in reality. I think if we lose that hope the grim reality of darkness takes a hold of us and we become the monsters that are running the earth now. I hope tomorrow is a beautiful day not just for you, but also for me. I hope each new day gets better for all of us, and I hope we never lose that hope. Have a blessed night. ~Emma~
Hustle
When do you feel most productive?
Like mid morning is when I think I feel the most productive.
Mental Health Awareness Month
As Mental Health Awareness Month begins, I hope everyone finds time to reach across to someone who might be in need of help. Just call a friend, check in see how they are doing. Sometimes kindness goes a long way so please again just reach out to your neighbors, friends or family. It’s okay to not be okay. You are not alone. Have a blessed day. ~Emma~
When is the last time you took a risk? How did it work out?
A few weeks ago I told someone I liked them. They wanted to remain friends. I don’t regret it at all we are still friends and we can still just chat for hours. I would regret never telling them how I felt. I would rather feel pain for a minute than live with regret my whole life. Our life on this earth is too short to live with a mountain of regret. So even if it might cause you pain I say take the risk, you will never know how the story might go if you never try.
Have a blessed weekend
I know what I say doesn’t really matter to many people but this week has been very disheartening for me. Watching people losing their jobs(Tucker), rejoicing in a divorce(Steven Crowder) and finding some sort of sick pleasure in being right. While these things might seem trivial to some it has weighed on my heart. Not because of the actions of the individuals this has happened to but the people responding to these events. I used to think people can be cruel but held onto hope. But this week I was reminded that maybe there isn’t hope for a future. Maybe our time has come to end on this planet and it will all be over soon. I want to believe people can still be good and kind but the more I see people behave the less I believe humans are capable of being good at all. I take comfort in knowing that Jesus Christ died for this very reason. We aren’t good, we are all bad and it is through the blood of Jesus Christ that we will truly be made clean. I no longer think man can redeem themselves at all. The darkness chocking this earth is too great and instead of fighting it, many have just surrendered to it. Allowing themselves to become part of the darkness, part of the sin. They revel in its power and enjoy condemning others while not even looking at themselves in the mirror. None of us are good and we are all hypocrites but there is a difference between having pleasure in your sin and having remorse. I will not call on Christians or anyone else out because in the end we are each responsible for our own journey and what we did on this earth with our time. I do pray that this Sabbath many take time to be in the Presence of God. Not dwelling on others but asking God to change the sinfulness we carry. Instead of being the ugliest parts of the human race we become the beautiful things God created. Ask God to fill your heart with His love, His Holy Spirit and that He may guide you to be the light for His Glory not your own glory but His. I really hope everyone has a beautiful blessed weekend. May you all find peace in the chaos of this world. As always be the change you want to see in the world. Don’t be like everyone else, learn to be the light God made you to be, and shine in the darkness. ~Emma~
Emma the Mizfit 